**Run Away, Hurting Inside**

"We are more often frightened than hurt, and we suffer more from imagination than from reality." - Lucius Annaeus Seneca

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Zira Aquene,

I don't understand why are they being so overprotected at me did I do something bad before?

I know this may sound cliché but I just need to find my mate don't they understand that.

It was clear to me that my mate wasn't here in my pack because if she or he was then I should know and met him or her already?

I was saying those same genders because I was not sure of myself that maybe my mate is a woman and not a boy who wouldn't when everyone here in our pack knew that I was a lesbian.

They're just saying to me that I shouldn't contain myself in the possibility that it was a man also. So I did there wasn't any harm at any of that.

As I was wandering here in the forest near the forbidden city where all the vampires live and there I saw the most beautiful woman in front of me crying. It was as if I was enchanted by her beauty.

I didn't approach her because I knew too well that she is a vampire.

And vampire and wolves are mortal enemies for a long time ago.

I always came here because this place is special to me I came here often whenever I was sad or depressed or happy this is my breathing ground. I don't know how but this dangerous place for me became my fortress.

I discovered it by accident when I was a little cub back then I got lost when playing alone in this forest. I don't remember why I got lost only a little fragment of my memory back then is with me until now, I only remember following a beautiful fairy, then I found this place.

After I found this place it's just a blurry memory but I know that I wasn't the only one in this place before and when I woke up I was at home lying on my bed.

I ask my mom at that time what happen to me and how I got home but nobody said anything to me. That put curiosity in my mind to know but every time they change the topic so I got tired of asking them and I let them be.

Back here at present time I was just watching her and also concentrating to musk my smell and aura for her not to feel and smell me.

But then unexpected things happen we just lock our eyes at each other and then my heart skips a beat for the first time and my wolf is screaming at my head now.

"MATE" yes she is screaming mate and her scream is making my head hurt.

Zaih!! Stop it! You're making my head burst. I know she is our mate but she is a vampire and this is unacceptable know you that we can't have a vampire mate.

You're a coward ZIRA!

Zaih I'm warning you to stop yelling.

Zira she's here our mate is here and yet you're denying her, how cowardly of you to look at her, look how beautiful and mesmerizing she is.

And look at her eyes she's sad now don't you get it she needs us now. I can feel that she is dying.

B..But how? She's a vampire she is immortal.

Such a naive girl you are Zira, a vampire who doesn't meet or doesn't have a mate for a hundred years and will eventually become weak and die alone.

H..how did you know all about this zaih?

Of course, I know don't underestimate my capabilities little Zira.

Ugh, now you're boasting.

Of course, I'm an alpha!

Here we go again! Zaih goodbye!

Hey Zira No! I cut her off my mind. Zaih is a woman who always wants to dominate and I was the one who is always patient but I was still glad that my wolf and my friend.

I was watching this beautiful vampire mate of mine and she didn't know that had already locked eyes earlier. I don't even smell her as my mate maybe because she was now weak and for me to think that she will gonna die without knowing about me or us made my heartache.

So I decided to approach her when I was about to unhide myself another vampire came.

My lady everyone is finding you! The king and queen are worried about you. She is the vampire princess! Now I remember that there is a rumor going around here that the heiress of the vampire clan has no mate now I know that it was true but not entirely true because here I am her mate.

Safira would it make me a bad daughter to just run away here and find my mate? Would they get mad at me? She asks that safira lady.

My lady they are just doing it for your health and you also as their child. She said I know it was bad to eavesdrop but I have no choice or else they will know that I was here.

Safira thank you for always being here with me all your life. You knew all too well what I was feeling because you have no mate also. That lady has also no mate

My lady my mate died before meeting him and when I knew it was too late so I choose to be with you than to die with him. I see how loyal she is to her princess.

Hmm... That is why I was thankful that you are here with me... Thank you safira always. My mate said

You're welcome, my lady.

Are you feeling weak? Safira lady asks the princess

Yeah! I' am! My knees became jelly when I hear her hurting. Was she enduring it all this time

Would you like to drink my blood again my lady you know I was willing to do that always for you! She what?!?! No, my mate is only mine and mine alone!

I was about to unmask when I heard her say yes. I became deaf for a moment and my whole body succumb to anger, jealousy, and guilt.

Yes, safira. Thank you!

Ok, let's get you home first!

Ok!

I was too weak to stand when I hear what they were saying and disappear in an instant. Teleportation they can do that.

When they're gone I immediately run fast to go home crying and devastated at what I know.

All night I was crying and thinking about what to do and what are they doing.

Are they just drinking blood and after that having sex or does she just drink blood and have no sex at all?

My mind is on haywire and zaih is not helping at all he became quiet when we heard them.

Maybe she is hurting too.

And because of my thoughts, a lot of thoughts to be correct, I didn't feel that I fell asleep.