Angels need Rest too

I haven't had sleep and I hope my powers can keep me awake since this is second to the last practice until final rehearsals tomorrow for the show. I need to perfect my lines and Destiny who had been acting weird lately, asking me if I'm okay or giving me eye contacts which is making me feel conscious. I think she knew what happened but she just couldn't ask me straight whether it did happen and how I felt about it. My God, ah Devil, who does she think she is? She is not the boss of me. I am literally older than her and her being childish but cute is getting on my nerves, since I have been sleepless I couldn't think properly and what I really need is a quick nap and that's it, I'll be fine for the dress rehearsals.

I disappeared from the back stage and when it's Mercurio and Tibalt's part. I just went ot my hiding spot at the core of the earth and slept for fifteen minutes but can be counted as 24 hour sleep in my time down there. When I popped up in front of our school designer Tess fixing our costumes for the rehearsals, she almost had a heart attack. But just smiled at me and winked her left eye. I think she already knew I am special and different in a way and I love her for that. Tess pointed out my costume and that I need to wear it since my cousin is about to be killed and I need to come out on the stage with my scene with Tibalt. Here we go! Wish me luck!, I cried smiling and winking back to Tess who just gave me a thumbs up.

I came out on the stage and Destiny was looking at me attentively. I winked at her and she smiled which means we're good. Okay, let me see if my acting skills is still intact…

My acting prowess is still there and as if I'm Leonardo Di Caprio in the modern presentation of Romeo and Juliet film set in California. Good job Becca!!!!...yeah, we will be the talk of the school after this show….our co-theatre club artists shouted, Destiny and I smiled and thanked them. We will be rocking the whole school theatre and it'll be the best show ever in the history of Papakura High School in the town of Clevedon. Our town is really so country that some of the people still wear those cowboy outfits which I loved wearing though Uncle find it silly since we live in the modern age and who still wears leather boots, hats and outfits dated from the era we lived in a long time ago. Here, cowboys and Indians literally roam around Nebraska, North, South Carolina, Texas, California and New York.

Hmm…those were the days when I really loved the gun fighting and brawling after drinking, getting wasted of dark beers and hard core sexing with the women who desperately wanted to be sexed by bad cowboys and cowgirls. Well, since I was a girl then and still am now, my stayed at this age and feels like it's just yesterday, and like I never aged but matured in so many ways. My girlfriend Luisa during that time, thought that I was cursed and sort of a vampire when she found out that I never grow old. I remember how sad I was when I visit her at a home, where she stayed the rest of her days, dying in my arms that sad night in Tennessee. I wanted to marry her but girls and women then couldn't marry or even be together since that's the law human's made. But I knew that law about marriage when Uncle mentioned it in his stories when Moses was given the Ten Commandments by God. Of course he was present when that happened since he was the one who urged the Jews to carve a golden calf so they could worship it while Moses is gone up the Holy Mountain. Uncle was very proud of himself because for months the Jews believed and worshiped him. Yet, the people of God which Uncle call the Jews that time, Moses was so tired and hungry then saw what his people did, he felt disgusted doing the dumbest thing worshipping an idol, threw and broke the tablets of God's commandments Too bad that he needed to return to the top of the mountain to ask God's forgiveness and to become more patience with his chosen people.

And marriage between man and woman is there and also the law of not committing adultery, but not about gays or lesbians loving and being together forever? I told Uncle about that and he was always peculiar about me being lesbian. He said that he invented the GL, BL and Trans Love type of loves, he loves is and the people engaging in such desires and relations, but he still loves being with women and having intercourse with them as he always say, is a bliss and he loved God for making sex feeling like heaven. Uncle Lucio said that he was happy as an angel but when he was thrown out of the kingdom and been cursed for all eternity, he was saddened and if he could change the past, he would. Yet, he said that evil has grown in him that he is numb from feeling guilty, weak or compassion. His craving desire for power and to control the world grows stronger as God reprimands and fights him using his brother angels against him and his minions.

And every day he finds souls joining, siding and praising himas their master in this life and after. I love God so much and adored Him but now I despise him and I hope one day I could forgive him. But since I am the Devil and Lord of Darkness I can't do that anymore, I am my own god and I am going to die in hell, if I will be given that privileged in the end., Uncle retorted to me and I didn't understand what he meant until today.

I drove Destiny home and told her that I need to do something important which is really to sleep and relax after what happened with me and that lurker Stacey who I really wanted strangle now because of what she did to me, I apologized that I couldn't join her family for supper tonight. I felt bad but Destiny understood and kissed me sweetly on the lips as I held her cheek and told her I'll see her tomorrow. Saturday is the final rehearsals but I didn't know that things could change all of a sudden.

Belle is doing laundry when I woke up feeling nauseous. I think I was really tired with that battle we had last week that I am still recuperating from it. It's weird since this is the first time I felt this way. I think I need to go back to heaven to really be recharged. I need to do it now for I feel that there's something's going to happen and it will really be ugly. Lucio once told me that we are fighting a lost cause and the battle has just began. I told Belle I need to be away for a couple of days, her face became worried, as if questioning the reason why I needed to. But she understood when I almost fell down when I stood from the chair. She helped me up and kissed me on the mouth and told me to do what I needed to do to stay alive and strong for she knows that she and Destiny will be endanger when I lose my powers. I disappeared in her arms with Belle crying and covering her face with her hands, falling down to her knees to pray to God for help and mercy.

Destiny knocked at the door but no one was answering so she took her spare key and opened their front door. She saw her mom Belle on the ground sobbing without finishing her laundry. Mom, what happened?, I said then ran towards her getting emotional and all. I helped her up and took care of the laundry and heated the left over pizza and mashed potatoes, prepared them on the table with glasses of juice and milk. Mom told me everything and I stayed with her and dad's bedroom until she felt calmer and at peace. I have never seen mom so scared and confused as she was when I first saw her on the ground early this evening. When she told me about dad and that he needed to go back to heaven to recuperate it's serious and I know he won't be back soon since he always does this every time his powers weaken and he needs Divine Intervention and God's providence to supply for his divinity and strength.

I pray that dad will be alright and mom would recover from this nightmare. I called Becca but her phone is on voicemail. I wanted to talk to someone and I need her to comfort me on this. Becca couldn't hear her cell phone ringing since she is already asleep and she away from the world now, resting in the dark recesses of the universe where no man has ever gone to and would never ever be able to go even if they wanted to, unless their dead and their souls are roaming in oblivion, purgatory or the middle earth. But since devils and angels can travel faster than the speed of light and can teleport from anywhere that only place devils couldn't go or travel to is heaven or the kingdom of the Most High. Hell is like a million light years away from heaven and heaven is God's territory and it's never easy to go or come up there unless you're a saint, holy or destined to be there when a soul dies. Angels could come and go in heaven and they have an access to it because of God's grace and power connecting them to Him for all eternity.