Coffee Cups

On a particularly nice and sunny Sunday afternoon Vanessa Coston left her apartment complex to go to her usual spot at her favorite café to escape the loneliness the walls of her apartment made her feel .She was always the type of girl who would keep to herself. Even so to the point that it would be damaging to herself .Her mum had told her not once but so many times that she should stand up for herself . Although she wanted to she could never be able to bring herself to do just that . All her life she never really knew what happiness really felt like .She would look at everyone around her and wonder how it felt like.This all started when she was born ,her mother ran away with her boyfriend after graduating from high school, who her parents were never in favor of her dating they would always tell her that boys who acted and dressed the way her dad did were nothing but trouble and would break her heart but she wouldn’t listen. He was the type of boy to knock you off your feet , he was sweet and he said all the nice things girls liked to hear. All the girls in the area ,where jealous because they all wanted his attention. Sooner or later she realized the true horror of all her parents told her .

They went on to live a happy life together for some time ,she felt as if nothing in the world could ever strip her of her happiness .But slowly their life wasn’t as happy as she wanted it to be he started becoming a bit abusive little by little he would shout at her for the littlest things ever and made her feel as though everything was her fault . One time he actually almost beat her to unconsciousness and that was when she was pregnant with Vanessa and this went on to continue to even when Vanessa was born and she’d cry herself to sleep wishing that she would have listened to her parents but by then it was already too late she couldn’t even go back cause her mom told her to that if she chose him she would never be welcome ever so she was stuck there . Little 3 year old Vanessa would watch her parents shout and scream at each other and when her dad would start beating her mom she would go and find a hiding spot because she just couldn’t stand to hear the sounds of her moms screams and pleas . It wasn’t until she was 4 when her dad started doing the same to her and he’d make her mom watch and threaten her that she needed discipline . He’d find joy at beating her and calling her all these degrading names and she’d cry so loud that one time the neighbors came knocking on their door , so her mom would need to assure them for some time that everything was fine . So her mom would have no choice but to watch her little girl cry and scream and it made her feel so worthless and less of mom so she made a promise to herself that she’d try to make a way for her and her daughter to escape . This went on until Vanessa was about 7 years old she was finally able to run away with her and get herself a job as an assistant .

They moved far away from the place and never looked back .They were better off after that she was able to put her in a good school and she bought a cheap used car and was also saving money for a house for them life wasn’t too bad .Until she had realized that Vanessa wasn’t the same as other children .She was so too quiet and didn’t like being in the company of friends or other people in general and she wouldn’t really be excited for anything ,she was just her. Vanessa’s mom decided to take her to a therapist, who wasn’t of much help .So she didn’t give up she tried them all but not one of them seemed to help her daughter . Fast forward to her junior high school years she was facing being bullied for being quiet .Every time she tried to say something she would feel like her throat was closing up on her and she would freeze.She felt like everyone was always judging her and she never liked that. She couldn’t even make a single friend and no one liked her .They all thought she was being a snob or that she thought that she was better than everyone else. So she took it all , the emotional bullying and physical .One time it got so bad that her mom was called at school because she had been beaten pretty bad by one of the boys who were in their senior years in high school. Those are some of the memories woman she is made Vanessa the young. As she walks to the café she thinks about how much she doesn’t feel like going to her job tomorrow because her boss is always mean to her and how no one likes her .But she has grown to accept that no one has ever liked her besides her mom who died 2 years ago battling with lung cancer . She tried to get in contact with her grandparents but they would tell her that they will call her and promise to be with her and made her feel better about everything. They would even tell her they wanted her to visit or stay with them permanently . But they would never live out their promises so she stopped trying . She always felt numb nothing really excited her not even buying a new pair of shoes that she liked.It felt more like her body just had given up on trying to make her excited for anything . She went on to enter the café the door making a sound , she always felt as though everyone was looking at her and judging her but she would just brush that off . She sits at her usual spot and orders the same thing she orders every day , she gets out her writing journal witch her therapist has encouraged her to do and starts writing about how she feels .As she is sitting there she can feel a someones presence lingering over her .