A Wordless World Of Love
Life is bad when you get in love, is worse when you don't, and it's the worst when your love is for someone who doesn't love you back.
It's the fourteenth night of the month and the moon is full, it shapes of the circle with the eccentricity of zero as the teacher of our Mathematics subject told us. I am not good enough at mathematics, I am just bad at it and I hardly can solve some of the numerals but now looking at the moon, having a single glance at it reminds me of mathematics. Well, that's good! Somehow my interest toward subject is increasing and it's getting better.
It's a white glistening night, the moon is giving its maximum intensity of light and it's nowhere dark. I've some of my friends tonight to stay at my home. It's been a long discussion on so many different topics and it still goes on… I'm hungry and thirsty and I wish to eat and drink something.
"Hey, I, I need to go down", I stand up and just throw the words randomly in between all my friends' funny and concentrative stuff of chitchat.
"Where", two of my friends ask spontaneously.
"Down, to eat something", I reply.
"Do any of you want something", I ask.
"We have just eaten meal right now", Jacob says.
"Yup! Diner has just taken and you want to eat something? I mean really?", Henry also says.
All cackle behind me as I walk towards the stairs, "the hungry man... the hungry man"
I don't speak, I stay silent…
"Okay, sit, have some fun talks with all us here", says harry.
"No, I have to leave. I am hungry", I tell them and walk down the stairs towards my room.
My room.. my parents' room, all are empty… no one is here, all are gone to the party.
"Mom mustn't have switched off the fridge", I think and say it to myself.
Reaching down as I look at the fridge I say, "Oh yeah! It's onn and now I am going to eat something healthy"
Opening the fridge I see the saved cake in it and some bunches of grapes, "Oh God grapes! I love this fruit"
Taking some of the pieces of cake and a huge bunch of grapes out of the fridge I come near the dining table and sit on it.
"Wow! So yummy! All the thanks to harry whose birthday cake it is", I just keep praising the cake and thanking harry for the cake.
I am about to start eating the grapes and I suddenly wish to have some liquid.
"Is there any drink", I ask it to myself.
"Oh there must be", I further speak.
Opening the second door of fridge I see the juice and say, "there it is".
"Oh my God! Pomegranate flavored, it must be a bit sour but I would take it."
"Hey Nyle, pour one glass for me..", Michal standing behind me says.
"Yeah sure", I pour two glasses of juice and we both drink it.
"It's so bad", my friend Michal says.
"No it's not! It is just a bit sour", I reply.
"It is so sour... do you really like it?"(Michal)
"Oh I love it…", I reply.
"Okay, boys are calling, we should go up by now..", Michal stands up the floor.
"Come up guys, what you both have been doing down there?", we hear it distantly.
We are walking upside by the stairs to the roof and one of my friends is standing there in our balcony and he speaks…
"Nyle", he pauses.
"Who's that pretty girl", he asks pointing at one of those girls of our colony whom I don't like, whom I really hate to even look at.
"She's the worst girl you will ever have.. and she is taken buddy, she has a boyfriend", I reply.
Michal laughs and says, "Jacob, my friend, leave her on her own roof and let's go up"
"We haven't hold her up", I say him(Michal)
"Well her innocence and her beauty has hold me Nyle", Jacob says while keeping his eyes closed.
"Oh come on Jacob", says Michal.
"You just saw her now and she has taken your heart!", Michal adds.
"Do you mean love?", Michal further adds.
Michal takes a deep breath and says, "I personally don't believe in the love at the first sight"
Michal says by looking at my face, "do you Nyle?"
"No, no actually not", I reply(smile)
"I'm with you", I add.
Reaching back to the company we start doing chit chat again…
HENRY says, "guys JACOB fell in love with a girl earlier and it all happened at the very first sight when he saw her"
"JACOB is so good in love that he falls in love with every single girl he sees or meets", MARK says laughingly.
All laugh…
Suddenly MICHEAL speaks, "Every time people are so desperate to fall in love with someone and once they get into it and love happens to them, then all they want is to get rid of it but unfortunately nothing turns green and the person fallen in love either reaches the peeks of happiness or they come to see the worst side of their own lives"
"You are right", we all just say it at one time.
"Okay… let's have discussion on ambitions today", Henry suggest a topic.
"Well, that's a good idea", JACOB concurs.
"Yeah, not bad…", MARK also agrees.
"Okay, let's begin then", I speak.
"Okay", HENRY smiles.
