Red: Dedication

If it was for me, I would just want to spend my time away from the world and keep Aries in my arms, all safe and sound. It's quite odd that I would reject him. I mean he's hot for a guy and I would be lying to myself if I don't find him sexy.

It felt natural and scary at the same time that it brought shivers through my spine.

Feeling for someone who's at the same height as you, with the same physique as you, the same gender and sharing the same position in our society as me made me think of how a like we were - and yet he's totally different from me.

I just wanted him safe in my arms, cradled against my chest as I stroke his silky white hair. I want him pressing his face against the crook of neck again and taking in my scent. I wanted a ton of things. Especially him with no clothes on.

But...

That could wait. First, I need to patch the things I've done wrong. And I guess there's a shit ton of things need fixing.

I know I did a lot of horrible things and most of them should make Aries push me out of his life but he didn't and for that I'm grateful. Grateful for having him as my mate.

Funny that I could think of him needing protection. With his body, I'm sure he could tear down any dimwit trying to take him down. Those fucking sinful body of his and the things I could do with it.

I swallowed a lump in my throat as I felt Aries stiffen at the wheel. I assume he felt my arousal but he didn't comment on it and continued driving. Damn hormones.

"You don't need to worry, Blake." I heard his husky voice escape his lips. His eyes still focused on the road yet I could feel an unmistakable glaze on his eyes. "It's normal for you to feel that way."

"Wha-?" I gaped as his Adam's Apple bopped nervously. "What do you mean?"

"Uhm... Aroused." He states. His cheeks tinting of adorable pink.

"Yeah... Haven't had sex in awhile." I groaned and felt Aries clasped the wheel tightly before easing up a little. He wore a blank face before sighing. "What's wrong? Did I say something?"

"Not really. I...." Aries' started before biting his lips and my pants never felt tighter. Shit this is bad. "I don't want hearing your intimate moments with your partners..."

"You can say bitches or whores if you want. I only fucked women in my life." I state a matter of factly. "Shit... Sorry. I didn't know where that came from. Fuck!"

I heard him chuckle coldly before stopping the car. I looked at him as he opened the door and slammed it hard in my face. I looked at him walk away from the Jeep before running his fingers at the back of his hair.

"What's wrong?!" I asked as I looked at his broad back. I heard him sigh before shaking his head.

"Nothing..." He states quit bored and unlike him.

"This doesn't look like nothing to me." I state, my voice showing how irritated I am at his behavior. "I don't get it, alright. If you want me to apologize on what I said in the car then I'm sorry ok. I don't know what you want!" I growled.

Aries back remained stiff as he slowly clenched his fists, a silent growl erupting from his chest.

"Just... Stop talking for a minute." He gritted out. His breathing becoming uneven but the blood in my veins immediately rushed to my head as I stomp towards him.

"Don't you tell me what to do!" I growled as I grabbed his shoulder and forcefully turned him around to face me. "You don't go ordering..."

With a thud I was pinned to the ground with him on top of me, his right hand clawed deep on my right shoulder. I looked at his green eyes, filled with so much rage. I gulped for a second out of fear or surprise. I rarely see this side of him... Wait! I remembered...

"You don't go ordering me around as well, Blake!" He growled, his canines baring out. "If you should know I'm an Alpha as well." He gritted out as he clasped his fingers through my flesh making me wince. "There's a limit to how much bullshit I could keep taking from you... So, just shut the fucking up!"

I should be scared at his threat but I was not. It's not because I fear him in anyway, I'm an Alpha as well, it's bound for us to be at each other's necks most of the time. Well, half of us. Aries has some god level self restraint on what he calls my bullshits.

And seeing him go feral at me was new. It was like I remembered our moments together at that very instant he pinned me down. And damn! Him being dominant feels sexy.

I felt his hold on me loosen, snapping me out of my naughty thoughts of him. My skin healing as I heard him groan.

