Next morning I again woke up with a heavy pain in my head, I am feeling very tired after getting so much worked up in the sleep and today my mind work up on loop on two situations specifically, it keep on showing me how and what happened with Vicz and Erik. I tiredly got up from the bed, start doing my daily routine and in exactly forty minutes I leave from the house. Today, at practice everything just went normal except my behavior because, I am not playing properly and due to my carelessness or laziness my team loose two goals. After seeing this the coach told me to sit outside, I agreed with him and move to side, then I sit at some distance from the field and watch them play.
Soon practice got over, we all together start moving towards the changing room but before I could enter in, Ketty hold my wrist and drag me towards the ground again and Zoe too followed us. As we reach there Ketty initiated the conversation,
Ketty: Hey we need to talk about something, actually its about two topics.
Siya: Ohh Hmmm Okay (Internally, shit man! what if she ask me the reason of my poor play at the field? I don't want to tell her, lie to her or simply upset her with any of my rudeness. But wait, why I am overthinking so much, I need to relax)
Ketty: First one is that, you are going out on sort of double date with me, Seth and Erik. And...
Siya: (Whisper yelling and cutting her of in the middle of the sentence) How many times do I have to tell you that me and Erik are nothing but just classmates or plus friends?
Ketty: (Somewhat annoyed and frustrated) Ohh please, haven't you ever seen or noticed the way you always sit with him whether its in the class or anywhere you guys meet up. You guys party together, even you have visited his house with him and you have also met her with her mother, and last one is the most biggest one is you always say, that you want to make him smile or laugh.
Zoe: (Voice full of anger but I think for second I see the expression on her face, which held curiosity and confusion, though she covered it in few seconds before start speaking) That's enough Ketty, just leave from here right now because you have crossed you limits.
Ketty: But...
Zoe: Just leave now!
With this she walk inside the changing room, I just sit down on the dry grass and Zoe sit beside me. For some minutes both of us remain silent but this silence is related to the physical environment or simply the noises around us, though inside of my mind the zoo is again open now "a zoo of weird thoughts." However this time something is different, as I am hearing a tune too and it sounds like as if someone is humming so, I look at my side, here, Zoe smiled me and continued with her humming. This little sound not letting me get lost in my thoughts completely, also keeping me relaxed but soon she initiated the conversation
Zoe: (Hesitantly) you want to talk about it?
Siya: Umm I guess I will take some time, you must be getting late for your class.
Zoe: Umm I think you forgot about exams, starting after two weeks so, technically all of the syllabus was completed yesterday only.
As she said this I bit my tongue and look at her then I see looking at me, with shy smile. I rub the back of my neck in embarrassment of forgetting about exams and give her a shy smile.
Siya: Umm sorry I forgot about it, a lot is happening now days so, it completely slip out of my mind.
Zoe: Its okay I can understand.
Siya: (After taking long time in thinking something and looking straight) I thoughts that whatever I am sharing with Ketty, she will keep it a secret but I never knew she would think so low of me as well as she will be speaking out the every shared talks of us just like that.
After taking a long pause, why is it so easy to believe that a girl and a boy can never be friends.
Zoe: I have nothing to say that can ease your confusion or hurt, as well as I am not going to defend Ketty because I know today whatever she has done is wrong. But I just want to say that, never react or decide something to believe or do in anger because that can never go right or would be right.
Siya: (Looking at her) Thank you. Come on! now we are getting late, breakfast is waiting for us plus we have to prepare for exams.
Zoe: (Getting up with me) Something can never change, especially your love for food.
Hearing this I chuckled lightly and she does the same too, in around ten minutes or less we both get fresh up as no one was present. Together, we move towards the canteen, while walking we don't speak at all so, here my mind thought to start its own conversation which is related to,
Siya: I feel like Zoe is like a big sister to me, the way she understand me. She is very mature and responsible. I am just blessed to have her with me.
Soon, we reached in the canteen and there we found almost our whole group (i.e. Anji, Pixie, Nish and Ketty). Seeing us coming, Anji waved her hand at us to call at their table so, we both go their and like as usual I sit beside Nish. After sometime I and Zoe get up to get our breakfast, in five minutes or so we come back with our food and got ourselves on the seat, Anji initiated the conversation,
Anji: Hey, I heard about you and Erik, is it true that you two are in relationship.
