Where are you? I need you.

While I was going home alone, sad and feeling devastated, I was hoping to see the Princess and let her greet me with her mess. It's finer for me, more than this.

I cannot take this feeling; it hurts more than that.

Aoi's 5th Birthday

"Mom, it's my birthday!!" Aoi said, with a cheerful smile on his face and a very happy voice.

He is always excited on his birthday because of gifts and parties, but little that he knows that his parents are not doing well in their company, his parents were busy and stressed because of the company's problem.

His mom just greeted him with a stressed voice and a weak face, "Happy birthday son, go on play, okay?" His mom kissed him on the forehead and left.

"Mommy I want to play with you" he said as he watched his mom go to the study room while walking weakly.

Aoi went to his dad and told him that it was his birthday today. His dad just pat Aoi's head and said "Happy birthday my dear son, go and play with nannies"

"But Aoi wants to play with daddy and mommy", Aoi said, with a low and sad voice. He was so excited and so happy because he thought that his parents had a surprise for him, but there it was.

He went to the study room to look for his mother and father. When he reached the door, he caught his father shouting at his mother. He heard something that he should not have heard or know.

He was so shocked when he heard something like that, he was so devastated, but since he was a good child and an understandable child, he calmed himself and interjected to his parents and spoke.

"Mom, Dad? is it true?"

"Oh no, Aoi." His mom gasped as his mother looked at him standing there crying with his sad face.

"What are you doing here!!? Go to your room!!" His father said angrily and waved his hand away as if to tell him to leave.

Aoi ran down the hallway crying, going to his room.

He felt sad by what he heard, he wanted to cry more, ask more questions, and he wanted to answer the thousands of questions in his mind.

While he was crying in his room, a knock on his door stopped him from crying, and it was his mom.

His mom confessed and spoke.

"Aoi, my dear son. Mother wants to tell you this when you grow up, but I" she stopped talking as she was trying to stop her tears.

"Aoi" she said, while she hugged Aoi and said sorry.

"Aoi my son, I am so sorry because I hid this from you, I just don't want to hurt you, I love you son, please believe me." She said that with tears, and hugged Aoi tightly.

Aoi just stares at the door while his mother is hugging him, he doesn't know how to answer his mom or how to react.

He just broke into his mother's hug and spoke.

"It's okay mom, I am lucky to be here. And don't cry anymore, I am fine." He said as he put a smile on his face, feeling out of place in their home.

"I am lucky because dad and you gave me a home, and I am thankful because mommy and daddy feed me and treat me as their own baby." He added with his sweet fake smile.

Aoi is already aware of the truth and the trend of the real world when he was apparently a Kid. Aoi grew up thinking of what he could do to be a real child of the Sakirasha family.

Aoi spends his life there studying and reading books. He doesn't care about games, girls, money, or searching for a future job, because he is sure himself that he is working hard enough to be the heir of his dad's company.

But the newborn son had been announced. He was shocked by what the nurse said.

He is lucky enough if he has a sister, but not.

He is wrong. His parents had a newborn baby boy, which left him feeling useless and afraid.

Afraid that he will surely be kicked out of the mansion and will not be available to get the company shareholders' vote, besides, he is just adopted.

He only has one choice left, and that is to find another family.

But his family doesn't agree with that and just kicked him without a last name. He is just Aoi and nothing more.

His family just gave him enough money for him to buy a house and make a living.

Aoi remembers it all because of what he is feeling right now.

"Again, this feeling again" I am crying while walking to my house.

"I hate this, I hate this feeling." I said it while I wanted to just disappear from this cruel world. Why me? Why is it always me? Why do I have to go through this? I already moved on from what happened, but I think I didn't.

"It hurts" I said while crying in front of my house door. I am holding my chest because it hurts a lot, in here, in my heart.

It feels like falling apart and breaking little by little.

I don't know what to do to make me feel better. I wanted to see Princess' eyes because they were so colorful. My life is dark, while her eyes are so colorful, like her recent life here with me.

He has a home and food to eat. Everything is free for her.

She might not have a chance to find her family, but she has me, yeah.

She has me, I hope, and I hope that she knows it.

I was about to go inside but before that, I decided to wipe my tears for Princess to not feel sad as I did. I put a smile on my face and walked in.

When I do, I look at her bed but she's not there. I looked everywhere, but still nothing.

I stopped searching and just went to my room and sat on my bed. I was making a choice about whether I was just going to stay there and rest asleep or search for Princess.

Gwen's POV

I was about to ring the doorbell, when I saw Aoi crying on the floor in front of his house. I hid on the side of the gate and heard him whimper. He said the words 'Again, this feeling again', 'I hate this, I hate this feeling' and touched the last one that touched my heart because of the tone of his voice.

'It hurts'. It's like asking for help and it was so sad.

I wanted to go and comfort him, but he knew, and I knew myself that that was not my thing.

I heard the doors open and close.

When I was about to leave and decided to just go home, I heard a bang at his house that made me surprised and a little worried, and it was his door.

He ran outside, he was in a hurry, that made him not see me sitting beside his gate.

I was planning not to say anything and just stay there sitting while waiting for him to go far away, but I just couldn't, so I shouted and called him.

"Hey!! dumb ass!!" I said it like I just got.

Aoi's POV

I decided to search for Princess and ran faster towards the door. It banged, and I just didn't care, I was so focused that it made me not see Gwen in front of my house.

"Hey! dumb ass!!" She shouted and waved.

"Hey," I said while gasping for air.

"What's the rush?" she asked.

"Oh, yeah, right. Princess, the cat is missing." I said while still gasping.

"Oh, is that so? You want me to help you?" She said while smiling at me.

"Why?" I asked her because it's so weird for her to offer me something, especially some help?

"Nothing, I just want to, and I have a lot of time, so? Do you want it or not?"

"Yeah okay, thank you" I answered.

I needed some help too, so I just said yes, and besides, she had told me she had a lot of time, so I just let her be.

Now that she decided to help, we decided to split and search for Princess.

I need Princess right now because I miss her, and the fact that she makes my world more alive because of her morning surprises and asking me for more and more food every time we eat.

I miss her, I miss my cat.

Where the hell are you, Princess?

I ask myself while running and stopping at the same time, because of searching for her in every inch of the side of the walls and grass.

Where are you?

I need you.