CHAPTER THIRTEEN

(Saturday the 16th of August)

Maryam's POV

Why is all this happening to me?

"Knock" I heard a light knock on my door before she opened it, it was divine and she was already back so fast.

She was clenching a white small bottle on her left arm as she held the tray of food.

"Here you go," she said as she dropped the tray on my bed.

"Thanks," I said as she stood in my room staring at me.

She waited for a while contemplating her idea as she looked down at her left arm where the drug was.

She finally decided to talk after a while of uninterrupted silence "here you go" she said as she folded the drugs into my left arm as closed it back.

"What is this?" I inquired as I used my right arm to shake my glasses I looked down as I read chlordiazepoxide (Librium) on the drug she gave me.

"It is a drug for anxiety and depression," she said casually as she handed it to me, why? I don't have anxiety nor do I have depression, but I was unable to say a word as my tongue was tied to the roof of my mouth.

"Maryam," she said as she placed her hands over mine as she bent down making her body levelled with my knee as she looked up into my eyes "Maryam, I know things I don't make any sense to you, but trust me I want the best for you so please don't listen to anyone I hope you get to understand why I do all of this one day," she said as she gave a sad look as she sighed "for now I want you to keep this drug a secret okay, have your breakfast I would go look for your drugs now I would be right back," she said she stood up.

"Divine" I called out to her stopping her further movement.

"Yes" she turned back at me with a big smile on her face, but one thing I knew for sure was it wasn't a genuine smile.

"Why is my drug hidden?" I asked

"Honestly, I don't know but it would all be clear soon," she said as she continued walking out of the room.

*sigh, I didn't know what to do and I hardly see mom around I think she is a very busy woman because I don't see her around and I guess I just have to do what divine was asking of me because she has never done anything to harm me but I don't think I can say the same about mom, not that mom had hurt me but the nurse she brought always seems hostile to me and after the injection, she gave me I still am finding it hard to move my legs till this day and I have not seen her question about what she gave me "maybe it was a way to heal who knows" I muttered to myself as I did everything not to believe her injection was what caused me all this pain and suffering.

I looked around the room as I swallowed a mouth full of rice the chief did know her job generously I smiled as the food just hit my sweet spot, and I continued to put a large spoon full of food into my mouth as I resumed scanning my room with my eyes balls and surprisingly I saw my phone, where has it been all these while I shrugged as I continued eating as it seemed to be useless and something about the phone just felt awkward it was all new and I don't think anyone would have a phone without any information in it, not even chats or phone numbers now that was very suspicious, it seems that whoever I was in the past didn't have a life of her own, but at least I should have had humans I talked to people that we're supposed to visit me at this trying time for me, maybe someone to help me get back my memories but nothing no one reached out to me am just dwelling upstairs inside this youse in my room doing absolutely nothing.

"What do teenagers my age do?" A random taught popped into my head as I finished chewing on the last piece of bone on my dish after which I gulped down a chunk load of water which I used to flush down my drug "shakey legs don't tell me this time" I said as I began to walk towards the dresser where my phone was on the table, my bad as it was yesterday but it wasn't as good as it was a week ago either but I did manage to walk to my phone grab it and walked back to my bed, I looked closely and I went through the phone one more time just to be sure I wasn't a weird girl. I clicked on the gallery app but there was nothing there no photos no nothing, empty just like the rest of the phone.

"Here you go" she placed the drugs on my hand as I picked up the water and drank it, but surprisingly I was paying too much attention to my phone and I didn't even hear her walk into the room.

"Divine, what do children my age do?" I asked.

"Well they do a lot of things, going to school; hanging with their friends, and so many other fun outdoor activities" she replied.

"So what about me, did I have any friends?"

"Yes you did, or do"

"Really! Where are they? What are their names? I want to go and meet them. Why haven't they come visiting?" I couldn't stop myself from asking her the random questions that flew from my mind and were projected into my mouth.

"That's enough question for today, get some rest," she said as she left, what? I just woke up like an hour or so why would I want to go back to sleep?