Making up for my mistakes

When I woke up for the third time, it was probably morning. I opened my eyes but didn't get up. I am looking at the ceiling and trying to figure out some things.

I have already fought Apollo and his divine army. I have subdued them through sheer strength. But then I lost control myself and let my powers take control.

I have no memory of that. But Gwen said that I had plunged this world into chaos. I will have to confirm it for myself later. The previous harbinger of chaos was a rather peculiar person.

Gwen said that she was so chaotic that it was only fitting that she became the harbinger of chaos. But my predecessor killed her and I seem to have inherited the authority of chaos.

How did that happen? I need some more answers. I try to move this time. I am not feeling any weight on my arms. But I feel a presence around me.

I look for the presence and find Samantha next to me. She is sleeping peacefully like a kitten. I see no one else aside from the both of us in the room.

I sit up and stretch. I feel heavy. Must be because all of the weight I had on me.

Let's do a check. I focus and gather some on my palm. It's murky. Why? Before it was white. It became murky all of a sudden. And the mana in my body feels violent. Is something wrong with me?

Thinking about these and sitting around won't help me. I get down from the bed and stand up.

I should go downstairs and check on things. I open the door and go downstairs.

"Oh, you've woken up?" (Fiona)

I met Fiona as soon as I came down. She was probably going to the kitchen.

"Yeah. How long was I asleep?"

"Maybe a day. You were brought back yesterday and you were sleeping until now. So yeah, a long time." (Fiona)

She answers my question and hastily goes into the kitchen. But why is she acting that way? She didn't look me into my eyes.

She avoided eye contact with me and left as soon as she could.

I go to dining hall. Maybe the others are there. But I found no one.

"Fiona, where is everyone?"

"They have gone to visit the king. They all needed to explain what had happened and fix any problems that wasn't solved." (Fiona)

All of them went to the king? And everyone went? That's unexpected. What the hell did I do?

"Wait a bit. Breakfast is almost ready." (Fiona)

She says from the kitchen. I am feeling hungry so I decide to wait. But I hear footsteps coming downstairs. Maybe Samantha is up.

And she comes to the dining hall. I see that she is rubbing her eyes. Maybe she is still sleepy.

She sits next to me but falls on my lap and falls asleep again.

"Hey, don't sleep here."

I shake her to wake her up but she isn't waking up. What to do? She brings me breakfast and see Samantha sleeping on my lap.

"What should I do?"

I ask for her help. But she smiles at me and puts my breakfast down in front of me.

"You should just let her sleep. She was exhausted after fixing you. You can at least let her have some sleep." (Fiona)

"Exhausted? What exactly did I do?"

I ask Fiona. She looks at me. In my eyes with a look that's very understandable. I must have done something incredibly stupid.

"You suddenly brought Lord Apollo to the church and tied him up. Then you fought with the templar knights and killed everyone. You were showing it to the entire capital.

Everyone saw your actions and were afraid of you. Panic broke out. People were going insane. You were saying things like, "I will destroy this world. I will destroy Jupiter. I am coming for you. This time, be ready to die."

Humans are very fragile, Clive. They put too much trust into their gods. So when one of their gods is taken hostage, all tied up and helpless, it's only natural for them to go insane." (Fiona)

Listening to her I am shocked. Did I really do stuff like that? I don't even remember. I feel like hiding myself in a hole.

"How was everything resolved?"

I ask her again. From what I hear, I wasn't in the right mind. Meaning they must have used force to subdue me.

"It was an ordeal. Fay said that they had to fight you. Everyone except Eden and Tiana joined together to fight you. Aldo and Alyssa were with me. But they slept through the chaos.

The city was half destroyed. The northern corner was gone. The castle collapsed from your fight. A lot of people died. Hazel was gravely injured.

Aura had a few broken bones while Fay almost died." (Fiona)

She gives me a sharp stare. I can only wryly eat. After all, I have done all of that. In right mind or not doesn't matter. I have done those horrible things to those who I consider to be my family.

"In the end, she had to step in. Fay said that she slapped you on your right cheek and you fainted. She must have been extremely disappointed in you." (Fiona)

Fiona looks at Samantha as she says. So Samantha stepped in to stop me. That must have been awkward.

"After that, she fixed everything that was broken. She even brought back the dead people. And manipulated the entire capital's memories. At least that's what Fay told me." (Fiona)

That's why she's this exhausted. I owe her a big one.

After my breakfast was over, I started brooding over this matter. Samantha is still on my lap, sleeping. I am petting her. It feels like I have a cat. Oh, where's Jade?

I ask Fiona and she said that Hazel took Jade with her. Apparently, Jade is currently wary of me. She ran away from me when I was brought in. Maybe she felt that I was dangerous.

This time I have messed up. It's a big mess. I now have to apologize to all of them and make it up for my mistakes. I will get on my knees and apologize for the inconvenience have caused them. Most of all, I need to thank Samantha for what she has done this.

Without her, I may have done something I would regret later. But what can I do for her? I will come up with something or I can just ask her. It might be more effective.