chapter 10

We got done eating and the whole time Sean didn't say anything to me. Mark however, he moved to sit next to me and he wouldn't stop talking to me. I didn't bother me, he was a good looking guy, but i wanted the attention he was giving me to come from Sean. We were waking out to Marks car to go to Pax. Mark opened the passenger door bent forward a little bit and gestured with his hand "mu lady" i laughed and got in with Sean getting in the back with a sower look on his face. Mark shut my door and got in the drivers seat and started to drive,with no music on.

"ah, Mark is it alright if i put the radio on?" i asked hoping to brighten the mood a little. Mark was in a good mood, you could tell, but Seans face said he was not feeling it today.

"oh ya, sorry i dont normally drive with music on, but go right ahead y/n" I turned the radio on and had a big smile. I turned to look at Sean and started to sing nine in the afternoon by panic at the disco, we would always sing it and dance around to it like idiots. (song above im not writing it cuz fuck that lol) As i started to sing it i could see that he was fighting back the want to smile. I just grabbed his hand and started to swinging it back and forth singing louder and more obnoxious. He soon started to smile then a little after that he started to sing it with me. Mark was just laughing at mine and Seans dumbness. The song was over and Sean and i looked at each other with smiles, then Seans started to fade to a line and he let go of my hand and went back to looking out the window.

"wow Jack i didnt know you could sing, and y/n your singing was beautiful" the way Mark said it to me then Sean was different, i have a feeling he likes me or something. No matter hes not who i want, but if Sean turns me down Marks not a bad back up.

"aw thank you"

"so when are you going to tell me who you are trying to get the attention of?" Mark asked looking over at me with a side smile then back at the road.

"i told you, im not saying who" i gave a light giggle.

"oh come on please y/n" he wined my name.

"why do you care about 'who' so much" Maybe he would stop asking if i asked him that, its not easy telling someone you like that you like them. I should know i have been trying to tell Sean for years and i still cant do it, but hopefully that will change soon. Before i loose him again.

"maybe im hoping that someone is me" i could feel myself blush and i started to smile. Since Mark is just about as attractive as Sean, i might have a chance here. Mark then put his hand on top of mine, i looked down at his hand deciding if i should move my hand so he would take his back or if i should not be like that and just let it there. I'll just leave it there, it dont really bother me all that much plus i dont want to be mean. i looked back ahead of me at the road, the buildings, and the people going by. I could feel eyes on me, so i looked back and i saw Sean snap his head back to look out the window. It was quite for the rest of the ride besides the low hum of the radio. Mark would take his hand off of mine when he was turning then he would put it right back. When we got to Pax the boys had to help set up a few things before it started so i just decided to walk around and look at some of the things there. some of it i didn't care for, i got to the games and got a few remastered old school games that Sean and i would always play when we were younger as a gift for him. There was a spot that had corsets and stuff to match, i got one that had panels of a deadpool comics on it. Then i found one spot that had weapons, replica swords real and fake, replica guns real and fake, and replica shields real and fake. I got a pare of attack on titan swards and i got Sean the legendary sword and shield from zelda. The doors were about to open so i hurried back to the boys, i dont do well in crowds i get panic attacks if i cant stretch my arms out in every direction without touching someone. When i got back Mark was pulling a chair to the side.

"for the lovely lady" i smiled and set my bags next to me and sat. The people started to pour in and Mark and Sean started to take pictures and singe things for there fans. Sean had a big smile for every one of his fans, but i could tell by the look in his eyes that something was wrong. I was sitting closer to Sean and one fan pointed at me.

"Jack who is that?"

"Is that your girlfriend?" two fans started to ask him about me and i wanted to know what he would say to them.

"no she's not, she was my best friend.... but after today i dont know about that" i couldn't move, i couldn't breath. Sean was all i had, he was the only one that truly knew me and treated me wonderfully. I started to feel tears go down my face at a rapid pace. He didn't say it like a joke, he didn't even laugh after he said it. After what felt like forever i stood up and walked over to him.

" S-Sean that was a j-joke right?" and i forced a smile hoping he would say yes.

"no" no? just no? nothing else? and the way he said it. He didn't even look at me. I started to cry harder, i wanted to say something but i couldn't. I ripped off my pass that was around my neck and tossed it on the ground and ran out of Pax. I started to run in the direction of Marks house, or i hope it was. After some time off running and crying i got to his house. The door was locked, maybe Matt or Ryan are home. I knocked and the dogs started to bark, soon Ryan opened the door.

"y/n i thought you were at Pax?" he asked worried.

"i-i dont want t-to t-talk about-t it" he let me in and sat me down on the couch and gave me a blanket and pillow.

"im sorry y/n i want to stay and try to make you feel better but i was just about to leave"

"its ok R-Ryan you c-can go"

"are you sure?"

"yes" i smiled at him and he gave me the TV remote.

"if you get hungry there is Chinese in the fridge, you can eat anything you want in the house, i'll see you latter y/n, just feel better" he gave me a smile and waved then he left. I layed down with the blanket on me, and soon chika was laying on me. Latter on i stopped crying and fell asleep watching Bones.