Green: Acceptance and Denial

I'll be lying if I said I'm having a blast right now. Really, how can this night be more eventful. Note the sarcasm. Urgh! That jerk was always looking at me, tormenting me even and it isn't funny.

And why the hell would my old man invite a pathetic excuse for a human for dinner. Has he blew a gasket or something and my mom wasn't even helping either. So he brought a human boy home and she thought he's the most adorable creature on the world. All he was doing is ass kissing keep dreaming ass. Yeah, I bet my old man plans to toy with him and castrate his carcass. That will be fun to watch.

I looked up once again to see the look on his face as he continued to talk about some shit and stuff. Yeah, yeah. You aced Cones' Calculus test woopdeedoo! Nerd!

My mom might have noticed my excessive glaring at little miss four eyes that she gave me warning stares. He might not be wearing any glasses today but that didn't mean I can't call him that. I return a coy smile at my mom that she returned before she looked at dad and started to chat with him.

My attention drifted to the human in front of me and once his eyes found mine, the jerk smiled - and his eyes flashed something - a very disturbing smile. Very, very disturbing that I wanted to smile back. I could feel my lips move to its own accord but I fought the urge and scowled at him instead. I expected his reaction would change but it made him smile more radiantly at me, followed by a smug smirk. Shit! I felt my blood rising from the - rage.

And those stares he was giving, uber creepy. I could feel it even without looking. I don't know why, just call it gut instinct. He's a goody two shoes human yet I couldn't put my finger on why I keep feeling annoyed at him. He's creepy when he smiles at me and the look he's giving me is somewhat predatory - not to put it like he's gay or something - but I know that look on his eyes, those are the eyes that I give off when I want something bad but can't get it.

Ugh! He sounds gay. Definitely gay, that would explain the excessive staring and smiling. I don't swing that way fag. An evil thought rolled in my head that I'm quite sure shown with my smirk.

"Tell me, do you have the hots for me?" I shot at him and I grinned evilly. My mom shot me a glare as my dad paused to look at Zephyr.

"Blake that's rude." My mom scolds but my eyes were at Zephyr look at his poker face at me. Ha! Burn fag.

"I'm just only asking him a question ma." I replied looking at her with an innocent face . "I can't help but notice him staring at me all dinner. Well, are you?"

He looked at me curiously as my mom looked at Zephyr apologetically. He smiled at her and looked at me with eyes that's taunting.

"You're a good looking guy and all Fang but no. I don't have the hots for you." He smiled at me and it hurt. "The reason I was staring at you is that I find you sulking throughout dinner." He looked at my mom and she smiled at him. " And I like smiling. I don't need a reason to smile."

My father scoffed as he continued to cut his steak. I'm sure he said 'I'm sure you do' in a low tone and felt him stiffen. My father doesn't stiffen like a deer on headlights.

"I'm sorry." Zephyr apologized as we looked at him with a giant smudge of orange juice over his shirt. Now he's clumsy! Great!

I looked at my father and his expression was back to his normal stoic, emotionless.

"Oh dear, Zephyr. Are you OK?" My mom asked as she stood up and went to look at Zephyr while he smiled at her trying to dry his cloth.

"I'm fine Mrs. Fangs and I'm sorry for ruining the evening." I scowled as he tried to suck up to my mom and she just allowed this human play her.

"No, no Zephyr. This is not fine and no. You didn't ruin the dinner. Well, do you have any spare clothes?" He shook his head no. "My, my come here dear." She pulled him up his seat and motioned the maids to tidy the table as she pulled him out the room.

I growled and slammed the napkin on my plate. The old man wiped his lips with his napkin and scowled.

"What's you're problem now?" He asked coldly without looking at me as he begin to stand up.

" Why did you invite a human over for dinner tonight?" I asked with rage in my tone. He bats a brow as he looked at me like I'm confused.

"Human you say?" He asked.

"Yeah old man. That human." I pointed outside the room at the direction that mom pulled Zephyr to. "Last I check you were not friendly with anyone to bring someone for dinner." I saw him scowl indicating that he's ticked.

"Watch your mouth, pup!" He growled as it seemed to echo throughout the mansion. "I'm still your Father! Furthermore, I'm still your ALPHA!" I fidget at his dominance but I didn't whimper like some dog. I growled back at him with the same intensity.

"Will you two settle it down?" My mom scolds as she entered the room. " We have a guest."

I noticed that she was holding that human's shirt in her hand. I gave her an annoyed looked as I glared at the shirt. Which for some reason I could still smell his scent over it. How could one scent drive you insane. She shook her head at me and approached me to pat my cheek.