"Do you like Suzie", Henry asks looking at the face of JACOB.
"No, No, what do you mean?", JACOB replies.
"How can you just ask such a random question!", JACOB adds.
JACOB continues and says, "I don't love hers, though she does my maths homework sometimes, but that doesn't mean that I love hers, we are just friends"
"Okay, okay, alright calm down JACOB", MARK laughs.
"Yeah! No one is going to force you to confess about what you feel", HENRY adds.
"okay tell us something about love", MARK insists.
JACOB just shrinks his eyes and says, "hey guys listen, I am not in it yet, reading Shakespeare's Romeo & Juliet doesn't make me the Romeo in real"
"Oh you are! You have been hiding it from all us since the very beginning", I say to him.
"No, no friends JACOB isn't hiding anything, he's right, he's not gone through love yet", MICHEAL speaks.
"Okay you tell us about it then Mr. Doctor", MARK looks at MICHEAL and laughs.
"Yeah sure! I am about to be engaged friends", MICHEAL asserts.
"Wow great", we all congratulate MICHEAL on his engagement news.
MICHEAL continuous speaking, "and the girl is chosen by my mom"
"Oh come on, you are going to do an arrange marriage", Mark asks.
Now everyone is staying silent and all are just listening to the negotiation that is being held between Mark and Micheal.
"We all have conservative minded families, and each one of us is going to do an arrange marriage", Micheal replies.
"I am not", Henry speaks.
"I am not going to going to do that, I am going to be engaged with Rose and I am going to live the rest of my life loving Rose unconditionally", he adds.
"Is it the same Rose you told me about", Micheal asks.
'The one who writes poetry? poetess?''(Micheal).
"Um.. yeah!", Henry laughs.
"Wow great, we all are happy for you buddy", says Mark.
"Yeah, we really are", I say and all end up the sentence with me.
"So it was Henry's story, so good story and so blessed Henry", I say.
"May God give you the righteous way together and may you both have a wonderful life ahead", I add.
"Yeah, may you both be blessed", all say(together).
"It's your turn now Nyle", says Jacob.
I say (softly and lightly), "Okay, I am…."
(Clearing throat), "I am not gone through the process of love yet but…."(interrupted)
Boys interrupt me, "Oh come on, speak the truth"
"I am telling the truth, let me proceed", I reply.
"No, that's not how one starts when he speaks the truth", HENRY.
"come on Nyle, it clearly seems what it is, every single part of your body speaks, your eyes, your face, every single part of your gesture is pointing out that the man isn't speaking the truth", MICHEAL.
"...and you are telling us the lie?", Jacob interrupts.
"Don't be worried my friend",Henry adds.
"We all are your friends and…", Henry adds and pauses.
"And everybody's telling his own story", Henry further adds.
"Yup! Come on man, tell", Mark says and everybody insists.
I start speaking, "destiny doesn't have to play its positive part for all the times" (I pause)
Everybody gets astonished the way I start telling them the fact that they all implored me to tell them.
I continue, "I have been going through so bad times, I am living deceived, alone and departed, and isolated, I have been living somewhere far away from this world"
Nobody even speaks a word while I still continue speaking, "Perry has just been engaged and she is going to get married".
"Things are not just in the way that they used to be in and I am really going through very bad time"(sniffs).
I look in the eyes of Henry,"what should I tell you guys more?"
"Okay Nyle calm down", Jacob says gently.
HENRY continues, "Nyle you might be going through bad but believe me the worst is yet to come".
I look at MARK's face, he is sitting by my side and his right hand is on my shoulder and he says, "do you know Nile I have observed these things".
He adds, "the moment when one's beloved is being departed it feels like…"(he pauses)
MARK continues, "like the soul is being departed from one's body and.. and when the beloved is departed or it is left I can say than it feels", he pauses. "The world feels like an empty space for the lover".
"Oh no, it all heals!", says Micheal
"Oh stop, nothing like that has happened yet.."Mark (with anger).
Looking into my eyes Mark adds politely, "you danced really well Nyle today".
"yeah really, he seemed in an amazing enthusiasm previously", says Jacob excitedly.
Boys get me out of the discussion of the love. Love, why don't I call it my weakness, I know nothing is going to renovate myself, no one is gonna revamp the inner Nyle lost inside me. Though I am trying to resettle my inner peace.
