Feelings/Flirting

Who is to know that I was only blinded by innocent love, and my crying burning heart and soul was only aching for love, the care she seem to show, the kisses she seem to give, the eyes she fixed glued in my lips all this things melted my heart so much I couldn't see that, but who is to know that birds of the same feathers actually flocks together and i am not here to change anything, I am not special or anything, she doesn't actually sees me, and all the jealous moment I had of Charlotte where she doesn't let me have to look at anyone as I look at her, she hated me having to hug guys or even give them side glances, oh but my beautiful stranger love me to bring money, she loves us to always chill, she is always okay with everything as long as money is involved, but she's lazy she doesn't want to work, so all the money Bob made in the past was all gone for flex buying expensive phones and stuff, never caring to save for the future or actually does save but in too much secret, at some point Bob thinks she send the money to her mom to do stuff for her but he doesn't have any prove for that, but he is so sure of his intuition and this is lotte, his lotte he has known her for too long 14years is nothing of a joke and the only one who seem not to know who Charlotte is was me...

She told me stuffs about Bob that made me hate the guy before actually meeting him and her circle of friends was fucked as shit except only one person, who I adore greatly because well at least we found a sensible one and my friends thinks that I take them all too important and when it's comes to Charlotte I am always unavailable, always occupied and not involving and well it was true I prefer to be under her scrutinizing stare which leaves alot of butterfly in my stomach and make me blush as if I was a new born kid, but I was only a replacement to a pain for the moment, i was only some soul soothing instrument, while fixing herself and making her boo so jealous that he almost hated me with life but at one point one night, because we all catch cruise and smoke pot I was on section with him and few friends when he said, ash I don't hate you finally you are cool it just sad the friend you make first, I held it but pretended to act fool and then you know life goes on i was in love madly or maybe so i thought because I think i literally get addicted to someone or anything so fast so slowly I got too used to lotte and I was left looking at my Instagram after one whole year of torture, pain, regret, trying to fix myself, i saw the last messages, how she would blow my phone up and made me feel absolutely loved, morning messages night messages, i decide to give this thing a little trial again see if this sparks works, if lotte would be less materialistic and confused about her wants and needs but then who was I kidding.....

And there is a Bee, oh Benita is wild, one of the wildest one I know and so mouthful, you can never be bored with her actually, she always has something to say some gist to give, some fuck up to treat, some party to go to, some boys to fuck and trust me she always have some boys to fuck but as usual, and most importantly in all the ladies I met out that turned my friends has a crush on me, and for what so reason I have no idea, and in all of this I make sure nothing intimate happened so as not to fuck the friendship up, except one, which I will get back to, well anyways one certain day where everywhere seem bright enough to be sane, i suddenly saw Bob right in front of my door, smiling ear to ear, saying that he just decided to want to have a section with me, not until that day did I realize Bob and Bee are actually fucking and getting it hard with each other, i was in shock after all his baby mama is my friend and so is Bee, but oh Charlotte hated Bee even as my friend, I think it was due to jealousy that she stays with me and she told me she noticed the way she look at me and she's not comfortable, I told her there's nothing more to it and she needs my help for now, she did her sarcastic okay but I know she wasn't okay with it but I needed to stand my ground so I told her there's nothing I would do about it she needs to learn to trust me...

With all this added it going to be a known disaster, but who am I to pop in and say something to Bob I could only talk to Bee which is by the way, and I wasn't talking to Charlotte anymore, so I don't want to be involved in her business, after the section he said he was going to catch up with friends and Bee told me she was going to get something downstairs too, i knew she was seeing him off, i just hope Lotte doesn't have to see them, her anger is top notch, i had a glimpse of it once even if it's nothing compared to mine i still agreed she has no chill, so since then I made sure no one else try offending her but me, you can't tell the next move if she sees them together the girl is already on her blacklist so I told her not to go past the corridor cos I needed to talk to her, but that was the last time i saw Bee for the week the rest is a story I would have to get back to.....