Truth

"That's why Lucian, I hope you also think about the people around you. People who are doing everything to help you. Help yourself. We can't help you completely if you don't start with yourself." I said, convincing him to live his life again. "I know it hurts because we feel it too."

I wiped my tears because I couldn't stop them from falling. I saw how Lucian's tears fell. He extended his hands to me, asking for a hug. I walked toward him, knelt to hug him, and let him know he wasn't alone in this fight.

"Lucian, I am also hurt that my best friend, whom I treated like a sister, was gone. And it hurts me even more, to see you like this." I told him that I felt the same way. It pains me to see him almost lose his life.

He hugged me and put my head on his chest. "I'm sorry," he said and stroked my hair. "I'm sorry. I've been selfish. I've been weak."

I shook my head. "You are not selfish, Lucian. You were hurting. Being weak is okay, but you must get up and be strong."

His embrace tightened.

"Lucian, please let's help each other. Let's help each other." I beg him. I am ready to help him with everything I have.

I want him to fight. I want him to lift himself. I want him to feel hope. I want him to have a reason to live again.

My heart broke when I felt his tears fall. My heart hurts for him because I think of the suffering and pain of his heart. I hugged him tighter.

"They need you, Lucian. Uncle Luciano and aunt Arcelia need you. Please don't leave them to face this alone. We're here." I said. "We are here, Lucian. We will not leave you." I promise because no matter how angry or appalled he is about what happened to his sister, I will not leave him. I won't give up on him like his uncles, aunts, and cousins ​​used to do.

I did everything possible to help and make him feel our care and love for him. So, since that day, he shouldered the responsibilities. He took care of his parents, who were devastated by the tragedy.

I was with Lucian when he was hurt when his parents almost separated. Their company had a big problem and almost went bankrupt, and without their relatives, Lucian's family might not have recovered.

"I promise that I will bring back the glory of my family. I will ensure that Luciana will be proud of me and at ease since I will take care of my parents. I'll never leave them. I will be strong for them. We will have this overcome."

"You will do great, Lucian. I will stay by your side."

Along with his tears and suffering, my heart is crying for him.

It's hard for me to see him so broken in those moments that I want to take on everything he's going through.

The elevator dinged, causing me to return to the present time. Remembering those dark days were painful. I am just glad that Lucian and I have each other.

I took a deep breath and wiped my eyes. To this day, I am still hurt by that tragedy. Until now, I still miss Luciana. And I know especially Lucian and his parents, miss Luciana even more.

Even if it is said that his family is fine and has moved on from that painful moment, they still carry the pain and grief in their hearts and lives. Even though everything is fine, I know they still haven't completely forgotten about it.

When I entered Lucian's unit, I saw him sitting on the couch. I bit my lip because I saw the man I love so much in pain again.

I thought what happened to Iana was the last time I would see Lucian suffer like that. I thought he would never again be drowned in pain and sorrow due to the loss of his beloved.

I promised myself I would do everything so he would not suffer from this difficulty anymore, but why did I choose to hurt him more?

So I didn't know that just because of a girl he had just met he would be like this!

And that's my fault.

It's my fault that Lucian is hurting like this because I was selfish. I chose to become selfish because of my feelings toward him.

My tears fell silently. I also thought that tragedy was the last time I would be hurt for Lucian, but I was utterly wrong.

There isn't a moment when I don't feel hurt because of my love for him.

Every day I love Lucian, and it hurts me because I know I'm the only one who loves him. I'm the only one who loves him differently. I'm the only one. I'm the only one who hurts because I love him.

Years have passed by feelings still have been kept from him. I am still in love with him secretly.

And now that I will comfort Lucian again because I am his best friend, his younger sister.

I will again give him my full support. My hugs will make him feel that he is not alone. I will kiss him and tell him that he will get through it all.

And my whole heart to let him know that I'm always here for him even though he thinks I am just his best friend and family.

I stepped closer to him and hugged his neck. My heart broke when I hugged him because I could feel his suffering and pain.

I know what effect that has on a person's heart and life. It was unbearable.

"Hi..." I greeted him warmly. I pulled away from the embrace.

"Luci..." he's a bit astonished that I have arrived.

Tears welled up in my eyes because I knew that this was not about his family anymore but because of a woman he loved. And what hurts me the most is that this suffering of his is all my fault.

I hope he can forget about Amanda. I wish I could make him forget her. But I know I couldn't. He is deeply in love with Amanda.

I hope he can still forgive me for what I did with the woman he loved.

And this is only one truth to slap me; he is in love with someone else.