(I pretend as I have not spoken a word about Perry and the chitchat continues…)
Suddenly one of my friends speaks, "guys, it's been late and we all should leave by now"
"yeah", all the boys concur with Henry.
"Hey, you guys can't leave me alone here", I insist them so that they might stay a little longer.
"No Nyle, we are sorry but we have to go, all our parents would be waiting for us", says Jacob.
"yeah, Jacob is right, we should leave now", Mark.
"and after all it's your own home, and we must be in ours too", Mark adds further.
"Okay friends, good bye, see you tomorrow", I smile and shake hand with them all.
As they walk forward, I look at the wall clock and say, "Okay guys, it's quit late, hopefully my parents must be coming now.."
Having sit at the couch placed in the verandah, I began playing ludo after the departure of my friends and after spending two hours of playing the game my parents arrived.
The main gate was opened i forgot to shutt it when my friends left.
"Nyle, you haven't slept yet son?", my mom asks me as she enters.
"No mom, we celebrated a birthday party of my friend at our home and all my friends were here", I reply.
"they…", I pause. "They just left a few minutes before you arrived".
I mentioned few minutes instead of two long hours because my mom would have asked me the reason of not sleeping since then… so I just wished to avoid that peice advice coming from her.
"All right son, better you sleep now", mom suggests.
"Yeah son, it's a class tomorrow", dad adds.
I just say good night to both of them and I turn to walk towards my own room.
Before reaching to the room and entering it, all I wanted was to jump into the bed and close my two eyes until morning but it doesn't seem to be happened in that easy manner… to just fall asleep!
I didn't lay on the bed I just sit on the chair placed with my study table, this table reminds me a lot of things. More often I do think about different things on this table and les often I study here.
Most of the times I think about hers here.
Imagination is the most powerful strength of a man and, my imagination of my past doesn't seem possible without imagining Perry. Whenever I am talked about Perry, whensoever she is discussed or even mentioned, either it be in day or in the night, it passes in a kind of unclear cogitation and I stop living liberally it becomes a kind of obsession, a really bad obsession, a perished one. I feel something that reminds me of my past, of my past ambitions, a sentimental feeling about Perry, I become a kind of pathetic about all these ambitious and dreamy kind of thoughts. I didn't achieve something that should have been achieved till now. Thinking about Perry, talking to myself about hers and talking to hers in my imaginations is all that I have been left with. I can stay awaken innumerable nights doing so.
I didn't sleep till late that night and on the next day I had to attend the class.
Finally, after sleeping for 2 to 3 hours, between 3 and 6 I guess, here I am again curious to have a busy day as usual.
"I have to buy some goods", I wonder while I am brushing my teeth.
"Hurry up Nyle…", Mom shouts distantly from the kitchen.
"Yeah mom, You are always in a kind of rush for me to take my breakfast", I angrily reply.
"Son, you must remember that you have to go to the market to buy some household goods…", mom replies patiently.
"You've to do your class work also which takes around 2 hours", mom further adds.
"Okay I will do it, I mean I will do it all, don't be worried mom", I reply.
Mom approaches the dining table and places few breads and a plate with an omelet on the table, and she states, "Finish all these and go to wake up your father in the room then".
Having finished the breakfast and waking up my dad now I have a couple of works to do with in the short span of time before my college, and for now I have to discus with my mom about purchasing goods from the market.
"What you want me to buy from the market mom?", I ask from mom.
"Yes Nyle, the list is on the table placed near the storeroom", mom replies from kitchen.
Now I am heading towards market and while exiting the home I just pick that list placed on the table which in turn is placed in my way towards the main gate.
And now… now I am walking by the one, same path which I usually walk on, no matter where I have to go I choose only one that path to walk through because the path just ways through my beloved's home. So I believe passing through that way has a probability of an accidental meeting with Perry. My heart believes it, it believes that more meetings are to come up.
"But this isn't the day we meet", I say it to myself as I walk by seeing the shutted gate of Perry's house.
She isn't there….
"Well, it's… it's often", I just say it because having a day without seeing one's beloved is quite annoying but it's usual for me.
On my way back towards home from the market I see the gate of her house opened and guess what do I see!
Two very tall and handsome guys come out of the gate and I don't know any of them,I havent seen them ever before, I have seen them for the very first time.
"He must be the guy, Perry's fiancé", just a random thought comes inside my head.
Well it's a human nature that when he sees his beloved's fiancé or spouse specially when that fiancé or spouse is someone other than himself, he starts looking for both the good and the bad things in that person.
