On fire again. .

This is what a life of a Christian is and when we follow Jesus the enemies attacks us even more! They hate the fact that you believe and love Jesus. I always tend to let the devil put lies on my mind especially during my hardships and loneliness. He attacks me on my weaknesses too. Sometimes i felt on fire and sometimes i am also spiritually dry because of the sins i committed. When i am so down and losing myself i searched for God's presence again and repenting so much. The truth is that it wasn't God that i felt so far away but myself because of my sinful nature. I always repented many times because of my transgressions. I was crying and i can't really understand the reason why. The devil's lie inside my mind says that i failed God and i will not be forgiven. I didn't know what to do that time and i am struggling how to pray too but still i pursued harder. A video popped up and i played it, "I know how you feel because i live in your heart. I know you're crying because you don't know the reason. I am catching every tears my child and i am here. I am the only one who understands you. Just ask the Holy Spirit or pray for the Lord's prayer." After i read it i began to cry even more because Jesus was still there waiting and wanting me to come back to Him. There was a time too that i am watching videos on my phone and it was about a funny movie. After i watched it i go back to facebook home and i have read a post, "My child, why haven't you talk to me? Who made your happiness? I have missed you." Then i cried again, repent and talk to God in my room and pray. Another time also that i was watching a movie on the TV and it was about a Filipino love story. After i watched it i felt i a bit happy but my conviction was that i am not for entertainment anymore. I took a bathe and when i go upstairs i opened my bible. I haven't read it yet but i already cry out to God so much because of the emotion i felt. My tears made the pages wet and when i look unto that page i read it and it says that i am being payed for a price. That i should not live for myself anymore but for Christ alone. God always responds in His words and most of the time it was corrections about all bad or good that you've done. It was always disciplining like a father to his child. I started to realize that i have to glorify God in whatever i do. I have to let Jesus shine in my life more and lesser time to worldly pleasures.

When i woke up i need to pray and talk to God. When i eat, walk, ride, wash clothes and dishes and more! I have to pray and talk to Him often. I gave Him time for devotions and always going to church for Bible studies, outreaches, fellowships, conferences, revivals and jubilees. I sing aloud with many praises inside my room. Reading bible and listening to Christian songs was my great hobby that time. I am always creating articles about Jesus too and sharing His words in my facebook post. I remember when i don't have Jesus in my life yet, i always took photos of my self and it was so undecent! Always taking selfies to get likes and popularity for my own sake. I was also listening to worldly songs before and even dance on it but now i don't like it anymore. When i listen to the lyrics it's so evil for me now and unholy. I deleted my downloaded worldly music and replaced it with many Christian songs. I realize that there were a lot of Godly songs that are more beautiful to listen to. What you feed in your mind changes your soul and thoughts. I am glad Jesus made a lot of changes within me. I am happy that the life i have right now with Jesus is worthy and full of joy. I have done it all with love even if i sometimes i felt very tired and restless.

My brothers and sisters in Christ were on fire too even if it rains or shines nothing can stop them. Sometimes our speakers will not function and we do house to house preaching or individually share to the people around us about what Jesus did in our lives. Some will listen and accept Jesus in our prayers but some will reject and laugh at us too.

It's just fine for us rather than they couldn't know the truth and the way to salvation from Jesus Christ. I know it hurts but the important is that we did our part to spread the good news. It is written in the Holy Bible to go into the world and preach the gospel of salvation. We spread and testify Jesus not only on many places but also to our world. Our relatives, friends, neighbors and family because they are also our world! We can't force anyone because all we can do is just pray to God and it is up to them if they would believe or not. It is only God who can touch their hearts. ❤️➕️❤️

I am really happy to the place where i am right now. If i'd known before that there are people who followed Jesus this way i would have loved to be born and know this kind of Christian fellowship. I wish i was here long ago but i know that God's plan is made perfect for His time. I will never ever change my beliefs and no one can change my mind either. I have promised God that i will not give up in whatever difficulties that i will face in the future. I know He is always there holding my life in His hands. I believe and hold on to His promises even if i can't understand His ways. I love God above anyone and anything in this world now. My only focused before was only about myself and other people but now it's only Jesus and going to heaven with Him. ❤➕❤