My mother left us. .

My mother and our neighbors got drunk in the afternoon until the night even after the typhoon we had experienced that freshly happened. I asked within my mind, "Why were they all like that? Didn't they you know it was God who send that great storm for us? They don't have time for Him anymore and still they continue to have fun and didn't even repent of their sins." I was in my room that time and there was no electricity and water supply. We were still using a candle light and flashlights. I went with them and had a little conversation about me and my beliefs. My mother told me, "I am just looking at you last night and what happened is really powerful. I really believe in God but we don't need to be in your religion. It's okay for me to be in hell because only God can judge and punish me. I will repent later." I replied to them, "I have a relationship with God and not a religion. You can tell that so easy that it's okay for you to go to hell but when you will get there you can't have another chance to repent. God will judge the way we live our lives. You may need to cry out for help but it's too late anymore. Can you burn just a part of your hand from that candle light if you can overcome it for a minute? What more in hell if you'll be burnt all over and for eternity. It is better to be ready because we didn't know when we will die or when will Jesus come back. If Jesus will come back tonight are you all ready?" They were all in complete silence and they only nodded that what i have said was true. I also heared my mother told my neighbors that even though i am a Born Again Christian now she noticed many changes in me compared to who i was before. I go to my room again then a message appeared in my facebook post, "You will have a loved one that will be far away from you but i want you to make her feel that you will still love her." I was so worried and always thinking about what i have read was really meant for me. My heart beat so fast and i couldn't believe and understand.

My mother have many debts and it was because of my uncle who was unmarried. He had no one to run for help. He was a construction worker and an accident happened to him in their workplace. His spinal cord was injured so much that leads to malfunction in urinating. He had a surgery but it got complicated and he couldn't stand or walk. Mother also had many debts in my brother's school in going to college. My brother Christ graduated from Industrial engineering for five years but still he didn't use the course he had finished. He didn't find work either after he graduated but only getting drunk and took a lot of cigarettes. He was super addicted to alcoholic drinks that time with his friends. Then he seek a girlfriend and built a family without planning it. He wasn't ready at all that it made my mother more disappointed. We also heared that our place will be a super highway soon. We don't have the title of the land where we live now. My mother was so down until i was added too because of the belief i have now. She told us always that she will left our house because she can't carry it anymore and that he didn't love my father too. There really came a time she left us and i cried so much in front of my family. I told my mother, "Please don't leave us mother. 😭 Let's save this family and let's come back to God like before. Mother you don't have God anymore because your time is only spent in gambling and drinking. I know God will help us in our situation. Money and house can't be brought to heaven. I am very sorry mother for everything we lack from you and for the dreams or goals that you have planned for us that didn't come true. All our life you're in control but we are human too. We have decisions and i know we're not properly guided because of what we experienced and saw in you as an example. We lack family bonding and communication. Please give our family another chance mother!" I let my father and mother hold unto each others hands and beg them not to get separated but my mother wept and let go. She went upstairs and packed her things. I followed her and hugged her so tight but she really wanted to left. 😭 She said it is her final decision and she brought our little brother Brix too. It was a heavy rain but still my mother chose to leave us. 😭 I cried out so much and it made my heart break. I can't believe it really happened to my family. I remember the message i have read and it was really true again. The night came and i went outside to swing alone and i remember my mother again. I am weeping so much and calling God, "Father God. .Lord Jesus. .Holy Spirit. .Jesus Jesus Jesus." 😭 I was crying in pain and many tears fall until i can't hear and breathe well. I started to calm my self then i talk to God, "My God i wish i could fly above and i can go to many beautiful places to ease this pain for awhile." Then a cold air i felt was like someone is with me and i know it was God who is listening and letting ne feel His presence. When i got asleep at that night i had a dream. Someone was holding my left hand beside me but i can't see Him. All i know is that He shines so bright and He fly me above like from a place from the past generation until this new generation. It changes from time to time to a different beautiful places and colorful flowers. It made me very happy and i was flying and flying above the sky. I don't want to wake up anymore and i know it was Jesus who was with me. He never left me in my sorrow and pain. 😭➕😭