And I also did the same, when I looked into that I felt that the man was few steps forwarded than me in every aspect and suddenly one thing comes into my mind which I ask from myself, "Really Nyle, he is better than you at everything?"
And I reply to myself, "He can never have the love and the respect that you have possessed within yourself for Perry".
"The esteems of love and respect which Nyle possesses can never be possessed in broader sense by anybody else in this entire universe", and saying this to myself, I reach my home.
My brother scared me as I just reached the gate, "Hey, where are you lost Nyle?", I didn't even knocked yet and stood there as an statue.
I reply (hesitantly), "Oh nothing bro, I was… um… little tired".
"Fine, give me some of the bags", he wants me to transfer some of the load to him.
"Thanks God! My hands are in peace now", I say after placing bags on the table.
"Oh my son, take some rest for a couple of minutes and then get busy in studies", mom suggests.
"yeah mom…", I reply.
"Where is Nyle aunty?", Angelina, my cousin reaches home. (she doesn't even look at anywhere else other than my mom)
(Angelina lives near us, her house is right beside ours)
She approaches me as she sees me, "You really need to know this, my friend is going to be engaged to her classmate"
"Wow! great", I reply amazingly.
"That's really great I mean", I repeat.
"And do you know who is that friend?", she asks.
"okay let me guess, um... Jasmine?"
"No, It is our junior, Ana, she is going to be engaged with Hank", she tells.
I smile and speak gently,"Wow! I mean a few couples find their partners who have lived their childhood together".
She points out my nervousness and says, "I shouldn't have old you this Nyle".
"Why Ang?", I ask.
"Just because i also love Perry and she isn't engaged to me but someone else, and she is also going to marry that person", I add.
"But listen to me Anglina, I did what I was supposed to do, I did what a true lover would have done, i let the things to happen smoothly and i have no regrets of letting things go, i have no regrets if I never did confess about my love to hers"
Angelina speaks after a consideable passageof listening to me carefully, "Your mom always says Nyle that only courageous ones love, loose and move on".
All our conversation was being heard by my mom and she also speaks:
"And my son is courageous one and he will move on".
"Won't you Nyle?" mom leaves me for an answer.
"Yeah ofcourse mom", i reply.
"Oh surely he will aunt", Ang adds.
"You must take bath son and get ready to go for your college", mom adds as Angelina leaves.
I then went to the bathroom to took shower and I was singing (You came and set a fire to my heart.....)
I love singing while taking bath it makes me feel completely real.
"Come quickly Nyle", I hear mom callig me distantly.
I didn't respond and kept enjoying the bath and I was still singing, (Now I'm crying inside.... I need you.....)
As soon as I ended up taking bath I went to mom, took lunch and just when I was leaving the home my mom called me from behind, "Nyle, you are forgetting your tie son"
While walking back to the room I reply, "Oh thank you mom, I often forget this"
"Dont be so forgettive son", mom advices.
" I really hate wearing tie over my college uniform", I assert.
"A college student must not be bounded to wear a full uniform", I add.
"Some of the indirect orders, and rules and regulations set by our institutes make us habitual of living a well disciplined life Nyle", mom speaks.
"May I go now ma'am?", I smile and ask.
"For sure my loving student", mom also laughs.
I first walked in the direction of Perrys home but since no one is seemed there so now I have changed my mind, and now I am to go through another way.
This way takes me to the main bus stand through the main bridge of the city and what I see makes me stunned. It's Perry in complete white college dress coming back from the college. A view I was making efforts to see is now being seen to me without doing anything. like, Effortlesly. Usually college dresses dont suit everyone but Perry has got that quality that how she looks doesn't depends upon what she wears, she seems equal beautiful in that dress as she is seemed in her newly fashioned formal dresses.
I was having left side of the road but i crossed the road and went to the righ pavement of it.
As I approach Perry, I speak in low voice,"Hello Miss!"
She takes her eyes up on me and says,"Hi Nyle".
She is a bit nervous as it isnt normal for a girl to publically talk with a man walking just by your side.
"Can we talk for while?", I ask.
"Yeah of course Nyle", she sounds skittish.
As I see a little timidness in her expressions so I try to leave it for now,"I dont think it is a suitable place"
"I won't emphasis you if you are not willing to listen to me even for later", I add.
"Alright, I will be letting you know to have a catch up", she says in a little paranoidal pitch as she keeps moving ahead while I had stopped walking.
