Xavier

he couldn't understand that guy you're obsessed with me- you barely know me!-
at least with Lorain, it makes sense I knew her my whole life why wouldn't I be obsessed with her? but you only met me once- I- just drank your blood- but he started to realize-
he did more than just that- why did he do that?!- the blood just tasted good that was it- I liked his blood- not his body- or how he reacted- I- didn't want more of him-
he was in full denial- it's why he ran away
and told himself it was just food he didn't think that person would come after him and steal his girl! - he must have been following him since then- how else would he know Lorain? and he doesn't even know my name!
"Maybe I know it if you told me" he heard him reply
"hey!- did you just read my mind?!" he shouted
"I've always been able to ever since you drank my blood and I was near you I could hear every thought-" he replied
"then why don't you know it?" He asked
"I can hear every thought you project- and I don't want to invade your privacy more than I already have" he replied
"that's how you know about Lorain-" he replied
"Yeah and she's quite nice I like her as a friend" he replied
"You- care about her?" he replied
"I do now- I'm glad I got to know her- and I know you care about each other-and I ruined that- just because of my jealously and for that I am truly sorry-" he replied
"I- I'm sorry too- I judged you too quickly
you just acted that way because of how I did-" he replied
"Yeah but let's forget this and start over friends?" he replied and held out his hand
"Friends" he replied and shook his hand
when their hands touched he felt a shock
through his body and quickly pulled it back
"Since we're friends now - can you tell me your name?" he asked
"Xavier" he replied
"Callus" he replied back
"That's a unique name- I've never heard it before" Xavier replied
"Yours too- it's unique as well- I don't hear it often-" Callus replied
"so -what does it mean?" Xavier asked
"What?" he replied
"Your name-" Xavier replied
"Oh- it means son of the battle chief good- it's also when your skin gets hard" he replied
Xavier went into a panic after the last one-
"I- don't!" He shouted
"I meant like on your feet- you can get Calluses on your feet and that way I'll be with you every step" he replied
Xavier punched his stomach
"so what does your name mean?" callus asked
"Bright or new house- pretty lame I know" he replied
"I can think of you when I get a new house- and how bright you make it" Callus replied
Xavier punched him in the stomach again
"stop it don't make such cheesy jokes-" he replied
"it's hard not to and you're fun to tease" Callus replied
"don't tease me-" he replied
"why not? do you not like it?" callus asked
"I-it's fine and it's not like you teasing me will make me gay for you" he replied
"If you say so-" Callus replied
Xavier was gay for him- he just doesn't know it yet-
hey!- I still like Lorain- and two of us are meant for each other- and since the two of them are just friends I can have her now- right?- he thought to himself- but he never knew Lorain's true feelings- he knew she loved him- but- he sensed she wasn't entirely happy he thought it just because of her illness- but was it possible she- knew- callus?- did she love him as well?
possibly more than him? but callus- he- didn't think of her that way- and he fell for me-
I don't like being in a love triangle- do I have to choose?- I like Lorain why do I have to choose between her and a guy I barely know?- is it because she likes him too?- I saw the way she smiled at him- it was with more joy than me-
does she hate me?- because I made that mistake?- it was her I was supposed to change- and instead, it was him- turning a human- makes their connection stronger-
and now he's never going to leave me alone-
Xavier contemplated all these thoughts in his head- wondering what he should do -
he wants to go after Lorain but at the same time he's scared of Callus- he knows of his feelings for him but Xavier is unsure of his own- he loves Lorain- she has been the only one in his heart- but he feels- something with a callus- but he can't call it love- he isn't sure what it is- but he wants to get close to him as well- he is the cause of Callus's problems-
If he wasn't so stupid that night and controlled himself- Callus wouldn't be so obsessed with him- and maybe he and Lorain could be happy
but he ruined everything- he wanted to blame Callus but he couldn't anymore- especially knowing that it was his fault- but what was it that he liked so much about his blood?- why did he want it?- was it because he just became a vampire and the scent was so alluring?- there had to be more to it-
there was a true reason why it tasted so good-
because they were soulmates-
f*ck- the more he thought about it he realized
that's why the link worked so well- it's why he can read his mind- that's he feels things he can't explain-but that can't be right why does he love Lorain then?- why doesn't his heart flutter?- could it be because he's dead? or does he not feel that way? but he feels something-
he's just unsure- he remembered the shock he felt when they touched- it was another sign of their connection- but could he go through with this? was this the right path? he knows he still loves Lorain- but she doesn't and if she can't love him - he won't force her to he just wishes she didn't fall for someone Who couldn't love her back- and he knows that person loves him
and that she would want them to be happy -
but he still isn't sure- if he can love him-
he's only ever loved Lorain much less a man-
but that didn't bother him anymore- and maybe he can grow to love him- he just has to push back the pain of the past-
it was time for him to move on he already had two lifetimes with Lorain now he can have it with someone else he knows it what she would want- and he was ready- for it-
but first, he let out his tears remembering everything he was suffering for so long-
it took so long to finally meet her again and she was taken away from him but the one who took her didn't love her back- and he loved him- because of his mistake-but maybe it was a good thing- because he has someone who will always love him- and he can learn to return it- it will just take time and he was perfectly fine with that- now if he wants test things out he just had to touch him-
like a hug- he wasn't sure about the other ways and he didn't want to kiss him- at least not yet- he would wait until he was sure of his feelings - there was something there and it needed to grow- but he was so scared- but it has no reason to be afraid any more- and he is willing to accept it- he regrets what he had
told Callus but he knew the truth he could read his mind for f*cksake and it made him feel worse- he lied to him himself and most importantly Lorain- though he didn't say it directly and he didn't want to hurt her feelings seeing him lie- only made her feel worse
he still had feelings for her- but that was from the past he didn't know the current her and instead callus did - and the two of them were happy- he was the one who overthought things- but he knew they couldn't truly be happy together because he belonged with her
but that isn't true anymore in the past it was but now he belongs with someone else-
and that is Callus- and he's ready to let him in