he loves me, he loves me not

Evan P.o.v.

I was glad that he had let me in both metaphorically and literally.

but how could he love me? he only accepted out of pity, and I really didn't deserve it especially when I wasn't entirely truthful

and how could I tell him the truth? that there was a reason I acted like owned his house because I quite literally did

I knew that I had to tell him the truth he surely hate me but after everything it wouldn't be fair to keep lying.

and I really had been obsessed with him but I knew that I was starting to feel something deeper more meaningful Love- I was truly falling for him and I wanted the same in return so it was time I reveal who I truly was

I walked up to the mirror.

"David-I- lied-" I replied.

"You lied? about what?" David replied.

"About myself who I really was- the whole story about my mother and boyfriend I made it up- David."

"You made it up? really Ev? then what's the truth Ev? do you even care about me?" David responded

I even was starting to really like you perhaps starting to fall for you

how could I be so Nieve? you couldn't love me back

I thought you were a good person, but I guess I was wrong.

I thought that I couldn't fall for you but I had and I was such a fool

"Dave-David look at me! I do care about you - I know it's too early to say love-if I didn't care I would have kept lying to you, but I can't and I never will again I promise-"

"You promise to tell me the truth and nothing but the truth?"

"Dave? are trying to arrest me? are you secretly a cop?"

"What no-I worked for a company that advances in writing and interacting in a virtual world-I did programming and configuration.

as well as writing scripts and stories-" David replied

"that's kinda interesting but that wasn't what I was asking."

"Just promise me you'll tell me the truth." David replied.

"I promise-"

"you mean it?" David

"I do"

"good- so- tell me the truth then did your boyfriend really dump you?"

"ha well yeah he did but for entirely different reason he wanted me to move in with him, but I refused I had already bought this house.

I never actually liked him to begin with my parents were the ones who choose him for me- I hated it I wanted a choice in who I loved

it wasn't my choice not that I really had another choice not until I found out about you- and that was why I bought this house

hoping to charm you-so I could live here it is a nice place after all.-"

"you- actually bought this house? how could you afford that? and your parents they knew? but didn't let you choose? you just want to deceive me so you could steal my house from me-and yes it is beautiful but-why would you want to buy it if you knew about me?"

"well I'm usually pretty optimistic believe it or not - I believed that there was a reason as to why you acted the way you did and not everything we perceive is actually true I had hope that you weren't evil all you did was scared people away you never killed anyone

so if I could convince you that I needed this house you would let me in and you did- everything seemed to go according to plan but then they didn't-"

"they didn't? wasn't the whole point to get me to fall for you?"

"yeah but-I started regret my actions after how nicely you treated me and how you forgave me so easily, I didn't deserve it I lied - but if I hadn't would you have let me in? I know you wouldn't but maybe I should have- and I realize what I was doing was wrong and I should have just gave up and lived with him-it was what my parents would have wanted I had told them I wanted to buy this house for me and my boyfriend so they gave me the money - I was finally able to have a choice of my own-but I don't deserve that do I especially if I always chose the wrong ones-"

"Ev-look at me yes you may have gone the wrong way about things but that doesn't mean you can't make your own decisions and if you make the wrong one so be it we all make mistakes but that doesn't mean your parents have to control you, you are your own person not your parents it doesn't matter what they think worry about yourself and not what others think of you- and truth be told I don't hate you I understand you - and I'm happy with you being honest with me am I disappointed? yes, but even if it wasn't right you had your reasons and as you said things are never as we perceive.

I don't believe you are evil either because if you were you wouldn't tell me the truth knowing that it hurt me and willing to risk everything for it and maybe you would have told me the truth and break my heart- but that isn't how you did it- I could see the guilt in your eyes the regret in your voice -and after everything you just told me I don't regret letting you stay- and if you had told me the truth at the beginning I wouldn't have let you in right away but if you told me that you needed an escape that was the reason right?- I would have let you stay- and fall for you all over again-"

I felt the heat rise to my cheeks

"you-I really don't deserve you- but I'm thankful that you accept me- even now-and you're right I did need an escape-and I'm glad that you were there for me and that you let me stay-"

I smiled up at him.

"I'm glad that I did." he replied smiling back at me

I felt the butterflies in my stomach is this what it felt like to be accepted? loved? I was enveloped in warm fuzzy emotions.

I couldn't be happier but did I truly deserve this?