Disowned

"I warned you didn't I? I have always warned you about this. I told you how society works, I told you how it is for girls who do stuffs like this and yet you didn't listen. You speak about love so fluently but do you know anything about it? You are to young to know anything about love and yet you went and did this? My head has now hung in shame all because of what you did. Despite everything I still forgave you. You remember don't to you? This isn't the first not is it the second, what is your deal with boys, is it so difficult for you to stay away from them until you are done with high school at least. That is all I have ever asked of you, finish high school and then you can do whatever you want to, I won't stop you but apparently you can't! Alice, you are my eldest child, I have always tried to keep you in check but it appears you don't want it that way, I thought you were right here in mind and body but no, I was wrong! Yes, your body might have been here but your mind has never been. Here I was thinking I have such a sweet and innocent daughter whereas I had no idea in the slightest of what you've been up to. Alice you're a disgrace, you're cheap and you're useless, Absolutely useless! Stay away from my children because I don't even know you anymore. It feels like the daughter I gave birth to is no more. Stay far away from them because you're no longer a part of my family, you are dead to me! Henceforth I am no longer your mother nor are you my daughter, today I severe all ties with you Alice O'Hara. You're are dead to me!"

"You're no longer my daughter, you have no mother. You are dead to me!!!"

Her words kept resonating in my ears. I felt at that night my whole life came to an end. This is what I get for trying to help someone I once thought a friend. They have no idea how all this has affected me because I always and will always keep quiet. They all speak like I've committed the worst of crimes, they all criticize me but did anyone ever stop to enquire about my well-being after all this? My whole life I've yearned for someone to understand me, for someone to see things from my point of view. Maybe if they all could see the world the way I do then maybe I won't look so bad, maybe just maybe! Alas it will always remain a maybe.

My own mother disowned me today, for what? I was trying to be a good friend to someone who never deserved it. I gave my time and attention to someone who doesn't worth it and I tried fixing someone who worth nothing. "That son of a bitch!" Though I don't usually curse I felt like it now. No one has ever understood nor will they ever understand the depth of my pain. If only someone tried understanding my perspective then maybe I might be okay.

"You're cheap, you fall for boys easily, you're easy to fool!"

"Heck yeah I agree. I agree to everything say I am. Shameless, worthless, useless? I agree to it all.

Alice O'Hara has never been one to defend herself and I won't begin now. Nate framed me and they all believes it, even my own mom. My sisters who used to adore me now look at me in disgust and it is all because of him but no more. I promise to reveal the truth to everyone, I will expose that fool and degrade him for everything he's worth!"