"Blake." He croaked covering his face with the hand he grabbed me with. "I could smell your heat. Sorry... I snapped." He apologized and I smirked, embarrassed but kind of happy. He's my mate after all.

"Well, as you should know..." I husked grabbing his hand, pulling his hand away from his face, seeing a slight pink on his face. "... I found it sexy on you. It's a nice change though I don't know if I like it if you do it most of the time." I state grabbing his hips with my other hand pulling him from his kneeling position to sit on top me. "Damn! For a guy you sure are irresistible."

Aries looked surprised at my words that he averted his gaze on me. I ran my hand on his hips back and forth feeling the fabric hug his skin. A familiar scent caught my nose and it was unmistakably the scent of lust.

"We should stop this." Aries husked, his voice so low I got a hard on immediately and I'm sure he felt it with his ass on top my pants. "Blake... You're a jerk!" I raised a brow at him.

"So?!" I state. "I'm sure we did more than kissing before." He looked at me with a blank stare before shaking his head.

"No we didn't do much. Just a the occasional fondling..." Aries sighed.

"I'm that slow..." I asked quite surprised.

"You weren't ready... We weren't ready." Aries shrugged. "I guess it has its downside I guess being that full moon is within a week from now."

"Are you kidding me?!" I gaped pushing my back as Aries slid lower on my pants causing friction to rub his ass over my dick. A moan escaped both our lips.

"No." He answers back with a groan.

"Well, I was making sure those memories weren't true..." I looked down before looking back at him. "Not that I don't like them. You know. But damn! We didn't do anything else than kissing."

Aries looked at me with an unreadable expression on his face.

"You remembered." He states.

"Kind of..." I shrugged.

"That's explains..." He looked down.

"Explains what?!" I asked confused as I cupped his chin to look at me.

"You're behavior." He replies with a smile. "I mean you acting before this."

"Oh." I state. I guess I was becoming my old self again and for some reason I didn't want that. I want to remember Aries and all the things we did together but I don't want the me that rejected him to come back. I don't want Aries to go back and feel broken if I ever I did something that I don't like. Without warning something flashed before my head and a bitter memory returned in an instant. It was me standing in my father's office with Aries looking so distraught and broken. And the word that made my blood run cold is when I said that one word.

Nothing.

I did hurt him again. And I stood there like he's nobody to me. I outright shoved in his face that he was nothing to me when even I wouldn't say it out loud, he was my everything. The one that sees me through my faults. Through my insecurities. Through my pain. But I shoved him away, leaving him broken for what seems weeks.

I felt a warm hand clasp my cheek. A strong thumb wiping away what seems a cold tear that escaped my eyes. Aries looked at me. His eyes shining with concern and... love.

"Welcome back Blake." He states.

I pursed my lips and tried to stop the emotions from flooding out. Trying to bottle it up again and show that I'm not weak. I'm an Alpha, I kept chanting in my head. My eyes closed so hard I could feel it welling up in me.

I don't want to be that jerk that was afraid of the world to have a male mate. I don't want to be that person to push the ones that showed only love to me. And I don't want to be the Blake that Aries doesn't deserve.

I loved him. So fucking much!

I felt a warm chest engulf me as Aries' arms wrapped his around my back.

"I'm so sorry, Aye." I whimper like the broken child I was. "I'm so sorry." I chanted all over again. Whether he heard it or not, I continued to apologize in the darkness.

Aries remained quiet throughout my apology but his arms never left me, his warmth still so assuring. He still was there. For a moment I thought I was dreaming.

"Hate me now." I croaked, my voice raspy and strained. I felt something warm touch my head.

"No." He states. I felt him sniff my hair and for some reason it made my heart skip a beat. I unconsciously wrapped my hands around his hips.

"You shouldn't be." I point out. "I'm one piss of crap."

"You aren't." He growled. "I'm just glad."

"Glad that I'm a piss of crap?"

