Loss

Weeks passed when we found Luciana's whereabouts. And we were all shocked when the terrible news came.

Luciana got into an accident that caused her death. The car where she was slipped onto a cliff before the vehicle exploded. We cannot recognize Luciana's body.

We all mourned our loss. It was as if the sky and the earth had fallen on us. It was as if we too lost our lives when the news reached us that Luciana had an accident and was declared dead.

The entire Griffin family mourned. I am with them in that mourning. Luciana is like my sister, so when she disappeared, it was like I lost a sibling, a friend.

It was so painful when I heard about the news. I cried every time I remembered all the memories I had with Luciana. I cried so much because I miss her.

I know it is much harder for the Griffins because they lose their family. I feel the suffering of all of them, especially Lucian, who shouldered every blame. He's blaming himself since he couldn't persuade his sister to come home with him.

Lucian suffered the most. He shouldered the pain of his family. Luciana's loss caused great grief and bitterness to her parents, so they almost gave up. Iana's disappearance caused a rift between Lucian's parents.

I was there when Lucian put on a mask and appear to be strong. He waa tough when he was with his family because his parents were the most affected by Luciana's death.

Lucian's father stopped working for their company because he blamed himself for trapping Luciana in a marriage. Lucian's mother got I'll because she barely goes out. Their family faced great trials. Lucian knows that he is the only person his parents can lean on so he thinks that he has no right to be weak nor tired.

I knew how tough it was for Lucian because I was there when he cried for his sister. I was there beside him when he blamed himself. I was there when he spoke his what if. I heard all his regrets, I saw his agony. I was there when he almost gave up.

I never left his side. I stayed beside him.

I still remember those moments when he was in his dark times.

I entered the door of Lucian's room because he hardly comes out of his room. He had forgotten about life outside that room. When Iana died and his world seemed to stop.

Every morning I dropped by their house. I heard that he doesn't want to eat so I always give him food. If possible, he should not eat anymore and not live anymore. His life stopped when Iana died. They lost the will to continue life.

"My gosh! Am I always going to your room just to put away your mess, Luci." I said, the approach is light. He rested his head on the bed as he sat on the floor and leaned against the foot of the bed.

"Go home." he says. I ignored him and started picking up his scattered things in his room as if you thought it wasn't Lucian who was using it. Scattered bottles of wine.

Thank you! Thank you! He's really suicidal!

"Ew. You haven't taken a bath yet. You're smelly. Go take a bath." I told him because I'm not used to him being like this. He's not really like this. I want him back to the way he used to be. He was full of life.

We are all hurt, but we have to continue to help them.

For the first few days when I heard about Luciana's death, I was miserable too. I forgot to eat, I cried every night. I blamed myself too.

But when I saw how miserable the Griffins are especially Lucian, I started being strong for him. If Luciana was here, she wants me to help her brother.

"Leave me alone." Lucian said but I didn't listen.

"Stand there and we'll eat." I said.

"Told you to leave!" he shouted that's why I was surprised.

I was hurt by what he did. But I need to understand him because he is going through something right now. He looked up at me. I saw the guilt in his eyes because I know he didn't mean to raise his voice at me.

"How many times do we have to tell you, Lucian, that you're not the only one who lose the person they love?" I smiled, but I couldn't hide the pain in my eyes. I am hurting for the man I love. I am in pain by what he is going through now. I am hurting because he is in pain.

"Luciana is like my sister. It's like I've lost a sister even though I'm not her real family. I lose my best friend." I said and tears filled my eyes because of the pain I feel for my lost friend and sister. That hurts me too.

"But you have to be strong for your family, Lucian. Please. They need you, Lucian. They need you."