"AM STILL YOUR WIFE "

For the first time, she didn't cry as she walked away from him.

She didn't crave his attention. She didn't want to be held in his arms as she cried because of him. She was better than that.

She kept hurting herself over and over again and went in blaming him for her mistakes. If she had read the contract and toon it seriously they would never be in the place that they were.

The footsteps she heard behind her proved to her that she was not done. The only difference was that she was not expecting him to tell her how she loved her.

She did not want to hear that from him. All she wanted from him was respect because no matter what they felt towards each other she was still his wife at the end of the day.

"Am driving you to work ", he said and she didn't object she just walked to his car and entered the passenger seat, and waited for him to enter the car.

The silence didn't last that long before he started speaking.

"Am so sorry I hurt you it was not my intention. I know how you feel about me but I can't give you that back. It's not that I don't think you're amazing or deserve it ", he said as he turned to look at her.

She was the most fragile woman he had seen. She glowed and her smile would light up the whole room. He couldn't give her what she wanted though, she deserved better.

"I think you deserve the best and I can't give you that. I don't know how to make someone feel loved that's why I opened up to this marriage because I thought you would understand it but I made the wrong choice I should have never trapped you in this ", he said as he focused on the road.

He didn't want to look at her. He didn't want to see the pain his words were putting her through.

"I care about you a lot but I know you want more than that all I do is hurt you and even if I get my act together I know you will still hold back because of all I've done in the past. I can't love you the way you want to be loved and am sorry for that ", he said and she just sat there with no emotion at all.

She was not hurt nor was she disappointed. She didn't know what she felt at that moment. A little part of her was relieved because he had managed to talk about his feelings to her, which she knew hadn't been an easy thing to do.

"I want you but not if it doesn't make you happy. I don't want you to stay with me just waiting for the day that I will be able to give you what you want. I don't want to be that selfish so if you want an out of this then I will understand your decision ", he said and got quiet.

Anna was now convinced and she didn't know what she was going to tell him. She didn't understand her feelings anymore.

She had wanted him to tell her that so much but now that he had she didn't know what she was supposed to say to him.

She did love him she couldn't deny that but he had caused her so much pain.

He had hurt her so badly that every time something happened or saw a couple in public all she could think about was why she couldn't get treated like that.

She had made a mistake before and somehow in that moment, she was also tempted to make that mistake again.

She hated the fact that she still wanted him even after all that. She wanted him to be so in love with her that he couldn't breathe when she wants around.

She wanted his world to revolve around her but she wasn't sure that was something that was ever going to happen ever.

"I don't have an answer for you right now not because I don't know what I feel for you. I just don't know if I can trust you with my heart again and I know it isn't your fault am hurt but I need some time to know if I want to be with you romantically ", she said and hoped that he understood why she would tell him that.

He understood why she could not trust him with her heart. He had proved to her over and over again that he wasn't the one for her.

He couldn't understand why it was so easy for her to live him. Not many people loved him he wasn't a very livable person.

He was mean to other people and had no respect for anyone. He was not a good person he knew that big somehow she saw the best in him.

She knew that he hadn't had it easy for him as a child. He never talked about his childhood but she could tell just by the relationship he had with his parents.

She knew nothing of him except the things he let her see or told her which was very little.

All she knew was that he wasn't a person who knew what love was.

"Even though I can't make up my mind right now about that it won't stop me from being your wife. I want us to be partners in everything we do and all the decisions we make ", she said as she turned to give him all her attention.

"If you think that Briana is lying about the pregnancy I'll make sure that we get to the bottom of this, both of our lives depend on it. If he or she is your child I wing have a problem with it I just don't want to clash with her but I don't want to think about that until we know the truth ", she said.

It was going to be hard for her she knew but she had to do something. She wasn't going to let Briana ruin both of their lives with a lie.