New Me

Bionics have been popular to the masses and market for about five years now and Leila is the Brand Ambassador for Bionic Incorporated that will be launching this coming March. Yahhh!!!. Ha yah...ha yah...ha yah..!, Leila was kicking butts and the punching bag like it didn't hurt. She even uses her arms to block Master Shi's punches and hits. Leila is a natural, I thought drooling with her hot outfit of black tank top and tight pants and sneakers. Her curves and sexiness is one thing but her sweaty but sweet pungent smell is definitely hot, for me. I'm weird I know. I love her and I have know doubt that even is she didn't shower for months I'd still make love to her again and again, hehe.

That's an insane example but that's how I adore her. But what if Leila, this bionic woman who's talented, strong and beautiful, changes her heart and falls for someone else? Then, where would that leave me? I am rich, pretty, famous and successful but why do I feel insecure when it comes to Leila.

I still couldn't think of a way to make her totally happy and that is what I always fear loving her. Whatever happened to us in London stays in London and what happens to us here in New York is what is. The truth that Leila has this tendency to self-preservation, to have moods and alone time. She never wants one to be clingy but is sweet and clingy herself.

She is a strong woman but weak when it comes to falling in love and don't usually say sorry for she is proud and believes that she's always on the right. Then, why do I still stay and love her?, because I just do. Because she gets me and I get her too. Sometimes I feel that I am not good enough for her or thinks that what if I don't meet her expectations, will she then leave me again and then come back when she feels like it or when she feels bored or lonesome? That's hard and it hit me hard.

Leila saw me and smiled, she was about to walk towards me but I then thought of the hurtful things she did to me that made me look stupid, crazy and weak. I felt sad and angry, since I was really tired (form the jetlag and from running after Leila I think) I turned my back and walked away to my car.

Hey! Sasa? Marissa?....., Leila called out for me and was saying a joke or something but I didn't want to hear and left the hospital. I went straight to my building and suite calling my assistant to get me a massage therapist.

I took a shower and been breathing heavily and continuously like I lost a game or a business deal, I felt so low I wanted to cry. Gerrie did call for a therapist and about an hour the girl came wearing a mask and a sexy outfit. Aha!, so therapists wear this type of clothing, how hot, I thought while lying on my bed, my chest lying flat on the blanket and my arms on both sides. I took my top and pants off because I ordered for a full massage.

*Sasa....Marissa???...What are you doing? Are you okay or you just need hot sex??? Hehehehe..., what I shouted at Sasa when she turned around and left the gym. I felt she is still angry with me not just with what happened in London but the many times I left her and all. I need to reconcile with her. I don't want to lose my best friend and love, not now, not ever!. I called Gerrie, Sasa's assistant and asked her a favor.

You can start with my legs first and then my back. I want to sleep after so, just get your money on the side table and leave after. Thanks. And your name, sorry?, Sasa cried sounding fatigued and bored. They call me L (hihi!), the girl said. Leila never told Sasa that she is younger than her. If Sasa if forty years old now Leila is only thirty three years of age. Leila got accelerated in grade school why she was young taking up high school during that time.

Oh, L?. Okay!, thanks. L, did everything by the book and before she knows it Sasa is already sleeping when she got to her back and massaging it carefully and nicely.

L then humped Sasa on her waist and hugged her back, then licked the back as if she didn't know that Sasa is already awake. What the f.ck are you doing??? L?

L took off her mask and Leila appeared in front of her. Leila? Lei, why and what are you doing?, Sasa asked loosening her grip on Leila's arms and turning her back from the woman once again.

Sasa. I am here to tell you that I'm sorry and didn't mean to leave you after all those years. When I got blind and cripple I thought of you many times. But what's the use I'm useless and wouldn't be beautiful for you since you're popular, pretty, rich and influential.

Many women come after you and even throw themselves at you so I didn't want to ruin your life. But then you came for me and helped me start a new life with the new me. But I love you and still loved you ever since we were kids. I got jealous of Craig but what will be your future with me if I got a baby out of wedlock and didn't even finish college. That's why I pursued college while working part time at that store. Lillian helped me move on and start a life without fear, expectations and guilt. I learned to love myself and love, respect and be kind to others especially you. I will never be perfect.

I will always be uptight, jealous and crazy but I will always love you no matter what, Leila added still humping at Sasa's waist and when she's about to get out of the position. Sasa turned around and faced Leila with her chest and all bare naked. Ah...I'm sorry Sasa and I...., Leila said feeling awkward and her cheeks flushing from how Sasa turned out to be, a beautiful, smooth and sexy woman. She couldn't help but touch Sasa's hair, face, neck, chest, breast and arm. Sasa felt an electric current flowed from Lei's fingers toward her veins, arms, and body. Sasa's face changed from anger to desire and pulled her half body up to kiss Leila's mouth.

Leila surprised to get the kiss but felt it so much that she kissed Sasa back and touched her breasts over and over again like massaging them. Leila then kissed and bit every inch of Sasa's skin starting from the lips, chin down to the neck that made Sasa moan a little. Sasa couldn't take the amount of tease anymore and pulled Leila who fell down the bed beside her as she moved on top of the woman and took off her sexy outfit like tearing the pieces of cloth for her pleasure. Leila was enjoying it, as Sasa went out of control, then, felt embarrassed seeing Leila's clothes torn and face wanting and needing. I'm sorry, Lei, I just want a massage that's all. I don't want to have sex now, I....I'm sorry!!!!, Sasa added feeling guilty and took her blanket to cover Leila's bare body.

Please leave me alone for a while. You can use my guest room outside near the kitchen pantry. I will talk to you later, okay?, Sasa said coldly but gave her a kiss on the lips holding on to her arms then letting her go. O...Oh!!!, Okay!, Leila replied so hurt like she was slapped many times on the face. Her ego self is screaming and wanted to slap and throw a fit against Sasa but she can't.

She couldn't, because she loves Sasa and now she realizes that she is truly in love with her, but she thinks it's already too late. Sasa doesn't want her anymore. Sasa went back to bed all naked and pained while Leila closed her door behind her sobbing. Leila felt lonely, alone and wanting but coldly been rejected by the one she loves and that hurt so much. Leila went to the guest room and stayed there crying all night long.

I love you Leila but I just can't seem to forgive you. I don't know why?, Sasa thought and slept for a little then went for a quick shower, wore her leather get up with jacket, heeled boots. The guard opened her parking area with a push button and skidded using her Yamaha Big Bike away from the building. She wanted to clear her mind and let off steam by visiting a bar in upstate New York with her regular girls, Tatchi and Beca. Sasa paid for on whole night for the girls and the room. Hey! Long time no see, sexy!, Tatchi teasingly said with Sasa smiling at the girl and kissing her torridly on the lips. Then came in naked Beca, who massaged Sasa'a shoulders. Sasa got all sexed up and kissed the second girl lusciously. Sasa felt happy, again.

Why does Leila make me feel sad and angry? How come these girls make me high and feel so much fun, like the libido excretes its power in me excessively. These hotties make me feel emotions that bring me to life and ecstasy. But, not love. There's no love here, no love in me. No love just sex. Haaahhhhh!!! How come we need to feel love and not just the pleasure of sex and not the commitment? Maybe that's it. I want this type of life and not love...ahhhhh!!! I don't know!, I thought while enjoying my girls satisfy my urges and longings, desires and wants fulfilled, gratified, exquisitely.