"Now, now sweetheart. He's our guest and it's not nice to treat him badly. I had him wait in your room so I could put this in the dryer." She said as she waved the cloth in my face and his intoxicating scent whiffed through my nose. I must have dazed out for awhile as I felt being shaken.

"Eh-uh what?" I asked as I was pulled back to my senses. I looked down at mom and she looked at me with an amused face. I raised my eyebrow and she just smiled as she pushed me towards the stairs. My father was nowhere to be found. Well good! I don't want to argue with him now.

"Oh and Blake honey. Could you lend him some of your clothes so the poor dear won't freeze to death." She said but as I was about to argue she was already out of the room. I growled as I stomped my way up to my room.

It seems quiet as I arrived at the front door of my room. Now that I think about it, no one was shifting around or walking naked, I bet they knew that the old man brought someone home and ordered everyone to behave. Yeah, din't frighten the human.

I heard someone looking at me from across the hallway and I narrowed my eyes to get a better view and I saw Zeno, one of the pack warriors and my constant sparring partner aside from Frank, standing there near the post. I approached him as I gave him a smirk and he reluctantly gave me a smirk back as he continued to shift uncontrollably on where he was standing.

"What's wrong with you?" I asked as I gave him a punch on the chest as I felt him flinch. I crossed my arms as I could smell fear radiating from him, Zeno! He's one of the fiercest wolves I knew around are pack and there is little to none that would made him stand here with fear radiating from his body.

"No-nothing alpha." He replied trying to sound like his usual tough guy tone.

"And why are you standing here?" I asked.

"I was going to the kitchen." He replied as he eyed the path to the stairs. Well duh, if you want to get down the stairs, you have to pass this hallway and pass my room.

"And why don't you just passed this halls and walk down stair?" I growled looking down at him. He looked at me with respect and paused for awhile.

"I-I can't." He blurted out as he averted to look at me. "I feel. I feel that I'm allowed to passed by your room. Nonsense, everyone passed by my room everyday! Either if I allowed them or not and now Zeno is freaking afraid that he felt he was not allowed.

I rolled my eyes and grabbed his arm and started to pull him towards the stairs. I felt him shiver and sweat like crazy as we were nearing my door.

"A-alpha ple-please." He whimpered like a kicked dog. What's the wrong with him but I continued to drag him towards the stairs and as we arrived to look at him, he was practically white from fear and shaking. He looked at me like he was a disgrace that he looked down to his feet. "I apologize alpha!" He spoke before running down the stairs.

What the hell! I groaned at what people are acting right now and marched towards my room and opened the door before slamming it shut. And as soon as I entered that scent attacked my nose and I felt licking my lips. Shit! I looked at my room and found the human bare chested sitting on my bed.

My eyes run down his broad chest to his pink nipples. His shoulders where rough and was firm. I continued to look at his well shaped 8 pack abs and a v curve on his hips. I never imagined him to be this - dare I say it- hot for a man. I felt my cheeks flush pink as I hears him clear his throat bringing my eyes to look at his face. Shit! He was smiling and his eyes, those green and hypnotizing eyes, were full of emotions. I felt like a queer. I shook my head and glared at him.

"What are you doing in my bed?" I demanded as I clenched my fist and marched towards him. I glared down at him and he just smiles at me. I looked at his lips and didn't notice that I was licking mine. "He's just flirting with you. He's just flirting with you." I just said to myself.

"I was sitting." He replied. Smart ass.

"I didn't allowed you to sit." I said through clenched teeth as he eyed me observantly. "Get off my bed or I'll shove your pretty ass with my fist."

He smirked. "I'm not really into fisting or bdsm, Fang. But if you like it then I could shove my fist up your hole." My blood boiled from both rage and embarrassment. Embarrassment because - I don't know!

"Are you trying my patience fag?" I tried to grip his neck but he grabbed my arm swiftly and for a human his hold on me was firm. I growled at him as my fangs are almost visible through my gritted teeth. I was about to lose my patience and whether my parents disapproves or not I'm going to kill this human!

"I don't want trouble, Fang." He said as he kept his grip on my arm.

"Trouble my ass." I cussed and was about to give him a punch with my other hand that he immediately pulled me by my arm and before I knew it our lips were smacked together.

Shit! I could practically feel like I'm being electrocuted and in a weird way. I looked at the human before me with shock in my eyes as he continued to push his lips on mine. The hell will I allow him to do that to me. I pulled myself away from his hold but his grip was firm so the force threw us the floor. I landed back first and I let a groan. It was a mistake as I felt him licking my lips and biting them seductively.

Damn this human. Why the hell is he so inhumanely strong? I struggled from his grip on my arms now as he continued to writ in pain, in disgust, in pleasure - no! not pleasure. Blake Don't!

