CHAPTER 19: FIX YOUR SHIRT, YOUR GUN'S SHOWING.

Dear Journal, today was the worst day of my life! Well, most of my days on earth have typically been the worst days of my life. But today actually hurt, because it was the day that my daughter, I mean, Kate's daughter got mad at me.

I never imagined it happening this fast and I don't know how to comfort her. I've never raised a child before.

I dropped my pen, then I started writing again,

In the Havens, the Angels don't spend time with their babies. Immediately after they're born, they are separated from their mothers and assigned to different faction leaders. Then they are nurtured and trained to protect and maintain the Havens. So I never knew who my mom or my dad was.

Afterwards, when you're grown, you're not allowed to ask questions concerning your birth parents. We all live as brothers and sisters. Old, adults, young, babies, in fact, age is just a number in Haven. That's why I don't know how old I am.

Back to Kate's daughter. I love her and I hate that she's sad, but right now, there's nothing I could do to change that. I-

I was interrupted with my writing when I heard a knock on the door. I quickly wrote in my journal,

I hope I can turn her frown upside down.

Then I closed it and went downstairs as wretched as I looked to get the door. "I'm coming!" I said as I hurried downstairs. I immediately regretted getting the door when I saw who was at the door. To my huge surprise, it was Antonio and his son, Nunez.

I stood by the door trembling in fear. My eyes were wide open, I could see the gun he barely tried to hide. When he saw that I noticed it, he fixed his shirt to hide it, and then he said to me, wearing a dubious smile, "Good evening my queen, aren't you gonna let me come in?" While Nunez stood beside him looking as innocent as always.

I wanted to shut the door in his face but I hesitated because of the poor little boy that was beside him. My hesitation cost me Adelaide coming downstairs to meet him and her friend, Nunez. There was no way I would let them go now that she had seen them. When she saw Antonio, she screamed, "Daddy!!!" And ran to hug him.

"Oh, my princess." He said as he jacked her up and showered her with kisses. My heart was shredded into pieces. I had failed Kate. "Ad, come in it's cold outside," I said to her as Antonio dropped her down and she went in with Nunez.

Antonio came in as well, and when Kate's mum heard about it she was petrified but she still found a way to prepare dinner. "Don't worry mom, I'll make sure he doesn't stay for long. Don't be scared." I assured her that nothing would happen to us.

At the dining table, we all ate, and it was oddly quiet. I and Kate's mum ate with fear instilled in us, while Antonio ate like he owned the place. Adelaide decided to break the silence, "Daddy, are you Nunez's daddy too?"

I choked a bit on my food when she asked that question. Then I said, "Come on Ad, there's no need for such kinds of questions." Then Antonio stopped me by saying, "No no, it's okay. We shouldn't try to hide things from our daughter. She should know everything."

I rolled my eyes when I heard what Antonio said, then he continued, "Yes honey, he's my son. The man you've been seeing in school was me."

Then Adelaide said wearing a huge smile on her face, bubbling with excitement, "Yay! So Nunez is my brother! Mom, grandma, I have a junior brother." I knew this was coming, so I said to Ad, "No, honey, Nunez's not your junior brother. I didn't give birth to him."

What I said only confused Adelaide the more. "Huh?" Then Antonio said, "Nonsense Kate! Nunez is still her brother. After all, I'm her biological father aren't I?"

Then Kate's mum said, "Enough about talking about what is and isn't." Somehow, what Kate's mum said triggered Antonio and he said, "Speaking of what is and isn't, Kate who's Jordan?"

I felt attacked. Like he knew who I actually was. An Angel, in the body of his ex, Kate. Until he said, "Miranda told me she's been seeing our Ad with a lady named Jordan."

"I don't have to explain myself to you!" I said. Then Kate's mum asked Nunez and Adelaide to go and play upstairs. They obeyed her and went upstairs, leaving the grownups on the table.

"Now, what do you want you motherfucker!" I said to him trying to contain my anger. Then he started laughing uncontrollably. I and Kate's mum looked at him wearing an irritated look on our faces.

"Kate, Mrs Del Rey, don't you realize? This is what a happy family looks like." He said laughing ridiculously.

There was no way he could be serious, "A happy family?! This is a disorganized family Antonio! One beyond repair! Antonio, in what world, huh, tell me, in what world, do you think we could ever get back together as one family?"

He stood up immediately and brought out his gun and pointed it directly at my face. Kate's mum feared for my life, and I also feared for Kate's life as well. Because if Antonio kills me, I won't die, but Kate would. I trembled in fear as I stood before his gun.

"Please Antonio, don't do anything drastic." Kate's mum pleaded on behalf of my life. He kept on smiling then he said, "She knows I can't pull the trigger. Because of my unending love for her. I despise you as much as I love you. And I will win back this family. I will win back the love of my family."

I couldn't contain my anger so I started ranting, "Win back the love of your family Antonio? How?! What family Antonio! All you've brought is problems, unending problems, and you think that I could let all of that go so that we could be together again? Are you crazy or something?!"

"Oh, Kate! You don't know how I've been living with all the pains I've caused you and our Ad. I'm a terrible man I know that, but you made me this way Kate! You made me this way!" Antonio said at the top of his voice.

I didn't listen to his plights, I knew he was a bloody liar, a sex addict, and a pervert. So whatever he said was useless bits of information. I mostly didn't listen to his plights because I was distracted, I saw a very luxurious car parked directly in front of Kate's house. I watched to see who would come out of the car, and behold, it was Mr Simmons. Fuck me, what terrible timing.