Constant practice over an extended period of time made that uncomfortable feeling vanish slowly.
He began to embody what he wanted to embody.
Instead of feeling like he wasn't himself, he started feeling like he was becoming someone new.
It wasn't a bad feeling.
And finding references to different shows and novels he used to love in his everyday life brought some flavor to his monotonous life.
Things were looking up.
And then, something new happened.
He felt a strange sensation when he looked at a certain beast.
Something that he felt would help him regain his humanity even more.
That was the only reason he saved it.
Because he was curious about this new stimulation he was receiving.
But that was enough of a reason.
New stimulation was always welcome.
So he saved that beast.
He killed hordes and hordes of beasts that chased it while doing so.