"No." He chuckled as pressed his lips on my head. "I'm glad your back. Memories and all."

"You prefer me being a jerk." I husked pressing my lips on the fabric of his shirt, instinctively taking his scent in. "Your one kinky guy. Are you a masochist?"

"Don't know but I'm sure I'm no masochist, Blake." Aries ran his hand at my back. "Why do things like this happen to us?"

"What do you mean?" I asked. My hands roaming farther below his back.

"This. Being intimate in the weirdest of places." Aries husked his fingers slipping inside my pants. The sudden touch made me jump as a growl erupted through my chest. "I see you still have this sensitive spot."

I could feel him smirking. Two could play at this game, I thought as I ran my hands back to his hips feeling his body sculpt at the right places. I brought my lips at his left nipple and bit it through the fabric of his clothes. I felt him stifle a moan.

Fuck that's sexy. A husky, manly moan.

I flicked my tongue around it before nipping at it again. My other hand already rubbing his other already hard nipple.

"Blake..." Aries voice came out hoarse and labored. "What are you doing?" He croaked.

"Nothing." I smirked as my hands pulled his shirt up revealing his sinful v line and eight pack. Not to brag but my mate had something to envious about. Shit. I never felt looking at a man's physique would be fap worthy and that's understatement seeing that we werewolves are always naked when we shift. Aries had a body to drool over.

I raised his shirt even further until I came to what I was looking for, his chest. And staring it now I could now made me think why boobs where so hot. Aries' chest was taut, not so flat and not so busty. It's a testament that he works out a lot to keep it well defined.

"Stop staring Blake." I heard him groaned as he tried to pull his shirt back down. I simply won't let him. Licking my lips, I immediately dove towards my prize and Aries reaction was well appreciated. "B-Blake... ". He croaked.

He placed his hands over my shoulder to push me away but I was not going to back down. His flesh tasted sweet and salty at the same time. And the hard nub sent pleasure through my body as my tongue flick and nip at the pink nub.

Aries' writhed and squirmed, trying to push me back. But my hold in him was like iron grips and before we know it, Aries was on his back with me taking a bite on his other nipple. Aries stiffen out a moan or two but he was powerless against my ministrations. I had experience with girls after all but I took into account that Aries was no girl. Far from it! He was a guy.

I push up and gaze at the swollen and hard buds of flesh and I smirked at my accomplishment as I looked at the panting Alpha below me. His eyes glazed and unfocused as he was trying to catch his breath. Licking my lips, I leaned down to capture his lips.

I slipped my tongue in once he returned my kiss and soon it turned into one heated battle for dominance. I felt him press his hand over my head, gripping my hair in the process.

For a moment it was pure bliss. I didn't care if I was kissing a guy. All that matter was I was kissing Aries. When suddenly I felt my back against the hard ground again with him on top. A wicked grin plastered on his swollen lips.

"Now it's my turn to have some fun." He husked and before I could utter a word, his teeth sunk at the crook at my neck.

"Fuck!" I yelped as I felt him bite into my neck but not in the fashion of marking me. It would be nice but it was alright for now. He sucked into the skin hard making sure to leave a Hickey all over my neck.

His hand roamed inside my clothes and fondled my nipples making me moan. My eyes shot out as the undeniable pleasure jolted through my body. Shit! He was doing this on purpose.

"You like it?" He husked as he assaulted the other side of neck. Leaving a trail of kisses on my skin.

"Far from it." I croaked but the labored breathing gave my facade away. And through glazed eyes I could clearly see him smirking on top of me.

"I didn't think having sex was this enjoyable." He smirked but I had to laugh at his innocence. "What?!"

"This isn't sex, Aye." I state. "This is kinda like foreplay. You know the things you do before sex." I grinned as he turned red from embarrassment.

"I know that." He groaned. "It's not like I had any experience with doing it with somebody you know."

"Really? By the looks of it, you're a natural. Shit, I didn't know you where a virgin." I smiled at him and how adorable he looked like while embarrassed.

