Red: Letting It Go

It was painful. Now I know how rejection feels. It was all good to be true. I felt him open up that night and the same I open myself to him. And it was like magic. I felt him that he truly belonged to me and I to him. The few moments we held together was like heaven!

His lips in mine and mine on his. There was no disgust that I previously expected. All was perfect like it didn't matter that he was a guy at all nor did it feel like he was girl. All I felt was Blake was my love and my other half.

I was more than willing for him to be my mate. Mama already said she would like to meet my mate after I said to her and the pack that my mate's a guy. The pack was also excited even after my announcement and was generally accepting which was good. I will consider my pack and family's opinions on everything. That what makes a great Leaders as my father usually say.

I was generally OK with him. Sure he is a tempered and rough around the edges with so many flaws that I can't put on my fingers. But I also saw how a nice person he was during that few seconds that we bonded.

That's why my heart clenched at the sudden rejection. Was he afraid? No, he's a soon to be Alpha of his pack sure he has nothing to fear but... Maybe he's not ready to accept me. That's right. It should be that he pulled his door shut. He wasn't ready to a male mate and probably never ever.

I slumped back at my chair at as I saw him entering the hallway towards the cafeteria. His scent is no longer strong nor disgusting. I guess the rejection is finally taking effect because I already accepted that. If he won't accept me then I will not bury myself in pain because of him. I am an Alpha. I will not show weakness.

He strolled the hallway with his pack friends beside him as the students made way for them to pass. I scoffs and rolled my pasta and unrolling them in a monotonous manner.

Zephyr sat down beside me and laid down his tray.

"That pasta will run away if you keep playing with it." He joked as I lifted my head to look at him. " Aw come on dude. I thought you said you're going to get over it!"

"I am but its not as easy like it seems. And it would be easier if I just left but mama insisted I continue my study here even after the semester." I groaned as I took a sip from glass of water. "And besides , maybe I'll get to know a nice girl here to be my mate." Yeah, I tried convincing myself to get the pain over with.

"Well if you want a shoulder to cry on. I'm here." Zephyr beamed as I smiled at him. Thank the Goddess for my family! I don't know what I'll do without them.

"Thanks Zeph." I replied as he pulled me into a manly hug. We broke the hug as Blake and his gang stood in front of our table.

"Look at the fags!" Jason said as he flipped my tray over me as the contents spilled over my long sleeve and pants. Zephyr was about to stand up but I held his shoulder to keep him from breaking someone. "Oops." Jason smirked.

I looked at them from under my hood and they were all smirking at me well except for Blake's Beta, Frank, who is shaking his head disapprovingly at Jason's action.

"That's enough Jason." Frank scolded the boy.

"Come on Frank. I was only having fun with the fresh meat." So, we're fresh meat now. Zephyr's eyes where now furious as he clenches his fists under the table. I know its hard on him to submit especially since he's also dominant like me but I insisted we lie low.

I looked at them again as they seem not to mind or notice. I caught Blake's eyes look at me with a frown on his pink dry lips. He looked pale and those black sunglasses couldn't fool me that he wasn't looking at me.

Frank told him to tell Jason to stop messing with us but he just scowled at him and turned away to his table. I guess he was already ahead with the rejection and I guess I need to move on as well.

As soon Blake left his pack followed up and left us alone. I groaned and started to clean my shirt and pants. Zephyr looked at me with a scowl.

"You don't need to act submissive anymore, Alpha. He already rejected you." He crossed his arms and glared at Blake's direction before returning to me. "I wouldn't approve of him anyway."

I chuckled at his outburst as I thought about his words and I heaved a sigh. "Too bad Mom was so giddy on meeting him. Not to mention the pack was also eager to meet their other Alpha. Ugh. They would be very disappointed. And I felt Zephyr's eyes were looking focused on my shirt as faint drops evaporate into the air.

I held his shoulder and he looked at me. "Stop!" I ordered him which he immediately complied. I didn't expect him to use his powers. "Are you insane! You can't just do that here."

"Sorry Alpha. I just thought it was a good idea since you forgot to bring a spare to school today." He apologized as he rubs the back of his head. I shook my head and smiled at him.

"It's OK. I'll just wash this in the sink later." I said as I pulled my long sleeve shirt over my head and as they came off the cafeteria went from a loud gasp to silent. I looked around and all of them stopped at what they are doing and are now looking at our direction. Even Blake's table was looking at my direction.

"Is there something wrong with me?" I leaned over Zephyr as I looked around. You could actually hear a pin drop from this silence.

"I don't think so but maybe you should have thought about before stripping off your shirt."

