Not being able to love again

There is a huge difference between fighting for someone who loves you and fighting for someone to love you. Rejection is one of the hardest phases of one's life, loving someone who does not love you back is disastrous.

It is not good to attach many emotions to someone except the person values you very well if not, one-sided expectation can mentally destroy you.

Debbi attached too many feelings and emotions to Damien while Damien in question did not reciprocate the feelings, he saw her as his sister.

When Damien rejected Debbi, her world came crashing, he crashed all her hopes of loving again, he hurt her madly and it was a wound that could not easily heal. It might take up to years to heal if it is not impossible.

Debbi had loved Damien since when she was five, she remembered meeting Damien after going to the park that day with her siblings, how they played with each other, they bought ice creams, biscuits and candy, tears slipped down her eyes remembering how Damien grew up into a handsome man that every lady would dream of having, she thought he was hers but that assumption was wrong

Indeed! She broke her own heart expecting people to be as attached to her as she is to them. Damien told her that he would end their friendship if it becomes a barrier between him and Aimee, of what use is the friendship now?

Debbi silently washed her face to prevent causing attention, her eyes were a little bit red, so she tried her possible best to cover up before going to class.

The school was over that day and she was about to get a taxi home when she saw Damien hovering around Aimee, she halted and closed her eyes, trying not to think too much about it, the next thing she saw was Damien opening the door of his car for Aimee to get in

Wait! Was he putting on a show for her? She bet he was because he smirked at her before entering the driver's seat. Breathing in heavily she wasted no time flagging down a taxi

She silently watched the activities of the surrounding, the driver did a good job by playing hip-hop music and once in a while she sang along with it.

The driver pulled up in front of her house and she paid him before going in

"Good evening mom" Debbi greeted the instant her path crossed her mother's "Debbi, how are you? How was school today?" Lilian asked

"Fine mom" Debbi replied grumpily "is everything alright with you?" Lilian asked "mom I am fine, I just want to be alone," Debbi told her before going into her room

After bathing, Debbi tried to do her homework to be occupied but images of Damien and her kept flashing in her head, she kept hearing his little voice and kept on remembering how they played and studied together, then her rejection came into her head, how he told her that he would do anything in the world for Aimee even if that includes ending their friendship.

Debbi did not know when a tear slipped down her eye until it fell and wet her book. She quickly used her hand to wipe off the tears, trying to focus on her homework.

She managed to finish her assignment and climbed onto the bed, she brought out her phone but there was nothing to use it for, no one to chat to, she had only one good intimate friend and that was Damien, but now she had lost him.

She was not good at making new friends Damien was the one who made friends for her, Lucas, Aimee and Anita became her friends' thanks to Damien but she had only Luca's contact and she bet that Damien had told him what transpired between them, she did not want to embarrass herself more.

Social media was flooding with Aimee and Damien's relationship, since Damien was a hot boy in the school, it was the topic of the day, everyone was talking about it and that made matters worse for Debbi

Debbi deliberately switched off her phone, she was done seeing those posts of Aimee and Damien, she rested her head on the bed while her eyes looked upwards, at the ceiling

"Deborah!" Franklin came in, "how was school today?" Franklin asked "awesome" Debbi sounded sarcastic

"Really?" Franklin could note the sarcasm in her reply "Damien rejected me" said Debbi

"Debbi, you have not given up on this guy, have you?" Franklin asked, "Franklin, he is…" Debbi did not complete her statement because Franklin interrupted her

"He was your crush Debbi, I know! But now you have to put yourself together, focus on your academics so you can be a better person in life" Franklin advised

"You would never understand, it is easier said than done, I loved this guy for the past thirteen years of my life, I gave him thirteen years of my life Franklin, it is not easy to forget all the happy moments we shared" Debbi's voice was cracking

"I never said it is easy, and I never said you should forget those happy memories but give yourself a chance Debbi" Franklin continued

"You never loved yourself, Debbi, if you did then you would know your worth. You were too busy loving someone else you forgot about yourself, you have to love yourself because when rejection comes, you can be able to withstand it. You have to learn to love yourself for your good" Trevor's voice filled the room

"I love myself" Debbi was almost on the verge of crying "no you do not" Trevor retorted

"If you love yourself, you would know your worth and a mere rejection would not break you this much" Trevor added

"You are a guy and I am a girl, guys can control their feelings but girls do not, you rarely find a girl who loves a guy for thirteen and the guy rejects her and she is not affected. Have you also forgotten that most of the time guys are the ones who break girl's hearts?" Debbi asked already crying

"It is not a mere rejection, it is a rejection of a lifetime. Damien broke me into pieces, he shredded me and I never saw that coming, yes I have to move on but I do not think I would be able to love again after this"