SILENCED PAIN
How could I live with pain from the past?
The pain that almost kills me day and night
It's deep in my heart and it won't go away
It stirs up my emotions and puts me in bed
I am trying to put on a mask and pretend its not there
But it's so hard to hide my anger and tears
I suffer alone and nobody is there
But I wish they were here
Sharing my abuse, they wish they did not hear
Or asking me, is this real or a delusion?
How do I cope, day after day?
When the frustration and pain get in the way
standing on the end of the cliff
Why bother, why carry on?
Knowing these thoughts are just not right
My abuser knows I would not win.
No hatred for my innocence stolen
No cure for the depression in me
If they were ever caught,
A slap on their wrist
Is all they would get
Leaving me crippled inside my head