"I had experienced with my hands." He huffed and I laughed hard.

"Jerking off doesn't count as sex." I state.

"Well, I'm sorry if I don't like fooling around." He groaned crossing his arms.

"Hey, I didn't mean it that way, okay." I glared at him. "I'm glad you didn't fool around." I looked down and sighed. "The one who should be embarrassed is me. I should have waited for you."

"Yes you should." He said plainly.

"Really?! I expect a it's alright at least you can make me feel good kind of reply from you." I groaned but he leaned over and pecked my lips before pulling back.

"That too but it won't be necessary when you're not one topping." He state with a grin and with a smirk I leaned over so our faces where only inches away from each other.

"Care to bet your ass on that?" I husked sexily at him.

"My ass will not be on the table, Blake." He husked, meeting my face mid way. I could feel our breathes touch our face. A feeling of superiority emanating from both of us as we looked at each other's lust filled eyes.

"I could try, can't I." I leaned over capturing his lips.

"You can try but I don't think you're getting any of this." He smirked before return for our kiss. Our hands touching every crook and cranny of our skin.

We don't know when but during our make out session, our shirts had already left our bodies. It's something about the wild and our body heat that made this all natural.

"Shit!" I cussed as I felt my pants tighten up painfully. I look at Aries and he was not far from my situation. "Fuck it!" I groaned as I stood up and start unbuckling my belt. Aries looked at me as if I'm giving him a live show.

I grinned as I slowly unbutton my pants and in one go dropped my pants and boxer down as my cock immediately felt the cold night air touch it's skin.

I looked at Aries with a smirk. I was half hard already and leaking precum profusely when I looked at him with a glint of lust on his eyes. I know I'm well endowed. Larger than most guys my age.

"Like what you see." I purred huskily. Aries swallowed a lump on his throat before shaking his head.

"I didn't know you were this big." He croaked before standing up and starting to unbuckle his pants as well. "But if showing your cock makes you the top in our relationship then you're sadly mistaken, my mate." He dropped his pants and my eyes shot wide. He was as big as me and he was half hard as well.

It was my turn to swallow a lump in my throat. It's big for sure. Damn! Why do we have to be the same in almost everything.

I didn't know when Aries started approaching me but when I did, he was at a few inches away. To say the least I was mesmerized by his physique. He was no other men or women I ever seen. And that huge third leg between his legs. I had to swallow hard again.

"Fuck." I muttered under my breath as my eyes were still staring down at his lower half. "All this time... You... Fuck... You sure you haven't... You know..."

"I was a shy kid." Aries shrugged before touching my hips with his hands. "Even as an Alpha, I wasn't that confident kid. I was raised by my mom to be as humble as I can be."

"With your looks and that thing..." I groaned, feeling embarrassed as I pressed my forehead over Aries', staring at his eyes. "... Damn... Talking to you now and looking at you butt naked made me happy, uneasy yes, but happy. Shit! Every girl would be damn proud to have you as their mate!"

"Well too bad for them..." Aries smirked as looked straight at me, eyes shining with myriad of emotions. "I already have my sights on one particular wolf."

"Seriously, you should have someone better than me." I state.

"Well, you also should have someone better than me as well." He retorted as he pressed our bodies together. Our body fit like puzzle pieces and the way how it felt right in so many levels. "But we're stuck like this."

"Hell, we could have kids when we're mated to chicks." I groaned.

"We could always adopt." Aries state. "And you of all people I can't picture as a father."

"Fuck you! But seriously, our genes would just go to waste if we can't..." Aries finger pressed into my lips, cutting me mid sentence.

"You're thinking too much." He chuckled. "And that's not so like you. Thinking about the future and all."

"But..."

"There's tons of way to have kids, Blake. There's always an option to look for a surrogate..."

"I won't be fucking some bitch just to have a kid!" I glared at him. "If we're going to have kids I want you to bear them."

