chapter 10

I leaned my head back over the side of the saddle as I let the wind tousle my hair around feeling content.

"Ok something that's really been bugging me y/n, if the Oricale is supposed to be with the avatar all the time, why were you not in the ice with aang when we found him" sokka asked me with his fingure on his chin as he looked down thinking. I opened my eyes and looked to him as he spoke.

"I was not born yet, the Oracle before me was still alive" I smiled at him.

"But why now, and why are you not much older then the rest of us" suki asked. I looked to aang, but his back was facing us as he sat on the back of appas neck as he looked at the horizon. I sighed as I looked back at the group.

"I cant go into much detail about it with you all, but what I can say is that I was supposed to be born in the same air temple that aang was present at. However he was trapped in ice at the time so the spirits didnt know where to put me. I ended up being lost and thus getting born into a world that was much different from this one. I was 30 in that would when the spirits found me and brought me here. Because I was supposed to be 12 years younger then aang the spirits took 12 years off my body. So I became 18 again." I was looking out at the sky behind appa as I spoke.

"That's too crazy to be true" zuko said.

"Shes telling the truth, I can feel it" toph vouched for me.

"What about your family, your loved ones, arnt they worryed where you are" katara spoke softly. I looked down as I chuckled sadly.

"I doubt that, I had a very bad family. I dont want to get into that" then I heard the Oracle before me speak making me snap my head up to see if she was there, but I didnt see her.

"Dont be so sure about that" after she spoke I was pulled into blue pictures of one of my visions. But this one wasnt about a life here. It was about what happened at the other world after I got here, leaving it all behind. It was outside, my sisters and mother were sitting in chairs crying. There was a coffin... with a picture of me to the side of it. My husband walked up to the podium with tears in his eyes as he placed some papers on it. There was a sudden surge of blue over my vision before it cleard to play the seen again. 'Sadly we are here today to morn the loss of y/n' he choked back sobs as he continued. 'We love her and miss her dearly... so... so it's hard.... it's hard to know why.... to know why she took her own life' my brain stopped for a moment. I didnt know I killed myself to get to them. 'No, i.. I cant read these fucking lies' he said as he threw the papers infront of him letting the wind take them away. 'We know why she took her life' he slammed his hands on the podium as he pointed to my mother and older sisters. 'Its because of you four, she said she was unhappy, she said that she needed help, but you all didnt want to listen, you all told her she was being a baby' they all cryed harder as they put there heads in there hands. Pain and guilt radiating off of them. 'I gave her all my love, everything, I know I was I good husband to her, but deep down thats not what she wanted, that's not what she really needed, she needed her blood family to give her the love that she craved, the love that pained her everyday knowing she didnt have' 'we did love her and we still do' my sister s/n yelled at him, tears streaming down her face. 'Is that why you said she wasnt your sister and you hated her when your husband raped her when she was 15' he screamed at her. The friends and other family members that were there and didnt know gasped and looked to them with confusion. 'None of you believed her for that matter, her own blood didnt believe her, you have no idea how badly it hunted her, what he did to her, she might have been able to deal with it if her family didnt disown her for telling you what happened, your lucky her father isn't alive anymore or else if he was when that happened he would have put you all in the ground' he screamed. 'You know what fuck it I'll put you there now, I dont have a reason to live anymore anyway' my husband yelled as he jumped on my sisters husband and started to beat the ever loving shit out of him. There was blood everywhere before people pulled my husband away. My vision flashed forward to my husband sitting in jail, old and grey. 'Was it worth it' a young inmate asked him. 'What, killing my late wife's rapist that ruined her life and made her end it, yes, yes it was' his voice was old and hard as if all the joy he even knew was gone and hate and anger remained. 'Its time h/n' a guard came and said. My husband was now sat and was clamped into an electric chair. Just when the guard pulled the lever up, my vision flashed to my sister who's husband hurt me, she cryed and cryed. 'I should have believed her, I should have held her, if I did she would have never ended it and you wouldnt have raped your own daughter you bastard' she screamed as she went after him with a blade that he easily knocked away and started to beat her. All bloodily, barely alive before he picked her up and treated her wounds. My vision flashed to my mother, she jumped off a bridge ending her own life. It flashed to my eldest sister. She drank her pain away till there was nothing left and died of alcohol poisoning. It flashed to my last sister, broken and alown. She had nothing, she couldnt cope and her family she had left her. I was brought back to the real world. Tears were streaming down my face. I noticed aang was infront of me with his head down and his eyes fading from a blue glow as his hands were on my shoulders.

"I...I.... killed.... myself.... my.... my..." I started to speak as the shock and realization hit me and I started to uncontrollably cry. Aang shot his head up to look at me with tears streaming down his face. He violently pulled me into a hug and wrapped his arms as tight around me as he could.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for what happened to you, I'm sorry for everything, I'm sorry" he squeezed me tighter.

"Wait, what, what just happened" suki said confused.

"Y/n are you ok" toph asked then aang jerked me away and stood up.

"No one touch her, you'll force a vision on her like katara did" aang said as he walked back to the back of appas neck and sat with me in his lap leaning on him like I was in the forest when we talked. I took a deep breath in, smelling berries and a sent of clean freshness on him. He rubbed my back up and down as we sat there quietly. My eyes were getting heavy and I found sleep taking as I snuggled my face further into aangs warmth. He threw his cloke over me and his lap as sleep took me.