chapter 11

I opened my eyes due to a tickle on my face. I saw that we had landed and everyone was on the ground in tents or in sleeping bags sleeping. Well, expect for aang who was leaning over top of me looking down at my face with his hand caressing my cheek, that was where I felt the tickle. We were still laying on appa, I was now on my back on appa. Aang was mostly to my side except for the top of him leaning over me with his face close to mine, slowly getting redder the more he realized I was awake.

"Do you always admire girls when they sleep" I giggled after I spoke. He went to pull his hand and himself away from me but I grabbed his hand before he could and held it to my face, leaning into it more.

"I was just kidding, dont go, I miss being able to have human contact without visions" I said softly. He seemed to calm at my words and got comfortable next to me again.

"Y/n"

"Yes anng" I opened my eyes to look at him, still holding his hand to my face.

"I-um I saw the vision you had today... I tryed to get your attention.. but when I touched you.. I was pulled into it.... and um.... I wanted to ask you some things... that man that was yelling... what does rape mean" I sucked a lot of air down as my eyes widen, I didnt exspect to be asked this. He pulled away from me and this time I let him.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's just that man kept yelling that and beat that man an-"

"Aang it's ok" I sat up pulling my legs closer to me.

"This is a little hard for me to explain but aang" I turned to look at him with my head resting on my knees.

"You know what sex is right" his face got really red as he couldn't keep eye contact with me.

"Um.. ya... just the basics and that it's how kids are made... I never did it, i cant, the monks just gave me a book about it once" I close my eyes as I face forward again. Well at least this will be a little easier.

"Well its basically sex, but one of the people involved doesn't want to do it. So the other person forces them to do it. They may fight, they may scream. The person forcing it may hit the other person, threaten to kill them, or threaten to kill there family to get the person fighting to let them have their way with them" I looked back to aang when I finished. He had wide eyes, and his face went from confusion, anger, then sadness before he whispered out.

"That happened to you"

"Yes it did, it was a very scary and hard experience. I was 15 and he was 30. He was my brother-in-law, I trusted him, and he shattered my world." I mumbled just loud enough for him to hear. His face turned to panic as he leaned toward me.

"Is- is that what I did in the forest. I was so angry and upset, but you're just so beautiful and I feel this pull to you that I cant explain. I just wanted to touch you and do more but I didnt ask and you didnt tell me an-" he was looking down as he spoke rapidly. I grabbed his hand to shush him.

"Shhh, aang, you're ok, you didnt hurt me, you didnt do that to me. Yes you did touch me, but I like when you touch me. Aang I could feel that you were trying to fight what you were doing, so I know you could feel that I liked you hands and lips on my skin."

He looked back up to me.

"But I'm not supposed to do that, I took a vow to be a celibate monk. Katara wanted us to do that stuff but I cant and I know that's why she left" he looked back down again when he spoke of katara. I moved closer to him with his hand still in mine, rubbing the back of it with my thumb. I put my other hand on his chin and tilted his face to look at me.

"Aang... you know you have to break that vow right... your the last airbender... in order for the balance to truly be restored... that tradition has to be done away with" he looked to me with pleading eyes telling me that deep down, he knows that, but he dosnt want to.

"That's all I have of them... to make them proud" a few tears went down his face. I moved closer to him and put his hand on my lap as I moved both of my hands to his face, wiping his tears with my thumbs under both his eyes.

"They are already proud of you. You found a way to stop ozie without killing him and I think that's what they are most proud of. But it's been over 100 years, all the air nomads that you have helped repopulate the temple have long lines of none benders. The air benders repopulation starts with you aang. If it makes you feel better, the celibate vow can be changed to celibacy till marriage vow." He closed his eyes as he nodded his head. He sniffled and opened his eyes.

"I always knew I had to do that... but I think I just needed someone else to tell me" i smiled.

"And I'll be here to help give guidance when its needed" he closed his eyes and put his forehead to mine.

"Thanks y/n"

"Anytime.... and if we're being technical, going off the original vow, you shouldn't have been dating katara" I said to lighten the mood. And it worked because he laughed making me smile.... And my heart flutter.