the hot spiring

What the hell did I do, I mean I was trying to seduce him but did I have to go that far, ahhhh Dz yelled internally, he placed both hands on his face and sighs, he sat in the bath for almost an hour, and soon his muscles felt relaxed, Lanzi was right, this is actually relaxing.

After taking a bath Lanzi gave Dz a black kimono, this was all that the old man has as a piece of clothing, he said it actually belong to his son who is currently studying in the city, 

They had dinner and the old man went to bed early, Lanzi cleared the table and by the time he finished cleaning, Dz was no where in sight, after checking the house he decided to look outside, and there he was, the most beautiful man he has ever set eyes on, well Dz Is indeed a man, but even in beauty standard he has surpassed so many girls, he is not manly nor overly cute, but the elegant and modest aurora around him is like that of a princess or a pure maiden, his hair is parked in a messy bun, at the center of his head, with some of his coily golden hair stran staying independently outside the bun, some at the back of his neck and the other at the side of his face, it just gave him a baby face look, it was extremely cute.

Lanzi walked slowly till he reached the omega, not wanting to disturb his star gazing, but Dz could hear him coming closer, so before the alpha could say anything he decided to speak first; uhm I want to say thanks for, you know taking care of me and everything else, it will be best if we could decend down tomorrow morning. It's been two days, I know our men are probably worried about us.

Lanzi was standing behind Dou Zi so he didn't say anything, after the omega finished with what he had to say, he also decided to talk about the most important thing to him right now, at first he thought Dz would bring it up, but it rather seem to be the opposite, could it be that he doesn't want to talk about it.

Standing behind the omega from Lanzi's perspective he cannot see his face, so he walk on ahead in order for them to face each other, if he wants Dz to take him seriously then he needs to look him in the eye. 

Walking toward Dz he said; hey about.....he was caught off guard by how Dz's face looked under the moon light, it was just like back in high school when they had a school festival, their class hold a cross dress competition and a cute maid cafe, Dou zi won the cross dressing that year, making him even more popular, though he was kinda dumb to notice when people make advances on him, so Lanzi followed him around most of the time, they even use to call him Dou zi's guarddog, most people doesn't know then but those days Lanz was only trying to be possessive of Dou zi, after all he was a beta back then, with a dream that he might end up with his dream cute girl.

Though Lanzi never had the courage to tell him how he felt. And right now Dou zi is right here in front of him, wearing a cool kimono, with little coils of his golden hair fluttering on his face in the cold night breeze, it was indeed a sight to see. 

I have to tell him, I can't bare another minute like this, on impulse he grabbed Dou zi's hand, which is just as soft and delicate as it looks; hey look...!! I know I hid the truth about my feelings towards you for fifteen years, but not anymore.....ah ummm, I LOVE YOU OKAY!!! SINCE THE FIRST YEAR WE MET BACK AT THE COUNTY SIDE.!!! 

Dou zi was not expecting Lanzi to lose his cool, like this, and the alpha is also kinda holding unto his hands, making it impossible to even move an inch. Wait!!!!.... did this guy say that he has been in love with him since they were around seven years old. Does that mean all through high school and college he was harbouring one sided love, that doesn't make any sence. 

The look on Dz changed, he couldn't explain it but he was very angry, how could he not tell him all this while.

Do you think this is a joke, you think I will let you off, and here I was trying to finally give in and forgive you for ditching Me on our wedding day, all this years, I thought you have been kind to me, despite the way my sister treated me, I have always gone over to your place to stay and even sleep over, sometimes for days, but you had a crush on me all this while, before you brought the idea of us getting married to my family, I thought I was seeing things, like how you always try to eat lunch with me or sometimes dinner even though we are very far from each other.

And what about those days that I will sleep over but feel like you kissed my lips or forehead, so was that also real???

Lanzi was caught off guard he even released the hand he was holding, Wait for real?? You were awake???

What the hell do you mean for real, and here I was thinking that am almost twenty four yet I haven't had my first kiss, and even when Shan kissed me I thought for sure that was my first kiss.

Ok hold up, you let Shan kiss you,!!!! How could you betray me like that, we were married for peace sake!!!

 Hey don't make this about you, how could you kiss me in my sleep, and how long have you been doing that exactly.

Well how do I say this, the alpha didn't know when to begin, of course at first it was Kinda purverty but then he would occasionally kiss Dz when ever he will sleep over, and that's why back in high school he refused to share a room with Dz, cuz he wasn't sure if he can control himself around his friend, and besides Alphas are known to be very possessive, as for him, he was very careful since the beginning of high school when he noticed that he was not like the other alphas, he was like an alpha of alphas, more stronger which means more danger to the person he is in love with. And back in the day when he found out about his nature he couldn't share hid in security with anyone. Not even Dz, which he knew will hurt the omega one day if he finds out, because it will mean that he is hiding more secrets as usual.

With no excuse for his actions, all he could say was; am sorry, the truth is I have loved you since the first summer we spent together, but I couldn't tell you since you have a type of girl you like. And I am an alpha and a man, so I thought it will eventually go away, but my feelings for you never did, it was even better when we don't see each other so often but then you transfered to my school in high school I didn't know what to do. And when I.. I... found out that you were my mate I couldn't continue lying to you. So I broke off the wedding. 

That was it, the truth all these five years that Dou zi had wanted to hear, so it's like that huh. I understand said Dz, he smiled a bit to show that he was relieved but that smile was fake, and even Lanzi could tell. 

Alright then, thanks for being honest, let's go back to sleep, we will be going to the hot spring side for the resort, so we should rest early.

Hey Dou zi about what happened between us....

The omega replied before the alpha could even finish, it's no big deal, after all we are Married now ain't we. He quickly entered the room, holding his lips, he was more than grateful that the alpha didn't follow him immediately, he thought he was strong enough to handle the truth but the part of being an omega is been emotionally vulnerable, he hold his mouth tightly not allowing his sad sobs escape. He can't believe it, the alpha loved him so much it hurts, but he also love Lanzi, hearing his thoughts he couldn't help but sob even harder. This isn't love, he doesn't even want this body, and he hate his gender, he can't lose focus now, he needs to get back at lanzi for what he did to him, for how he hurt him and then after that he doesn't care weather he lives or die. With a new strong resolve he went straight to bed and the next morning the headed to the next town.