2 am thoughts

You can never get out of the place that haunts you in your dreams, the only escape is to wake up.

( From the Diary of the Girl in her Teens)

She wrote in her diary.

" I want to meet you now. I have a favor to ask. I know you will do it for me. I'm waiting for your response. Text me back soon." he texted her, she checked and replied.

" I can't. I won't. Don't ask me again. " she replied.

" You are the only one I can ask. And you know it. It's a small favor. Please, I don't ask anyon3 else. I only ask you. Because you know me already. " he said.

" No, I won't do it for you. Don't ask me," she replied.

" please"

" please "

" please "

" please "

" please "

"Please it's the last time. I swear. "

" I won't ask you again. "

" please "

Her phone rang with his texts continuously.

He called. He called again. And again. Ana again. She rejected all of his calls.

Please stop it, her head screamed in frustration and her body was numbing.

" Remember you once said, you'll do everything for me, you'll always do, you'll always respond whenever I need you. I need you. Only you can fulfill my need. Please. One last time. Make a video like last time. Show everything. But cover your face. The video should not exceed more than 10 minutes. I'm waiting.

And then she got up, went to the washroom, and did what he said.

After sending him the video, she put on her clothes. Came out of the washroom. She was numb.

" I felt I was unclothed. I was bared in front of everyone. I tried to cover my body. Trying hard to hide. Trying in vain to hide my shame. Feeling numb to feel any pain. " she wrote in her diary.

" If I drown myself in water, would I feel anything? " she scribbled on the paper.

" Sometimes the only thing that I wanna do is crawl into a room full of ice, sit there with my burning body, and stare into nothingness. "

" I've spent cold winters standing bare feet outside my room, crying and glaring at the night sky, cold doesn't bother me, pain can't break me but shame is the only thing that can strip me of my skin and leave my body soulless." she wrote and closed the diary.

( Somewhere in Asia inside the church )

After dropping her church Jasper went home. That night she didn't go to sleep early. Because sleep was so far away from her. She wanted to gather her thoughts which were scattered all around making her feel chaotic. That's the thing about thoughts; they come to you when you are not ready for them, they want you to resolve them because they are the unfinished business that you have spent a long time hiding from.

" Who are you? ", a voice in her head asked.

" Do you know yourself? "

" You have to meet me"

" I'm your other self"

" You chose me "

" And I chose you "

Let's not postpone anything.

" You need me "

" You are the one I need "

" But why? " she asked the voice.

" Because you are the chosen one." the voice replied with determination.

"Remember when you got hit by a car and were in hospital? Your soul was invited to be given an opportunity nobody has been ever given."

Memories flashed in front of her like a film. She was standing in the parking lot when a car hit her, she lost consciousness when seeing an orange glowy thing come into her view, and the nearer it came it looked like a giant bird gloriously spreading wings, picked her up on her back and flew across the sky. Her soul ascended towards clouds.

"I have decided " she heard herself saying it out loud.

" I want to live a worthwhile life, with a greater purpose, and become an embodiment of justice for all those who can't stand up for themselves and are living a miserable life, punishing themselves for the sins they didn't do. I want to live. And I wanna teach others to live too. This is my life's motivation now. " she said with a strong jaw, determined eyes, and a passionate voice.

" You want it, You got it. " the man with grey hair said with a nod and then everything changed around them.

" By the will of the God Almighty Above, I'm granting you the power of immortality, the strength to fight evil with superhuman speed and force, and the energy to use fire as your weapon. With the ability to regenerate, you also can incinerate touch, pyrokinesis, pyroportation, chronokinesis, and much more that you don't even know.

You are invulnerable and the symbol of renewal, progress, and hope.

Violet, you have now become invincible, you are the Phoenix of the century, the only Phoenix who has been given the power to live as a human and shapeshift if necessary."

She never could have thought that she is gonna be the change she want to see in the world.

"That's what happened." she heard herself talking.

" Yes, that's what happened." the voice said in a matter-of-fact tone.

" Do you think I'm a good fit for this task?" she asked from the voice.

" You were born for this task Violet."

" I have looked for you my entire life. I waited for a long time to give you this position. You are the perfect aspirant for this task. Do not doubt yourself, because I never doubted you."

" Now let's get some sleep, your mind needs time to process this pristine specialty and your body needs rest to adjust to this fresh forte." And after hearing this, her eyes felt heavy and she drifted off into deep sleep.

( Jasper's home)

" I can't stop thinking about her, she is just the way I always saw in my vision, nothing different, if only she could read my mind she would have known I was lying when I said I met her for the first time," Jasper said to himself while reading the book in his hand.

" Even the spark of fire in her eyes is identical to the one I saw in my visions of her. "

He sketched a pair of eyes on the book.

"She is the spark that will ignite the brightest light in the world. How could someone like her be so powerful yet vulnerable at the same time? " Jasper whispered to himself and closed the book. While messing his hair with his hands, he lied down on his bed and slept like a baby.

Do you know what I craved most in my past life?

She asked.

Love

She answered.

But the idea of love was different from many other people. I did not believe in love at first sight. I believed in love that was more powerful than any other thing. I believe in the love that will bring peace in the chaos. And I still believe that love happens between two souls. It's not a business proposal between bodies. It is an eternal connection between two lost souls that find inner peace together when they are united.

People search for love. But love will find you when you are not even looking for it. Serendipity....