I looked down at my body and back at the people around. I saw their eyes and there is no mistaking it. Most of them are at awe and the others, mostly the female population was drooling with lust. Whoa! I'm still wearing a tank top.

"Oh, god he's hot!" A voice cracked the silence as everyone started to chatter.

"Shit. I feel insecure talking to him now."

"That kid's toned? I thought he was the nerd."

I heard angry footsteps coming towards me and saw Blake scowling at me. He was wearing a black shirt with his jacket over his shoulder. I glared back at him as Zephyr and I stood up. I was about to ask him what's wrong but he beat me to the punch.

"What the hell are you doing?" He growled as Frank and the other's looked at me disbelieving. I forgot they were not at the dinner at the Fang Mansion yesterday. So, they probably don't know how I look without my nerd suit.

I growled back at him and felt everyone except him flinch back. As Zephyr draped his arm around my shoulder to motion me to leave. I saw Blake's eyes narrowed at Zephyr's arm and gritted his teeth, fangs exposed.

Zephyr growled back at him as glared daggers at Blake. I look at Zephyr to motion him to calm down and ignore Blake. He was reluctant but with a few tugs he let go and followed me.

I was going to stay there and watch Blake throw a tantrum. I looked back at him with his sunglasses removed and saw his red eyes looking at me. Was it pain. Rage. Lust. Jealousy.It was full of mixed emotions that he was breathing hard and he did the unthinkable and jumped over the table as he lunges down at Zephyr who was pinned down on the floor trying to protect me.

I looked down as those Blake rain down punches at Zephyr who in turn deflected them with his arms. I looked at his pack and Frank but they were too afraid to intervene. The crowd was getting thicker as everyone are coming to look at the two boys that were fighting.

I know Zephyr will be OK because he was just holding back but I don't know how long he will last holding the urge to fight back.

"Fang! Stop it" I yelled in my Alpha tone that everyone quiet down and look at me including Blake who was stunned at me for yelling. Zephyr took this opportunity to push Blake over and get out off him and came in front of me.

"What's your problem Fang?" Zephyr spat as he wiped his lips for blood. "Who the hell do you think you are!"

Blake didn't like Zephyr's way of talking to him that he stomps towards him and was about to punch him but I inserted myself in the middle, holding my hands towards their chests.

"Will the both of you stop! Or help me I'll rip both of your heads from your bodies and burn them!" I threatened as I looked at Blake.

He stopped and stood straight and glared pass me. "This is not over Storm." He growled while looking at Zephyr.

"Fang. We don't want any trouble and could you leave us alone." I tried to make it sound like a request rather than a command.

Zephyr held my shoulder and I Blake tensed up and glared at Zephyr's hand. I shove a little on Blake'e chest to stop him from advancing. He wasn't letting go and continued to growl at Zephyr who I might add was about to explode.

I looked around and no one wants to stop this fight even Blake's Beta. I heaved a sigh and grabbed both Zephyr and Blake's hand. A little jolt surged through my skin so painful that I'm sure he felt but I didn't let go and continued to pull them towards the nearest room and shut the door with Frank behind Blake. I locked it sharply and I really don't care anymore.

I turned to look at the three boys and crossed my arms. "Sit!" I boomed as Zephyr and Frank immediately complied. I turned to look at Blake and glared at him. "Sit." I said sternly but he didn't budge and turned to look at me with his dominant streak in his head.

"You don't order me-" I pulled him by his shirt towards me and exposed my canines at him. His eyes widen in shock and he looked at me.

"Now sit." I growled and he slowly sat down with a scowl on his lips.

I looked at him and breath and relaxed my shoulders. I decided to unmask my scent inside the room and as soon as I let it go Blake and Frank's eyes shook in surprise.

"Fuck! You're a wolf!" Frank blurted as he looked at me then at Zephyr.

"Well thank you, Mister Crater." I groaned as I glared down at him and he immediately whimpered in submission. I looked at Blake and he was unfazed.

"What do you want Storm." He spat as he crosses his arms while still glaring at me. I looked at Zephyr and motioned him to stand guard at the door. He immediately stood up but growled as he passed by Blake.

"I want to end this Fang." I replied as he raised a brow. "I'm too tired of waiting for you to accept reality. I'm too tired for you to accept me. So, I revealed myself now to end this and finalized the rejection."

"Rejection?" Frank asked as he looked at Blake and he snapped his face at me. " Do-don't tell me he's your mate?" Blake just let out a growl at the mention of the word mate.

"Who told you I was your mate, fag?" Blake replied coldly as I shook my head with a sad smile on my lips.

"Well if you're not going to accept it then I will. I want to burden of lov- liking you to end." I looked at him and he just stared at me with no emotions. "I, Aries Storm, reject -"

Blake pushed me towards the wall as he pinned me with under him.

