the weight of your love

Fei looks more than furious when she heard the entire story of what happened, grabbing unto Shan's collar she threatened; oh so you dare make me doubt your loyalty all cause Dz ask you to...!!!! And the both of you didn't think to let me in on such an important detail, I was worried sick, the whole time I was feeling nothing but regret.

She was holding unto Shan at first all tough but, slowly her grib was becoming weaker, as she breaks into relief sobs, she was so scared when Dz was poisoned but when he got taken, there was nothing but fear, that she might never see him again, but all this while he had everything under control, but didn't feel the need to tell her his plans. Sobbing into Shan's arms she cried; why is he Always like this, I just took him because I was told to, but I loved him like a brother or little sister I never had, that little bastard dares to make me cry!!!! Or I will deal with him when I see him. Wiping her face that looks so hurt, she left go of Shan and turns to look at Xoa who is trying to avoid her gaze, but she won't have it this time, she has been chasing him for so long, and he has been doing nothing but avoiding her, so she wants to know her stance, looking straight at him, she asked; did you ever feel a thing for me....even for a little bit. Holding her breath she is Trying not to break down again, its probably her heat coming soon but she felt so funerable, playing with her fingers to get her self calm, she raised her head that was down to look at Xoa who hasn't said anything since she walked into the office.

Xoa was standing by the side, never has he ever thought that, Fei will ask him how he felt about her. But honestly now he realised that he doesn't know where to start. Looking at her who is starring at him expectantly but the words couldn't come out.

After a while Fei saw that he was looking down, like he doesn't want to hurt her, so she smiled; oh I get it, you have nothing to explain I will just see my self out. After saying that she turned to leave the office, her tears are just at the brink of falling, she feel so torn inside, after so many years, she thought she might have a chance but it's impossible, there won't be any need for her to stay anymore in this country. She let her pink hair lose from the pony tail she always had, she grew her hair when they said he loves longer hair, she pack her hair in a ponytail because he like it but none of that matters anymore. Just when she was about to enter her office she felt someone grab her hand, she turned as her pink her flip in the air, to Xoa it was beautiful like it happened in a slow motion movie, 

Holding unto her, he was out of breath so he said; look am sorry am such a coward ok!!, I told my self I will never fall for you since we were kids buy it was impossible, you were so kid and very precious to me, I like how you blink your eyes when you are cornered, just like now, and I like you pack your hair up, or down, I don't know about anyone but I love every single thing about you, the way you smile, the way you speak directly that could hurt someone but you are actually very considered of others, the way you could put others before you. I love you so much but I will only be a burden you, because of my gender issues, am neither of all three, I think am all of them in one, and that's why I started this research so....

Hugging him so tied she smiled, I thought you never liked me, but now I know that is not the case, so let's be together, whatever it is we will take care of it. This is amazing but I have to say, right now you are just like a strong Dominat alpha so hold back a little or am gonna break.

Shan who was standing by the corner said; well its about time, congrats it took you guys forever but you two are finally together. Well I have some urgent work to do so I will be leaving now. The soon left the hospital and went back home, to his little two bedroom apartment, unlike Dz and his brother he likes to live In a low key area, all he cares about is good food. So after buying dinner on his ways back home, he went home with the plans to take a shower and eat dinner before sleeping in early, he has been working late lately barely having any rest. But just as he was about to put his password he felt a presence behind him, and in a block of an eye, he turned pointing a guy at the person, who is wearing a black hoodie and a face cap, the person raised his hands immediately, lifting his hoodie, and Shan couldn't believe his eyes his hands Holding the gun become weak, he felt his heart skip a beat. It was none other than Fanxi following him, but how did this actor find his location, he must have some serious connections with someone on the inside. 

Shan turned to the omega, and ask; so what do you want, I get it you are following me around and I told you not to get involve with me because am a dangerous man. Fanxi looked at the alpha who seems worried about him the moment their eyes meet but now Is try to get rid of him. Can I please come in, don't sent me away right from the door. 

Shan opened the door and said, well there you are uts nothing big or fanxi, just a little place I use from time to time, come on in. 

Fanxi walked in slowly as he check out the house, the apartment is small not the big type he is used too, but the house smell just like the alpha which Is making him feel at home and wanting to stay longer. While he was looking around Shan finished setting up the table, he is having hot pot with a lot of meat because he loves meat. Here come eat, oh I have alcohol

alcohol, want a drink? 

Fanxi smiled; sure uhm that would be great, he removed his black hoodie and placed it on the coat rack, adjusted his trousers he sat down now wearing a simple white shirt that had deep round neck, hol

holding his chopsticks he said thanks for the food, he picked a cooked piece of meat and blow it once before stuffing his mouth, looking satisfied he picked another and again, his lips are looking a little plump and red from the spicy and hot meal. Picking a can beer he took a sip a said; thanks really, I haven't had a good meal in a while.

What the actor said grabbed Shan's attention and he raised his head to look at him, Fanxi was sitting leisurely with his other leg folded and the other supporting his hand holding the drink, whole he I'd using the other hand to push his whitish purple hair backwards, the neck of his looking lower showing his chest, Shan smiled, are you trying to seduce me. 

Fanxi raised his head and looked at the alpha before saying; I can't seduce you if you don't even feel anything for me anymore, I only came to apologise today