"Blake." Aries starts. "I'm a guy. Unless I can grow a vagina or a womb, I can't see of us having pups anytime soon."

"Fine." I groaned.

"Why are you talking about this right now?" He asked.

"Dunno." I shrugged. "It's been awhile since I felt you in my grasp and frankly I kinda missed talking to you."

Aries smirked widely before pressing a sweet kiss over my lips.

"I missed you too as well." He states as he leaned over. "Want to try something..."

I jerk my head away to look at him when I felt something clasp my dick. Aries' hand was jerking my cock and I would be lying if it didn't so good.

"So soft yet so hard." I heard him whisper in my ear as I craned my head over his shoulder. "Sorry if I'm not good at this..." He ran his fingers over my entire length before his thumb rub the slit of my cock, spreading my precum all over my length.

"Fuck, Aye! So good." I moaned as I grabbed his waist. "Fuck, better than any hand job I ever had."

"Glad to know." He smirked.

I let out a muffled moan again as he worked his magic on my pulsating cock, using both hands this time. I heard him chuckle at my situation that I decided to pay him back. With all my strength I grabbed his cock and he immediately purred on my ear as he craned his head over my shoulder.

It's odd holding another guy's dick that not yours but holding Aries' cock felt right. It was large, I can't even wrap my entire hand around its girth.

We continued to jerk each other's cock in a fluid motion and in a few minutes we were jerking off each other in unison and in perfect rhythm. And some time we wrapped our hands around our cocks and jerked them together through our clasped hands and the feeling of our slick flesh rub against each was so erotic that our breaths started to go uneven.

"Blake..." Aries husked, out of breath.

"Aye... Fucking good..." I moaned, biting his earlobe.

"I'm close..." He moaned.

"Me too..." I replied, drowned in the bliss of ecstasy. "Its so fucking good."

We were a moaning mess as we sped our rhythm. And in the heat of the moment, our lips were stuck against each other in a fight for dominance, our tongues in a heated sword fight. Our hips grinding against each other creating friction that made us moan inside our mouth.

In a blink of an eye, I felt a warm liquid coat our bodies as we broke our kiss to take much needed breath. Our cocks were spewing cum uncontrollably. I never felt so much bliss from cumming so hard. Aries was breathing si hard that he had to sit down on the ground with me in tow. The after euphoria was like having sex. My Goddess! If jerk of sessions with Aries was this fucking amazing then what would it feel when we do blowjobs, foreplay or even actual intercourse. I can't help but moan.

Aries breathing was now getting even as ran his cum filled hand over his hair unnoticed.

"That... That was... Something." Aries smirked his eyes glazing with bliss. Though his cock remained hard and still spewing cum. Mine was far from soft either. It was still pressed against my abs with cum still flowing out of its slit.

"Damn hell, Aries." I croaked still swimming in euphoria, crawled towards Aries and capturing his lips. We fell towards the ground with our lips still kissing each other. "Damn."

"Would it be wrong if I wanted to do that again?" Aries croaked.

"You looked sexy drenched in cum." I husked as I grabbed his still hard cock. He hissed but a moan escaped his lips as I started to jerk him slowly. "You know, Aye." He hummed as I looked at his eyes. Drowning on how beautiful they were. "You're beautiful."

I winced when I felt him jerk my cock as well but I was a puddle of mush once he ran his thumb over the slit again. A muffled moan escaped my chest as rest my head over the crook of his neck.

"Thanks." He smirked. Kissing the side of my head before continuing on pumping my length.

"Don't ever give up on me, Aye." I croaked. Aries stopped jerking me and turned to his side to look at me. I could feel his eyes on me but I was afraid to look at him.

I felt him clasp my shoulder, pulling me away from his neck to look at me. He's eyes shining with love that I could help but close mine.

"As long you won't give up on me." Was his silent reply and I can't help but well up the tears that suddenly bursts out off my eyes.