"Who are you to decide what I want?" He growled as he glared at me with his red eyes. Those eyes filled with so much emotions of rage.

" ... reject you..." I continued.

"Listen here, quee-"

"... Blake Fang..."

"I'll kill you if you don-"

" ... as my -"

I saw his eyes widen and before I knew it he slammed his lips into mine to shut me up. He pushed his body towards me to deepen the kiss. The painful sparks started to rain throughout my body. It was painful. It was torturing. I looked at Blake as he continued to kiss me. He was writhing in pain but he just continued to kiss me. My eyes caught his once again and saw sadness, desire and longing in them.

Do I dare open up and see his feelings. I don't want to be in pain again for letting him in. I placed my hands in his chest to push him away but he immediately grabbed them and pinned them to the wall as we fought for dominance. The pain was even painful as more contact was made. I heard him groan in pain but he pushed his lips once again in mine.

"Blake, ju-just let go." I said through his head and he was surprised but continued to kiss me, even deeper now as I pursed my lips from his assault. "Blake please. It would be easier thi-"

"I don't want to!" He screamed in his head as I was surprised as his outburst. "I don't want to."

Zephyr was about to pull Blake off me but Frank stopped him. He growled at him and looked at me. He stopped and sighed and went back to guard the door.

"Blake." I talked him through his head.

"Shut up!" He screamed back at me. "I-I don't want you -"

"I know that."

"No you don't!" He spat back. Blake sure is temperamental even in his head. "Let me finish you, fag."

I shot an eyebrow as his kisses was now light pecks on my lips.

"Excuse me?" I scowled.

"No. No. I didn't mean it." He apologized as he loosened his grip on me hands but continued to kiss me. "I mean I don't mean the one before that I mean..."

He started to speak nonsense and I couldn't chuckle at his predicament. He sure is an interesting guy in the inside. He pulled a couple inches away from my face to shoot me an annoyed look.

"What's so funny, Storm?" He growled as I look at his eyes once again. It was soft now and I can't help but shake my head. What am I going to do with him. He look like a lost puppy.

"Nothing." I replied and smiled at him and saw his cheeks turn pink.

"Fuck you Storm." He spat as he looked away. "Don't look at me like that. It makes me uncomfortable." Oh, isn't he adorable. Blake is embarrassed.

"Blake." I called and he looked at me with confused eyes as he half smiled at me. "I -".

"No. You need to listen to me." He cut me off as I look at him in surprised. "I'm just not used to this."

"This?" I asked.

"This." He looked down and up at me as I gave him an annoyed look. "Being attracted to a guy..." He spoke in his head as I forgot to leave out of it. "... not that I was or every be attracted to a guy sort of." He blurted out as he continued to make nonsense.

"It's OK Blake. I understand." I said to him as he shook his head.

"No you don't."

"Yes I do and if you don't stop I'll bite you nipples off!" He crossed his arms around his chest as his cheeks burn bright red. He shot me with his best glare but I couldn't help but snicker at his face. "I'm straight too you know, well in a sense since I have a male mate. I have pride and never saw myself being in a relationship with another guy." He shot me a disappointed look before I smile at him. " But I was willing. Willing to give in the possibility of having a male mate. Of having you as a mate."

His eyes widen in shock as a smile crept on his lips. If he could be anymore - well, uhm - cuter. I don't know if you could call someone like Blake cute but nonetheless he was precious that I want to eat him up.

"I'm no queer, Storm. But I kinda erm..." He paused for awhile looking for the right words. "... interested in you. And to make things clear I'm straight."

"But you don't like me?" I crossed my arms and looked at him as he scratches his head. "Blake, I'm not doing this for only myself but also for you."

"I know but..."

"But what Blake? I can't know how you feel because I am not an empath. I'm getting tired of this." I sighed in frustration.

"You think you're the only one feeling that way!" He yelled at me with his actual voice as he completely ignores Frank and Zephyr. "I hate you but I like you. I like you but I hate you. Even I can't make any sense in what I'm feeling at you." He runs his hand over his black red brown hair as he moved a couple of steps back. "I like to reject you to the very core you know but every time I do that I feel my heart is going to die."

"So what now?" I asked. "You want to reject me but you don't want to? I want to reject you bit you don't want me to."

"I don't know."

" We'll just hurt ourselves Blake if we don't do this." And how much it hurts, this is the most logical solution to our predicament. " And besides you're an Alpha. This won't hurt as much like breaking with your girlfriend." I smiled and he frowned.

"I guess you're right." He finally agreed after a few minutes of silence. I nodded in agreement and heaved a sigh. "Let's do this."

I smiled at him and he smirked. It was for the best.