Siya: (I shot my head up, looking at her with wide eyes, probably my eyes showing the emotion curiosity to know that how come she know about it). What?? There is nothing like this, we are just friends and nothing more.
Anji: Ohh okay, I heard it from Nish so, I thought to confirm it but deep down I know that there is nothing as such.
Siya: (Now I completely ignored my food and I also see Zoe doing the same, the emotions which her eyes holding concern and curiosity. For once I look in the direction of Ketty, though she is looking at me only and for seconds only we have a eye contact but soon she start looking other side. However, I ignored her and turned towards Nish.) How do you know Nish?
Nish: Umm, I come to know through Ketty.
This time everyone of us head turn to look at Ketty, I look at her with disappointment and disgust filled eyes rest of our teammates looked at her with curiosity and confusion. Though soon she start speaking,
Ketty: (Confidently) Siya, I didn't told them seriously, just trust me. Though, I knew the truth that there is nothing between you guys so, why would I lie to my friends?
Before, I could say anything or anyone of could say anything else, we all heard a loud angry known voice which is of Erik, from the back side where I am sitting and somehow I know the end of it won't be good.
Erik: What hell is going on here?
I and Nish turn to look at him, rest of my teammates look directly at him. However, Erik with long and hurry steps come toward me, reaching by my side, he just hold my wrist and drag me towards the back door of the canteen. (In my mind I just thank the God that at least, he doesn't created a scene in front of my teammates as well as in front of the whole canteen.) However, once we excited the kitchen, he took me to the corner where we have bit privacy, then he initiated the conversation,
Erik: (Surprisingly calm) Tell me something what my life is to you? Your friends knows about me or talk about our meeting like they are living it, (whisper yelling voice) what is it to you a news channel or a movie??
Siya: (guilty, looking down at the floor) I am sorry.
Erik: (sarcastic laugh) Wow impressive now you are sorry bravo!! Just look at your friends/so called teammates they are low class, back bitching girl types who just love to gossip and look they are humiliating me also now.
Siya: (looking down only) Okay. Umm we shall leave, exams are coming so, need to prepare.
(Though, I wanted to say that some of my friends good too, who the hell he is to judge me and my friends. But for once I commit a mistake, sharing things with Ketty so, I just remain quite and I don't know why this whole incident make me believed that I am a looser who don't deserve friends plus I am now determined to hide or not to share anything with anyone because no one is that trustworthy).
Without saying anything he again hold my wrist, drag me inside the canteen though when once we about to reach near the the table where my friends seating, he leave my hand. I pick up my bag start moving towards the direction of library, though my heart keep pushing me to look back at my friends but my mind told me to be firm at those belief that I am believing few minutes back. However, as I am walking towards the library I am feeling Erik is following my steps.
Soon we reached library, his mood remained grumpy, sad and arrogant, here I am feeling guilty for what he is feeling but another emotions that I am also feeling right now is that emptiness as if I have lost something very dear to me and I am also feeling anger and frustration for me that how can be so fool or fall so low that I become the reason of someone's sadness.
Whole time at school, I just pretended to study and stayed in library, for an hour Erik remained with then he left to do some work. Though he tried talking to me but I replied to him in mostly a one word or just a single sentence, I keep my book open and tried to read something but my thoughts in end reach to the point where I keep remembering what the happened in the morning. In an hour or two I finally got frustrated and exhausted with all this so, I leave early from the school and reached home early as well.
Once I entered in the home, the whole scenario in front of me shocked me because the whole living and dining room was a mess, a wooden box filled with my favorite cookies was on the floor broken, unfortunately all the cooking got dirty in dustbin. At one couch my aunt is crying mess by beating her hand on her chest and making loud noises, like babies does when they cry and seeing this I just rolled my eyes, then move towards my mother's room to know what happened.
Once I reached at the outside of her room then I knock at her door, then I enter in and there she start telling me what happened.
Mother: Your Aunt today...
To Be Continued.......