Chapter 40

Next day I woke up early in the morning so, I could go for my morning football practice. I pick up my phone from the side table to check whether there is any message or call because I usually keep it at vibration only and here I found a text message from Jazz which I have received at 12 in the night,

Message conversation started (....)

Jazz: Hey I forgot to ask you last night something and if you don't mind can you tell me who is this friend of yours, who showed you this movie?

Siya: Umm yeah actually the guy named Erik showed me that movie.

Jazz: The famous play boy, yeah I have heard about him. Listen, babes I don't think he is a good boy just be careful okay?

Siya: Yeah okay.

Jazz: Cool, now I have some work to do and we will talk later. Bye

Siya: Okay bye.

Message conversation ended (....)

After biding our goodbyes to each other, I kept my phone on the side table and plug the charger in, then I start getting ready. Once I got ready, I picked up my belongings and leave the house. In an hour or so I reached at the school sports field, here scene in front of my eyes is surprisingly quite peaceful and empty because firstly, coach is absent today and secondly not a single student present.

So, in short I got my self fooled by coming to practice without confirming from my team mates or my friends and after seeing this I moved back inside the school and just because the doors to classes are closed as well as library is closed too. So, the only option that left to me is the canteen which is open but getting cleaned so, I go in and sit on one of the stool which is kept on the most cleaned spot.

Once I settled down there, I took a deep breath and start observing things around me like how the workers cleaning the canteen plus may be one or two cooks start the preparation of food and lastly though there are no students till now but still I can different sounds that is, some belongs to utensils, some sweeping mop around the floor and some distant sound of bird chirping. All this things combined and pop a thought in my mind so, I took out my diary to write that thought,

"Silences!! Its just a simple word then why one should fear from it, though these silences have these voices/sounds too. Can these silences become the open door where you can meet yourself or know yourself, don't know I guess? But why do I feel close to my self in these silences? They can't be defined themselves with words but a voice of heart beats or may be eyes can become its mirror, don't know how to say or express but I think silence speaks lots of tales, may be we could never found someone or ourselves to hear or understand it"

After writing it, I close my diary and keep back in the time, then I check the time which is eight in the morning and this surprise me a bit because I took full forty five minutes to write some lines. However, this time I got up from my stool and go stand in the front of the kitchen, then I ask can I get a hot chocolate and to this they replied in affirmation. In around tine minutes or so, I come back to my stool with my hot chocolate after paying for it, and I took out my breakfast box from the bag, start devouring my drink as well as my bread jam sandwich.

After thirty minute students start coming in, during this time only Erik called me

Erik: Hey where are you? I am in front of the canteen.

Siya: I am inside the canteen.

Without speak anything else he hang up the phone as usual, soon someone come from my backside and this startled me but soon I got to know that its Erik because of his aura plus smell of the perfume which he daily use. Though, I don't hug him back because I don't feel like doing it, however soon he come in front of me and initiated the conversation,

Erik: Hey, how was that movie? Did you like it? Honestly, I want you to see that movie because, I feel like you should have knowledge related to the sex.

Siya: Ohh okay (Internal conversation with myself.. Ohh really!! who you are to me my father or mother to give me this type of knowledge and that too without my permission how cool is that no?)

Erik: Next we will watch rest two part of the movie when they will come but I will recommend you to read whole of its trilogy as I know that you like to read books.

Siya: Okay (Though, I am surprised because as far as I remember I guess this is the first time he mention something that I like but I am not at all in the mood to read those books, especially on his recommendations).

Soon bell ring and we both get up from the seat, I go over to where dustbin is, there I throw my empty cup in and walk back to the canteen's main door where I can see Erik standing, waiting for me. I walk in front of them, smiled slightly at him and soon we start walking towards our different classes. I have my class with Vicz so, I am a bit relaxed because I know I will smile definitely, however when I entered in the class there I see her sitting on her seat with a sulking face and this make me feel curious as well as confused too.

Once I got settled in my seat which is beside her, she acknowledged my presence with a smile and which doesn't reach to her eyes so, I initiated the conversation in the hope that she talk to about what is eating her from inside,

Siya: Hey, you okay?

Vicz: (Keeping straight face and not looking at me, which she never does while talking to anyone) I don't think so

Siya: (Concerned voice) You want to talk about it?

Vicz: (nodding her head in affirmation but still not looking at me) Yeah but can I hold your hand?

And listening to this I forwarded my hand in front of her so, she can hold it and when once she does it then, I found her grip quite hard which is not normal for her because she usually hold my hand gently as she knows how sensitive I am to the touches. This increase my doubt that may be something is really wrong with her so, I squeeze her hand a bit to let her know that I am here and she can now speak it,

Vicz: Remember, I told you about having a boyfriend who is married but I love him?

Siya: Hmm

This time teacher entered in the class and start teaching but neither Vicz is in the mood to study nor I am so, she shifted a bit close to me and continued her conversation,

Vicz: So he didn't spoke to me for more then a week, in that heat of the moment I tried to electrocuted my self by catching a live open wire but someone saved me so, I got some physical injury because of it plus my hand also got injured.

To say I am angry on her it would be an understatement because I am raging from inside because this is so stupid I mean how can someone behave like this so immature but leaving this aside I release her grip from my hand then looking at her hand closely for any marks of injury but I found none. To this she slightly whispered to me that,

Vicz: Injury is in the other hand.

And listening to this, I just nod my hand in understanding then she again hold my hand but this time grip is a bit gentle. However, after this neither I spoke a sentence nor she but from the corner of my eye I can see her looking at me in every few minutes but I look straight in the teacher's direction, though I am listening nothing because my thoughts having a wild marathon in my mind.

Siya: (What kind of stupid behavior is this, do these girls fall in love or they basically want to die or screw up their life in the name of love? First, Ani committed the mistake in her stupidity and now Vicz did the same thing. In this situation Vicz behaved so immaturely, I mean knowing that the guy is already married, she has the audacity to say that she is in love. However, if we keep all these issues and just keep our focus on love, then what is love because as far as know this is not love).

Before I could think anymore bell ring, teacher leave the class and students are too leaving the class but here Vicz remain seated and so do I. After some minutes Vicz initiated the conversation, breaking the silence,

Vicz: Say something?

Siya: (Trying to control the anger and frustration) Umm are you okay, showed yourself to doctor. Let me see your injury?

This time she leave my hand showed me her other hand there I can see a type of burned skin may be with a blood clot, honestly, not knowing how to describe it in words because I have never heard or seen about it. I took a deep sigh and initiated the conversation,

Siya: (Trying to be calm) You know right, what have you done, wasn't right. I mean you attempted a suicide, you know that there is no future you have with that guy??

Vicz: Yeah and I am sorry.

Siya: Its okay I can understand it hurts but next time before trying to do anything like this, jut talk to me or one of your love ones okay?

Vicz: Okay, you are not angry right?

Siya: No, I am just sad and disappointed with you for not talking or telling me before doing any such thing but not to worry just give me some time I will be fine.

At last we get up from our seats and parted our ways for next classes, though my whole day got spend in blur. I tried to avoid coming face to face with Vicz because I am feeling like I will burst out at her, like this whole school time got over without any further nuisance. Once I reached home there also, I don't speak up with any of my family members because I just want to relax my mind and it never happened so, I choose to call it a night early today.