Hush

{ARMANDO}

Hello, it is me. Today is that day. The day when I wake up feeling like a complete mess. I feel like crap. Not that I don't feel like that every day, but today I feel much worse. I want to go out and scream till my throat gives out.

This is the morning when everything seems to be rushing in. I feel like my head is going to explode anytime soon. Memories rush in and they are all nightmares. I don't know why all over it has decided to come, and today of all the days. 

I hate it. 

When not one nightmare comes in but all of it, bits by bits. I don't why they can't arrange themselves and come in like in a list. Pfft. As if that would be any better. But seriously, I prefer to lay on the bed and know I am going to think from the first time I realized I am a mess to this time.