Raspberry Entrance

Minutes after she saw the man she was trying to ignore. She saw a body like structure walking towards her, at least she thought that was what she saw. The waitress can up to her to talk to her because she knows her pretty well. I don’t know what it was about her that day but she was pretty jumpy. The waitress takes the sit right in front of her. Time had passed by and the waitress had been going on and on about her problem that she had fingered out. At that moment she just could not focus. Every thought after another her head was in balanced and messy.

She just wanted to run out of the cafe but she knows she could not because she would be causing a scene and every one would be terrified and worried.So she decide to sit there and pretend that she was OK .Her therapist had told her to be free to do whatever she was comfortable cause people are not holding her captive .But in this situation, she felt it was what she had to do. Feeling so overwhelmed she look back to see if the man that had been looking at her was still staring at her, only to see that he had left. Taking a deep breath she lets out a sigh of relief that she had been holding in for a long time now. The waitress in front of her had noticed that she was a bit out of her usual character, so she told her to go back home to get some rest .Putting together her things she thanks the waitress for understanding in a very shaky manner.

Then she storms off out the cafe to her apartment. She is immediately hit by the cooling wind outside, when she starts pulling out her phone from her packet to call her therapist to help with her panic attack. Thinking she is delusional she quickly hangs up and stops to sit down think that being in her apartment alone isn’t the best place to be right now, but she decide to go anyway because she was in desperate need to be alone .Vanessa knew that she was in a mentally bad state but not, so bad that such a little thing would make feel so un easy and sad .She reached the apartment elevator. She went in the elevator with two other girls who seemed to be very judgmental, but she did not say anything or do anything to achieve their attention. And so the elevator reached her floor and she went out. She took a deep because of her encounter with the two girls .She didn’t like people like that, she felt people like that seemed to drain her energy and make her fell not good about herself. Vanessa slide the key card on to her door and went in , in deep thought she throw herself onto the couch as her gaze shifted to the ceiling .She really did not talk much because she was in her head more than a half of the time. she really did not like being around a lot of people but her therapist had advice her to be around people .She had become better at it, but what would terrify her was when unexpected thing would happen to her, like when people who come up to her or stare at her .So hence she was not able to form relationships .To her the best things or scenarios would happen in her head.

She had become so bad at social interactions .In my option her brain would punished her because every day she would go over what she answered to people what they said to her and way they did or said that on, that day. Vanessa woke up to be greeted by the darkness in the same position she was on when I suppose she fall asleep. She quickly woke to check the time because her shift was about to start at the gas station .She turned on the lights on the living room and quickly stormed out to her bedroom. She quickly wakes to change into her uniform and rushed into the little corner where her sink is and brushed her teeth. She looked into the mirror, and all i saw was a very unwell person. Vanessa walked to kitchen to get herself a snack to eat on her way. She then took her things and ran out the door.

I do not know if she had realized but she was not eating well as of that time. In my eyes she was unwell and need some help but all I know is that she kept on telling herself she was OK maybe thinking she would be OK if she kept on saying it. Most of the time when time walking to work she was think of what had happened in the cafe earlier. She pushed the doors of the gas station, only to be greeted by her college Paige who was pissed off by the timing. Paige was pretty mad but she didn’t say a lot about the time as she knows that yelling at her would trigger her. “Hi”, she greeted her as she walked in. “Hello”, Vanessa relied. Paige handed her the key and walked out while waving at her. She went the back to put her things at her storage. Then she went back to the set by the back of the counter. She turned on her phone and started playing her favorite game at least that was what I saw from where I was. It had been about nine minutes since she had started playing her friend Maggie walked in. As she walked in a sliver beaten down car earn her attention. Without a lot of interest she changed her gaze to her friend who was now saying hi to her. She then answered with a friendly hi. “Crazy day uhh”, Maggie says laying her bag on the counter. After storming off to the back (the stuff only room). Maggie comes back quicker than I expected and after she walked in the customer from the car outside walks in the store .Maggie takes the set next to Vanessa while grabbing same raspberry bubble gum .A man wear wash out khaki pants and a grey t-shirt opens the front entrance.