CHAPTER 18

  I’m beyond tears as I overthink. Kiana and I still haven’t parted in a hug. She makes me sleep like a child who needs assistance.

  “I know you miss them a lot. You have been with them under the same roof for almost three months. The longer it takes, the closer you get to them so you are certainly having a hard time now,” she said. “And as they say, the hardest part of letting go is what you never wanted but needed…”

  “It’s excruciating. I want to forget everything in order to move forward in life but it’s way harder than I imagined… I sacrificed for them, but why am I still hurting? Isn’t it still enough? I’m encouraging myself to be brave. I know I shouldn’t be helpless but what’s happening to me is indeed tormenting. It’s piercing my heart and I’m starting to feel like my whole life is not worth living for.”

  She smiled at me sadly but this time, I was not able to reciprocate.