Chapter 99 Zaqras

~Pov mc~ (Third person)

Ragnar turned around. Behind him Alice stood. Fire warmed her and everyone around her. But the flame started to become hostile.

" Honey, did you perhaps have affairs, while I was gone?" She asked, with a not so friendly smile.

" What, pfft, don't be ridiculous. I would never, look at me. Do you really think I could cheat on you, even if I wanted?" Ragnar said to Alice, his choice of word in the beginning, only served to fuel Alice wrath.

" Really? Why don't we ask that girl." Alice said, as she turned her attention to Isabella. " Is Ragnar your father?" She asked Isabella, who still stood next to Ragnar.

While they were having their little shuffle. Julia had left and thanks to the commotion from the trio, no one noticed her disappearance.

~Pov Julia~ (First person)

'Father, why did you leave us?' They are arguing, why? Did Paarthadox have such little importance to Ragnar? That he could just laugh it of, seconds after he told me. Perhaps so, perhaps not. All I know is, I need some alone time.

I slowly sneaked away from their little argument. It has no importance, kinda like my life. The realm is so empty today. Usually, there are so many fourth dimensional beings here.

The branches of Yggdrasil swayed happily, despite the lack of wind in this realm. It was his way of showing happiness. Good for him, out of everyone, he probably missed Ragnar the most. So some weeks ago, when the chaoswalkers left, he was probably the saddest and happiest tree alive.

~Flash back~ ~Pov chaoswalker~ (First person)

'This light, I see, you have succeeded my lord.' Next to me, my friends started turn into lights, one after one, returning to chaos. But then I remembered something. 'As long as we're here, Ragnar is alive. Dammit, how dumb can I be.' As the light finally touched me, I denied it's request. A burning pain filled me, but I had a mission and I needed to complete it.

Using the small remaining power, I still had. I flew towards the tree. I could feel Julia and Yggdrasil there. Well Yggdrasil was obvious, but still. Slowly, my body was disintegrating. Falling apart, like sand. But I still had time.

I landed in front of Julia. A women I had grown to love, but my loyalty to Ragnar would not allow such a relationship. So all this time, I kept her close, yet far from my reach.

Julia looked at me, she showed clear signs of being surprised by my unannounced arrival. But I didn't have time to talk with her. No matter how much I wish it was so.

" Julia, we chaoswalkers, we're returning to chaos. Ragnar succeeded with his mission and is returning. But that means we can't stay here anymore. Bye." Was all I managed to say, before my mouth disintegrated.

'I really wish we could be Julia. But it's to late now. It was good knowing you, please live your life to the fullest.' Was the last thought of the chaoswalker, before he disappeared. Never to appear anywhere, be it chaos, or any other dimension, or realm

~Flash back end~

I just returned to my realm. Small stars, also known as light spirits jumped around. Small light gods played with them. They were new born. Recently created by me. Turns out celestials can create gods, with a flick of their finger. Of course it still cost energy, but this was revolutionary. But today, I didn't fell like talking to the small gods.

Hundreds of clouds of light, formed islands everywhere. But in the middle of the trillions of islands, was my home. Bigger then any other island. Ever since 500 000 years ago, I have been claustrophobic. Never again, do I want to be trapped in a small room, for thousands of years.

The different islands moved, giving me room, to enter my home. Just like the other cloud islands it was made out of light. A big mansion, made from brown celestial wood. That I found, when I entered the fifth dimension. Seems like someone lost it, when it all began.

The doors of the mansions, with patterns of celestial western dragons, opened by themself, when I approached.

The mansion was empty, but full of light. No corner was dark, as a celestial of light, this was important to me. Many doors, leading to different rooms, were along the corridor I walked through. Until I finally arrived where I wanted to be.

A room, devoid of any light. Accept from the light, that shined on a statue, in the middle of the room. The statue was made out of a black stone, with some orange and red ones too. It looked like a dragon, going on a rampage. Like it was the king of all life, deciding who would live.

I walked to the statue and sat down. Doing as my mother taught me and as her mother taught her, I put both my hands together. While closing my eyes. Before putting my two hands above me, still connected to each other. My mother told me, that this was praying. Before she died and before my biological father died.

After sitting in silence, I finally broke down.

" Why did you leave us? Xelena needs you! I need you! I don't know what to do, if I'm even doing the right thing now. What if I'm just being used again. You know I'm bad at this. What if Xelena suffers from this. She already has a child. You never got to meet him you know. He's a great kid, born 450 000 years ago. He even became 11/12 recently. He always seemed enthusiastic when I told him about you. About your stories, the ones you told me, when I was young." I said, as tears escaped my eyes, hitting the cold, stone floor beneath me. I took a deep breath, before talking to the statue, of my dead, father figure.

