I'm an idiot.
There's no other way to describe myself and my actions. Why did I visit him? I'm a masochist, I must be, there's no other explanation. My legs simply moved and my wings flew me back to where my friends were staying and there he was, standing by the window when he should be sleeping. I only meant to check up on everyone one last time before I left for good, I know that they would be okay since Axel has the spells book now but a perpetual ache was stinging my chest pulling me towards Jason's room, one thing led to another and we exchanged glances, we looked at each other in the eyes and a void feeling scratched my insides, guilt. Before I reminded myself what I was supposed to be doing, and left.
That was 3 days ago.