I then turned back and headed towards the college...
The same evening she came to our home to meet Anglina.
"Hey aunty, how are you? and where can I see Angelina?", she asks as she enters the room of my mom which is just beside my room.
Mom replies and asks spontaniously,"I am good my dear, how are you and how are your mom and grandmom"
"and come sit on the chair", mom adds.
"Yeah aunty, I am good thank you and mom is also good", perry replies as she drages the chair with her and sits in it.
"but..", she clears throat.
"but the day before yesterday grandmom fell serious sick", perry adds. "But there is nothing to worry about aunt, she was very well by now", she further adds.
"May God bless her, I will come to see her sometime", mom asserts.
"Angeina is in the kitchen, she was washing the dishes I guess", mom gives answer of the very first question Perry asked after etting a couple of answers of her own questions that she asked after her.
Perry drages the chair behind her and stands,"Okay aunty see you".
"Yes dear thanks for coming", mom smiles.
Perry approahes Angelina in the kitchen...
Angelina gets amazed as she sees Perry,"Hey Perry how have you been here my dear".
"And how are you?",she adds.
"Hi Ang...", Perry replies and mutes.
"Sit there I am just coming, I am about to finish this", Angelina states.
"There", Angelina points to the chair placed just in front of her.
"Where is Nyle?",Perry asks as she sits on the chair.
"He must be coming back from college by now", Angelina.
"There he is", angelina point at me as she sees me.
"Hi Nyle", Perry greets.
"Hey Perry, there you are", I reply distantely (standing near the stairs).
"Come, have a seat", Perry says.
Sitting on the chair kept in front of Perry I say,"Okay".
"So, How are you doing?", Perry asks.
"Good, I am doing well", I reply while not looking at her face.
"You?", I ask (adding a light smile on my face).
She replies, "I am good Nyle, Thank you".
"What about your college, How is it going?", she further asks.
"It is going good", I reply.
"Smooth, I mean", I add.
"You had to say something, come on, what is it", Perry asks.
"No, no, I had nothing to say", I reply.
"Are you sure?", Perry.
"Yeah, I just had to ask about the gift that I gave you", I express.
"No, no, you succumbed me to open it", Perry replies.
"So... Wow! I man you are trustworthy", I laugh.
I further add and say, "So you can be trusted".
"Blindly Nyle," said Perry."Yeah, I mean whenever I do promises I keep them".
Angelina comes and sits with us on the table,"well, here I am, after finishing all my work".
"So all of us are engaged now", Perry.
Angelina interupts,"Except Nyle".
"I was going to use that phrase in the last", Perry says.
(All laugh)...
"Well I must tell you atleast Nyle that...", Angelina is muted by me.
"I also love someone...", I just say and Perry catches the last word said by me.
"Someone! Who is that someone?", Perry waits suspensively.
"I've been in love with her since years", I reply.
"Well, okay, Who's she?", Perry asks again as her wait is getting harder and harder.
"She," I smile.
"She is girl of beauty, simplicity, and a shy kind of girl and a highly religeous one I must add at last", I add.
"Oh my God! Stop praising her, I am getting jelous",Perry smiles.
"He's just begun Perry", Angelina.
"I'll make you both meet", I smile.
"I am desparatly waiting to meet her", Perry expresses...
"Okay so you wanted to confer something in the noon, come on what is it?", Perry asks.
I say (clearing my throat),"Yeah, I had to ask about a confession".
"A confession?", Perry asks with making her faced to seem like confused.
Hasitately I reply,"Yeah, confession of love".
Both Perry and angelina bacome silent...
Perry smiles as i start speaking, "with the girl I told you about".
"Yeah say..." Perry insists,"please."
"Um.. I don't know where to start" I begin to tell being shy "okay let me give you an example,you are going to your home and you see a garden that comes in your way towards the home... you see a beautiful flower within that garden, you like that flower very much and you wish to smell it and you wish to pluck it and to keep it in your persuasion and you know that if you do so then that would be the last time when it breathes", I cough "What I meant by that is that it will be lossing its value as the time passes after it is plucked, what would you do? would you like to pluck it and ends its value within a little passage of time? Or you would let it live charmingly in that garden and with peace and integrity that is bestowed to it by the nature?"
"Your question seems quite irrelevent", Perry replies.
"Why am I been asked that type of question and not anybody else?", she adds.
"Oh come on... Don't think much just answer my question", I insist her to reply.
