If

TOH

If she is truly the one, then he will have to break her heart and he doesn't want to do that. Sumire's state yesterday after he had a go at her wasn't normal. He has seen her cry and break down plenty of other times. However, last night was different. Her emotional trauma is deeper than he originally thought. The scars caused by those experiences won't heal easily. They may never truly heal, she may have to live with those scars for the rest of her life. 

But, he wants to find a way to free her from the shackles of her past soon. Even if she can't live the life of a normal girl, he still wants to do whatever he can to make sure she smiles as much as possible. 

'I truly have fallen for her. I thought I already confirmed that after the trip we went on.' However when he realized her life was in danger, something inside him snapped. If Sumire is the one the boss wants, he will have to leave the organisation. 

'I have to disobey and betray Lucifer.'

It's not like he can't, he can. Grandmother can take care of herself, she has implied plenty of times over the last few years that he doesn't need to worry about her.

'Live your life Toh.'

Back when they first had that discussion, he didn't have any aspirations. His dream of becoming the number one fashion designer? He can still achieve that even if he is part of the Black alice organisation. That's why he never thought too deeply about those words. But after meeting Sumire, he finds himself thinking about it a lot.

Live his life, a peaceful life with the woman he loves.

His thoughts break off, spotting Sumire at the door. He immediately turned the stove off. "Come over here."

The moment Sumire was in front of him, the girl pounced on him. She is kissing him everywhere.

Toh chucklee. "Are you upset that I teased you last night?"

Sumire grumbled as she tugged on his clothes.

"Beautiful, you're still injured--" Toh paused, seeing her flushed cheeks.

Is she nervous? Even though she was the first one to attack.

"You can go slowly. It's okay." Toh placed a reassuring hand on her back and Sumire continued to lick, suck on his neck.

It's rare for her to be so passionate. Perhaps he ignited a flame inside her last night.Though for a while they have gradually been experimenting a bit more. It still surprises him whenever she willingly gets close.

"Are you alright?" Toh asked after she stopped. She was looking at him with flushed cheeks, but she kept her gaze on him.

Sumire nodded and snuggled into his embrace. 

Toh brushes her hair with his hands. "You'll need a few days off from school with those injuries--" Toh paused, getting a better look at her appearance.

Sumire had a blanket wrapped around her and she was still half asleep. 

She looks cute and innocent. She tilted her head to one side. "What about you?" Sumire asked. 

"I'll be staying with you." Toh managed to say.

Her eyes brightened. But before they could continue this conversation, somebody strolled into the room.

It was Tsueno.

"I don't have much time. But," Mamoru thrust some documents in Sumire's hands.

"What is this?"

"The story about why you weren't in the concur."

Toh glanced over to see detailed medical reports about Sumire being in an accident.

"San." Sumire mumbled softly understanding.

"Although the attack on the main hospital was all over the news. There are other hospitals in the area." Mamoru explained. "The staff you saved in the main hospital are more than happy to testify where you were."

Sumire sighed. "They should be focusing on recovering. The same goes for San." She trailed off. "Which hospital are they using right now? I'll make sure to pop in to visit."

"The one in the western part of town. Please tell me when you're going there."

"Is it not safe?" Toh interjected.

There is no way he will let her go anywhere that isn't safe for a while. He wrapped his arms around her protectively and Sumire laughed nervously.

"It's not like that, it's just it's surrounded by a forest and is in a closed off area."

Toh frowned. "That sounds dangerous to me."

"Right?" Mamoru nodded in agreement. "I keep telling her that but she used to sneak off there all the time when she was still dating Sano."

'So, it's a place where the two hid their relationship from prying eyes. Now I definitely can't let her go there alone.'

"Alright you two. I get it, let's schedule a time for all of us to go there." Sumire turned to Mamoru. "Ru, can you thank him for me? and make sure...he…"

"I understand. Get some rest Ki." Mamoru patted her hair and exited the room.

The moment he was sure that Tsueno was gone, Toh grabbed hold of Sumire's hands. He was still deciding what was the best way to go about his next actions. 'I am furious that she still cares so much about that bastard. Furious that she went to him after everything that has happened.'

The thought crossed his mind several times yesterday that she risked her life because she still loved Nagawa. But, recalling the words she said to him last night. Toh understood, the one Sumire has chosen is him and not Nagawa. Those words were not a lie, that much he could tell. The way she touched him, still remained firmly in his mind.

Sumire loves him, but how does she feel about Nagawa?

"Um Toh?"

"What?" Toh snapped.

He was very irritated, it felt like his emotions would explode.

"Can we continue?" Sumire asked.

"If we have sex now. It will be harsh, angry sex, do you want that?"

"Toh--"

Toh sighed deeply and shook his head. "Sorry, when I hear that name. When I see that you still fucking care for that bastard. I just get upset."

"I--I'm sor--" Sumire stammered.

He hugged her tightly. "Don't apologize beautiful."

"But you're angry.."

Toh shakes his head. "It's not your fault."

It really isn't her fault. From the very start of their relationship, from their first meeting. He knew she was still hurt from her previous relationship. Even if she never loved Nagawa, she still cared for him a lot otherwise it wouldn't have broken her when they broke up. He knew, and still asked her out. 

"I'm going to do some work at the back."

Sumire nodded knowingly. "T-then, I'll just relax here till you come back."

Toh leaned over and placed a soft kiss on her forehead. "If your wounds start hurting, just get me."

He turned and he headed in the direction of his little studio and collapsed on the ground and cursed. That's not what was supposed to happen. He was supposed to ask her for the details, and calmly discuss things with her.