Can't Be That Blind

Portia went to the row she knew she needed and stood there for a second holding a couple books. She stared at the top cover not really seeing it. She totally ran away right there. Portia raised up the books and lightly tapped them against her forehead with a little bit of a moan. God she was so stupid, just do or don't already with the man. 

Why did she get so nervous? Portia was concerned and nervous on more fronts than one though. Look, obviously she wasn't stupid. She asked him what bonding was, and while it was scary to think about sharing your soul with another for eternity, she was also really nervous about physical. It felt like everyone always put so much pressure on physical. She was not experienced in this at all.