It's Alright To Cry

He shook his head. "No, I was not scared."

Tang Wan smiled, feeling slightly relieved. She would feel bad if she had scared him. But she thought of something and her mood instantly went down again.

She asked, looking up at him with somber eyes. "Do you think I'll ever get well again? Look at what happened that day? What if I hurt someone?"

Her head was lowered and her eyelids drooped, revealing her curly eyelashes. Her beautiful face was in his view but from her furrowed brows and low mood, he could see that she was very sad.

He smiled comfortingly. "You'll be fine." His hands fell beside her hand that she placed on the swing beside her. He glanced at it for a moment but he didn't take it. He looked at her. "You're brave, Tang Wan. There are countless manic patients all over the world. Some take medications. Some resign themselves to fate. Some take drugs to suppress the symptoms and don't dare to get themselves treated."

He paused for a moment, letting the words sink in before saying, "You're brave enough. You didn't resign yourself to fate like others. You could have refused my help when I gave you the chance to. But you didn't. You grabbed your chance and let yourself be treated. That's already halfway into recovering. You already took the first step so everything else won't be hard."

Tang Wan sniffed. She wasn't saying anything but she felt warm all over. She nodded and looked at him and said, her voice riddled with certainty. "I'll be fine."

Fu Tinghao nodded. He pursed his lips and said looking at her seriously. "Actually, your situation is not that bad. It wasn't meant to be like this assuming you were not immediately taken to a mental hospital. All you needed was therapy and everything would have been fine. You know, assumptions affect people a lot. Your situation worsened because of the environment you were in. You understand what I mean?"

Tang Wan nodded. She understood that she would have been fine by now. If Feng Jun hadn't thrown her in a mental hospital to rot.

She bit her lips and looked at him. "Do you think I'm exaggerative? Most people won't be like this just because their parents died. It's because I'm useless."

Hearing her words, Fu Tinghao immediately furrowed her brows and berated her. "Don't ever say that again. You're not useless. The moment you start to have such misconceptions about yourself, you won't know when you'll truly become useless."

Tang Wan nodded in understanding after being scolded and promised not to think that way again.

Fu Tinghao sighed when he saw how obedient she was and couldn't bear to blame her anymore. He shifted in his seat, facing her and told her gently. "In this life, everyone has their own priorities and what they adore. What you consider precious might not be even worth mentioning to others. What makes you happy might not make me happy and vice versa. It's because you love your parents a lot that you feel so burdened by their death.

So, don't feel useless because of that. If you complain about your ability to feel sorrow because you lost something precious to you, what should people that suffer from Alexithymia do? They can't even express or identity any emotions. So, be grateful of what you have.

Just because you're at your lowest end right now, doesn't mean you'll never stand up again. You just need the right determination and will to survive."

Tang Wan couldn't say a word. She reflected on herself and was gratified. She couldn't fathom how she was going to survive if she couldn't even express any emotions. Would she be an ice block then?

"You're human. You have the right to feel sad if you're hurt. So, it's alright to cry. It's alright to feel sad." Fu Tinghao continued.

The moment he said that, Tang Wan stiffened. She clenched her fists and her eyes watered. She couldn't express how she felt but she felt lighter than ever. It was as though a heavy weight had been lifted off her shoulders.

She was very close with her parents when they were still alive. They were living and treated her very well. She was the only child so she was very pampered. Even when she had already married, she was still her parents' precious child.

They didn't want to stress at all and always let her have her way. So even though she was the only heir to the business, she wasn't trained to take over. It was also why Feng Jun and her uncle had managed to infiltrate the company and take it for themselves.

She was very sad. At the thought, her parents were really gone and she wouldn't see them again, she felt really stuffed.

They sat in silence for sometime before she suddenly looked at him and said, "I want to visit my parents graves."

"Huh?"

Tang Wan repeated, "I haven't been there since the burial."

Fu Tinghao looked at her for one moment before saying, "Okay. I'll take you there tomorrow."

"Thank you."

"Hm. It's my pleasure."

The duo sat like that for sometime before he stood up and dusted his clothes. He looked at her and said, "We should go in."

"Yes." She also stood up.

"I'll accompany you to your ward."

"Okay. Thank you."

Then, they walked side by side and left the garden.