" Aren't you the strongest and coolest. You said nothing could hurt you, that I should never worry. You would always come back. Why, why did you lie. I trusted you, I believed your lies." I said, as my knees, I rested my body on, grew weak and I laid down on the cold stone floor.

I laid in silence for some minutes. Bathing in my own tears. Before finally gaining the courage to continue.

" I met a man I really love. Of course that was hundreds of thousands of years ago. But some days ago, he disappeared, apparently he had to go home. He turned into a sand like substance in front of my eyes. I hope he returns soon, so I can see him again. Maybe, if he does, I can go on, even without you. But even if he doesn't, I have to stay strong for Xelenas sake. I know how much you meant to her. She was hurt when she heard you just upped and left, you know. You didn't tell anyone. Or maybe you did. You and Ragnar always kept secrets, before you both left.

Well enough of the old lady rambling. I hope your happy, wherever you are father! We will miss you, everyone that knew you will morn your death, I will make sure of that!" I said, before getting up and leaving the room. Walking through the bright corridors, before finally reaching a big room. It was the master bedroom, where I sleep and maybe in the future, Zaqras will to.

~Pov mc~ (First person)

After I cleared the misunderstanding, between me and Alice. I noticed we are short on one person. It didn't help that that person was Julia. The women, I just informed of her fathers death. Not so good.

On the bright side, my emotions were slowly retuning to my normal self. In other words, I was slowly becoming emotionless. Perfect for handling sad people, if I do say so myself.

As I was thinking, another god appeared. He stood next to Bennett and Xelena and looked just like them. That's when it hit me. Starring at the kid, I smiled for a moment before saying.

" So you went ahead and got a kid. You could have told me, so I could tell Paarthadox, before I left."

" Fuck off, he was born 450 000 years ago. You were far gone, by then, you bastard. Plus, what do you mean by, tell Paarthadox. Were you dead too?" Xelena said, while hiding her kid, behind her back. Making me laugh at her.

" Good to know you haven't changed, even after all this time."

" What the fuck is that supposed to mean." She said angrily, making Bennett laugh and her child hide behind Bennett. Like he was afraid of his mom. I could see why, if that was the case.

" Look what you did, you scared the kid!"

" Oh really, what makes him a kid, compared to you? Aren't you like, just as old as him?" Xelena said, annoyed by my treatment of her son, even though he had not shown any discomfort, by my words.

" You have no idea, how much I wish that was true Xelena!" I said. My words sent shrills down their spines, as if their instincts told them of my danger and the best part. I could feel their fear and all their emotions. 'So this is power.' I thought to myself, as everyone backed of, even Isabella. The only one, that didn't back away was Mirella. Who I looked at with a weird glint. To which she answered with.

" What, if I fear the being who made me who I am today, then I don't deserve my position." I looked at her, with a judging gaze and said.

" You do you. Anyways, whats your name kid. No no no, let me gueas. Seben?" This made Bennett laugh, while Xelena tried to look intimidating, but failed miserably. Because of her fear, from before. Making me laugh too, until the little kid, gained the courage to talk.

" I'm not a kid, first of all. The names Bendox, I'm 450 000 years old and I'm strong enough to pull my own weight in this pantheon. Who are you?"

" I'm Ragnar, Leader of Ragthor and Justice faction. But I will only be the leader in the future. Anyways, you can't pull any weight, with such a low strength. Paarthadox, or me, could squash you like a bug, any day of the week."

" Never heard of you, but you must be pretty important to know Paarthadox." He said, making me look right into Xelenas eyes, Bennetts eyes, then everyone else's eyes, before sighting. This is going to be a long day. But thankfully I don't care and will be leaving in about 2 min, when my emotions disappear for the week.

" I will be in my realm if you need me. Need to do some renovations and help Alice, my girlfriend. Yeah thats right Bennett, I'm not some lonely virgin." I said, as I turned around dramatically and left.

" What was that about. Bendox said, as I left. Thankfully my emotions were gone now. Or else, I might have hurt them, for having dox in his name. Without knowing the meaning of it.

" I feel like your feeling are hurt, am I on the right trail?" Alice said, as she followed me.

" You are correct!" I said, not really caring about her. Relationships and such and life, is just a pain, in the end. I don't really know why I'm alive, should have killed myself long ago, when I was alone. But to not have to deal with her being annoying, I stopped in my tracks and said.

" Alice, if you feel like I lack emotions, you are right. I barely have any left and once a week, thanks to a deal, I have all of my emotions. But now I'm back to normal. So don't expect me to be all lovey dovey, before my emotions return completely. But I suspect that will take some time!"

(Author here: Chapter, let's goo. That deserves a power stone and a review, don't you think? Have a lovely day/night readers and I'll see you tomorrow, or the day after that. Author out :) )