Perry is preplexed, she replies,"Okay, I won't pluck it, as it is a living thing and I can't hurt it until it is very neccessary". she adds,"I can't let my pleasure to be the reason behind someone's loss and aches".
Angelina laughs,"Wow! Perry I love your philosophy".
"Thanks Ang", Perry smiles.
"Yeah Perry your thoughts are very lucid and exorbitatantly positive," I add, "That's the reason why everyone likes you"
"So, I am done Perry," I say, "That was all I wanted to know from your point of view".
"Wow! I mean that flower and garden and all that type of questions were the reason why I am sitting with you guys here now",Perry laughs.
"well, yeah", I smile while pouring the glass of water placed near Perry.
"Well than, I shoud leave now" Perry infers leaning back in her chair.
"Hey stay a little longer and go after taking dinner", Angelina insists.
I stay quite...
"Oh no, no," Perry stands draging her chair back, "I have to leave, have got some kinda work to do".
"Okay then" Angelina smiles "Good bye"
Perry waves her hand back to Angelina while leaving...
(It was a pin drop silence for a few minutes in the hall...)
Suddenly Angelina speaks, "What was that?"
"what?", I reply in low voice.
"I mean seriously?", Ang sits on the chair placed aside me. "This was the best chance for you to confess your love for her and you ended up talking about gardening and flower plucking"
"I am not gonna pluck the flower, I am gonna let it live bonafied that it deserves to live persistentely till its death", I reply.
"She can't live more happily with anyone else other than you", Angeline further says.
"No, she is gonna live it wonderfully,", I smile, "And I am not gonna be the obstacle in her happy coming life".
"Well, it needs courage to let your heart speak and confess your love in front of your beloved," angelina pauses.
She continues, "By the way when it comes to the matter of love, no suggessions are needed at all, you just have to do whatever your heart says you to"
I look at Angelina and say to her, "So there's nothing to discuss, I guess"
"Well there is...", Angelina.
"We can talk about Perry's wedding day", Angelina pauses.
She paused for a while and she starts speaking again, "You are one of the most foolish people I have ever known Nyle"
"Okay say me whatever you want to say", I speak with low pitch.
Angelina continues speakig(ferociously), "I am gonna tell perry that there is only one person who can protect, love and respect her and it is you Nyle, and no one can ever have a tiny part of the affections which you possess for hers".
(From here I will be leaving Nyle to play his charater for himself and, I will be assereting for him)
"I appreciate your courage and the esteem for my feelings," he replies. "I really do".
"But you don't really need to do that", he further adds.
"To be honest Ang, I don't really love her", Nyle's eyes blink and tears come out of his eyes as he says so.
Nyle sobs and speaks, "I don't really love her, if I had loved her than I wouldn't have just let everythhing happen so drastically".
Angelina approaches Nyle and holding his hands in her own's, she says, "You should either get things started by cofessing your feelings to her or you should get over the notion of hers," (She pauses). "and let me tell you one more thing that Perry is very happy with her wedding"
Putting down his sleeves, "I am over." Nyle sniffs and adds, "with this."
Tears drop down the face of Nyle and he expresses in grief, "Love can't be snached."
"Okay Nyle," Angelina holds Nyle's hand. "That's enough and you have to go in front of your dad as soon as he arrives home."
"Let your eyes not to be turned red", she further adds.
Nyle tries to leave the hand of Angelina and puts it on his cheeks to sweap the tears,"It's hard to weep consistentely with heart and even harder to stop doing so."
"But it has become more than enough, now you have to stop," Angelina coughs. "I am getting off, I have got a few works to do."
As Angelina stands, drages the chair behind hers and turns back, her hand strikes the glass placed on the table, and the glass falls down and it breaks.
"What happened Nyle?", Nyle mom shouts from kitchen.
"Nothing." Nyle pauses and clear his throat. "Nothing mom, just... it's just a glass."
Angelina leaves and I also walk by the stairs to get into my room
Having sit on the chair of my room, I opened my laptop and started working for the class. That's what i often do to keep myself distracted from these kind of obsessive thoughts. Perry is all over I my head, everytime, every single moment, I don't know why but I always try to get rid of these thoughts of hers. She is all pervaded in me. Why do I need her more than this? Well it is her wedding ceremoney after a few months and this is the most touchable, the most hurting thing which comes into my mind at last.
Well, this is nothing, the journey is gonna be quite more hurting than this. I am gonna face much at all!
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