Spoken Words From The Heart

I just wanted to see you smile so I can put on a smile myself but you were no where in sight, I looked for you, I yelled screamed and even cried. I could hear my voice echo in the search of you, but no sight of you not until I dived into the water and drawn, did I see your glowing face and soft lips pressed against mine?

Do you look up at times to see the majestic work of nature, to feel the soft cold breeze hitting your naked body, you and me in the beautiful sky that has so many awesome colors that gives ultimate joy to the supremacy of love happiness right in front of us. would you stay with me till the end of the road and let's be like this together let's dive and fill in together like a bonding glue....

Let's make love that would shine and give the solitude of the stars, let's keep the language of our heart clean and real, so when we get to our heaven our laughter would be as loud and as light as the stars and the moon.let me hold you infront of the colorful sky and the green grass where you testify love to me through some fascinating hand making work.

where you bring it all out on me and pour all on me while I give you the same exact emotions and orgasms you're giving to me and when your time is up and we go out different ways I would go to the same spot and remember the glory of our love.

I sat far away from you the mountain but closer to the river, the Hill looks close enough to see clearly and strangely it speaks you. Looking at it beauty and it's peculiarities, brought back something about you that i would rather forget.

It looks so peaceful and beautiful, it looks charming and adorable and from where I am I felt on top of the hills it self.

Which reminds me of when I met you and instantly felt inside you, it reminds me of the peace and solitude you bring. it reminds me the calmness and the peculiar character you portray. Unknowingly I felt like I was looking at you through my heart and mind, even when I desperately wish you were here with me to sit with me and see the beautiful view and hear the sounds of the wave.

I wish you were here to hold my hands on this cold night and whisper sweet melodies to my ears if only wishes were horses! and because there are not, sat here and wonder what our love was and how we planted our first flower of love in the deep sea, I pray it grows.

Days are counting and I don't know when mine stops...But what I do know is, I want to spend the little or nothing of those days by your side ! The grounds are terrifying and I don't know when mine opens up, but what I know is I like to be the smile on your face and the blush that comes once in a while.

All I do know is your perfect strangeness makes me crave strangers in a different way.....

I know I'll take my time to study you patiently and gradually and when I'm done, I would take my time to show you the varieties of love.... Every single way that would drive you wild and in, all the things that makes you sit alone and smile because you feel how wet you'd be at the thought of me.

I would make a friend and lover out of you, so even when things go south we would still have friendship to cover up our differences, when I lay in my bed and think of how to make it to the next day, I would also think of so many ways to blow your mind.

As a person, I lack most things other people have in life, such as the urge to follow the trend, urge to be social, urge to have what people kill for most importantly i lack the the urge to love.....

It literally like a default, but once I see any trait of me starting to like this person or wanting to know more about this person I switch it all up, I become annoying, I become unbearable, I become a stranger... And no that has nothing to do with the fact that I was diagnosed to be a bipolar, I just don't want any form of attachment that would make me crave for a person, but I am 27 already lonely, have had many flings I can't even say my body count, cos you would definitely think i need the lords intervention, but I choose to be the hoe, among my five friends in high school I am the only gay who also happens to be a big hoe.

There's a Sky who is weird as fuck I wonder why they all think i am the weirdest among them because trust me that girl weird as fuck, she has a boyfriend, and maybe even got her life figured out apart from the fact that she's some weird ass fucker, smokes pot, drink like a fish, never eat a single food to save her life as long as there's pot and anything to get her higher than the real world.

She's the coolest person, and the best person to catch cruise with, the childish person on earth, nothing surprises her and judging from the part of world she came from she's the most non judgemental person I know, I think she just believes in accepting you for who you are, but never herself however, she wouldn't say she has self hate or anything I just think she pays attention to her friends more than she pays attention to her self, and trust me she has loads of friends but how they all end up betraying her, is a story we will have to get back to..