F E E L
If you haven't really felt the pain of missing something, then you haven't really missed it. If you haven't cried sadly for something, then you haven't really missed it.
Sitting on the Sofa in the living room overlooking the parking lot, Hira lowered her head, her hands knitting her eyebrows as she covered her tear-soaked eyes. The laptop in front of her is wet.
Never before had she felt this much longing. Missing someone who was probably less than 5 meters away next to her. Between the living room where she sat and the family room which was also the dining room of the main house was only separated by a high wall. But it was not the high wall that stood in the way, not the ego, perhaps it was time that had not allowed them to meet.
Come out please—just for a moment. I want to see you. If only I see you from afar, it's okay. I just wanted to see you for a second to ensure you were there. Please, please, she screamed. The pain holding this longing seemed to pierce the bone.
Never before had she been defeated by the feelings like this. Tears rolled down her cheeks and nose. She wiped it away with her hands without making a sound, yet the tears keep falling.
Hira fiddled with her mouse on the computer screen, trying to release the tightness in her chest. Honey, please tell me if you feel the same if you feel what I feel.
She wiped her tears again.
Honey... please tell me, tell me that you feel the same way, that you feel what I feel.
She wiped her tears again.
Before she get over these painful feelings suddenly, a word in the large font was plastered on her laptop from a YouTube channel.
F E E L
Hira looked at the words. Stunned. She knew it was a song title.
Suddenly her eyes widened when she realized something. Hadn't it just been a second since she asked, 'Can You Feel Me?' Just as she wanted a sign, the song's title, F E E L, appeared to say that he felt the same. At the same time. Direct Message
And Robbin William's melodious voice spread through the headset in her ears, flowing with her blood, vibrating all the cells of her body, seeping into all her joints. Like thorns pulled from the flesh, the pain disappears instantly...
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Come and hold my hand
I want to contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given
I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language
I don't understand
I just wanna feel
Real love feel the home that I live in
'Cause I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
I don't wanna die
But I ain't keen on living either
Before I fall in love
I'm preparing to leave her
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Her eyes glazed over at the song clip on her laptop screen, tears continuously running down her cheeks and dripping down her collar but now feels ecstasy, just reading the song's title, and seeing the clip she immersed in the beauty of the music; her mind flies with the song with a beautiful feeling.
Just as the song ended, suddenly, she was awakened by something. At the far end of the parking lot, she saw someone, ah, two people were, washing the car. Hira watched and almost couldn't believe it.
Ah, how could Billy already be there, when he passed by Hira really didn't realize it. To get there Billy had to pass through the door next to the front of the living room, meaning he had to pass through it but why she didn't know.
And strangely, it was already 10 pm, was he washing the car? Even with A Jay's help, it was late at night washing the car. And now that they have finished washing the car how could she not know? While Hira was here all this time longing for someone she thought was in there, it turned out that the person was outside with her here.
And now Billy was walking back towards her, carrying things with his eyes straight to the Sofa. Hira looked down and didn't dare to look at the man walking closer. Before turning towards the door, the man's footsteps stopped in front of the living room. Hira looked up at the man.
And the world seemed to stop spinning when two pairs of longing eyes met.
Billy looked deeply into the puffy eyes of the woman sitting on the sofa. There was so much he wanted to tell her, so much he wanted to say, but he was helpless. Only briefly did their souls greet each other then Billy re-entered his house with silent steps.
Hira immediately cleaned up her laptop table and sofa and went into her room. Her head felt heavy but her heart was light having met the man she longed for. How could it be possible that just looking at him for a moment had solved all her heartaches of all time?
As soon as her head hit the pillow, she fell fast asleep as if she hadn't slept in years.
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Little did Hira know, as soon as she fell asleep in her room, Mrs. Yulia went out to look for Billy, who was just in the bathroom finishing washing.
But from then on, the next day and the next day the car was never seen again,
That was the last time Hira saw the Indonesian Coast Guard car parked there.
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