He then opened his eyes and stared at me and he smirk between our lips seductively. Until now I never found a guy could be so damn sexy while looking at his eyes while kissing. Not that I ever kissed a guy before. It was revolting and it was wrong!

I felt another jolt on my chest as he somehow crept his hand under my shirt without me noticing. I felt him brush a finger on my right nipple and I let out a moan. Shit! I just moaned and before I could return to my senses, he pinched my other nipple sending chills and jolts of pleasures throughout my body. I moaned loudly, gaping my mouth open as he brushed his tongue around my mouth. And before I knew it I was kissing back.

He released his other hand on my arm and placed it under my head. I threw any rationality I have outside my head and accepted this. Feeling quite bold, my now free hands reach over his head and pushed it down as to deepen the kiss.

"Mate." I moaned out off euphoria as I bit his lower lip earning from him a sexy moan.

"Mate." He groaned and I felt like grind his hips towards mine Feeling the friction as we both moaned it pleasure.

I opened my hazy eyes to look again at his and I felt happy, really, really happy. For what ever reason I was feeling glad that he was kissing me. He might have noticed the lust in my eyes that he grab a fistful of hair in my back and planted another kiss after taking a second for us to breath. The pain along the pleasure was ecstatic that I kept bucking my hips to his like a dog in heat and in a sense that I am.

"Goddess Blake!" He moaned and my ears perk up. By the goddess my name sounds heavenly with his voice. "Fuck, your damn..." He kisses me roughly again before parting our lips again to look at me. " ... fucking damn sexy."

I can't help but smile. Who would have thought that I could like a guy call me sexy. We looked at each other's eyes and without speaking a word we smashed are lips together, fighting for dominance. I never had a kiss like this not even with the tons of girls that I have been with.

"Mine." He growled as he bit my lip as it started to bleed. I would have panicked by that time but I didn't instead I moaned louder surrendering to the immense pleasure as my hands roamed around his bare body.

I felt him shiver at my touch and I could help but smirk.

"You like that?" I asked seductively as I brush my hand through his abs. Circling them slowly, feeling every contour, every curve, every bump. He let out a moan that made me kiss him deeper. "Ah!" I exclaimed from the pleasure of him pinching my nipple and pulling my hair at the same time as taking me down along the kiss. I draped my arms on his back and felt my nails scrape his smooth and muscled back.

Suddenly, I felt cold as his warm body left mine and so I let out a low whimper. I slowly opened my eyes and looked at him sitting on the floor with his back on the bed smirking at me.

"What are you looking at?" My voice seemed cracked as I glared at him as I pushed myself up to sit up. My eyes once again caught his face. His strong jaw, silvery blonde locks that where curled at the tip and those very, very seductive eyes that where looking straight at me. His cheeks where flushed pink as his parted lips breath in air that sounded like music to my ears.

And then realization hit me. I just made out with a dude! The disgust must be written on my face that his happy aura drop down. I stood up and scowled down at him as he glared back at me.

"You sick bastard!" I scoffed wiping my lips with my sleeve, trying to remove the intoxicating taste. "How dare you kiss me with your disgusting lips, fag." His face turned into pure disappointment and for some reason I whimpered inside. I shook my gaze away from him and went for my drawers and pulled a white shirt and threw it towards him without looking.

I heard him murmur a thank you at me but what made my heart clench is that it sounded pained. He slid the shirt on and stood up as he started to walk towards the door without looking at me. I don't like to accept him. I don't want him. I will not be broken down and be a abomination. But. But every time I tried to shove this feelings I'm having for him it felt like I was running out of breath.

But I am strong, I'm an Alpha. I can overcome this. This. I felt him stop over the door. His breathing is slow and calm. It was a mistake to open my heart for this possibility. My heart started to beat heavily with his. It was wrong that I thought I would be mated to someone like me, a guy. My heart skipped as I heard him pull the door slowly open as if it took forever for him to to walk out. I wanted him to leave but. I. don't. The door clicked close and I dropped to my knees.

I hate this feeling. The feeling of being weak. But it was my fault. I let him in and I felt like my walls was instantly torn down. I must hate him. I must never allow myself to open up this door in my heart. I will move on and find someone. Someone. Him.

I held my chest as a sting of pain shot through my heart. This will be over soon. I will reject this bond. I'm strong enough to defy this pull. I'm an Alpha and I will not fall for a man. A human male. Never.

I stood up and pulled myself my emotions back. My mate is a female. My mate is a female. I kept saying it like a chant. Feeling that I was secured once more. It was then that I didn't realize that a tear flowed down my cheeks.