ON THE BRIGHT SIDE

I grew up believing i would meet someone that will sweep me off my feet,years in highschool i had boys crawling on my feet i was like the Queen bee and it made me feel good all the guys in school wanted my attention,the bad boys in school desired just me it made me feel so good but I didn't give in to any of them I only enjoyed the attention they gave me but they never gave me the feeling or desire i wanted. I was hoping to meet a guy that his mere presence alone will slow my breath,someone the mere thought of going to see him will make me feel butterfly, someone that when I'm around him my heart will want to explode of love and happiness I hoped for my prince charming who would against all storms stand by only me but yet handsome tall and athletic but will desire only me. Who every girl is dieing for but I'm the only girl he wants someone that will make me laugh relentlessly,get me angry but will always make me feel better with his sweetness. I have imagined and dreamt how I wanted my love to be,with the perfect man should I say it was the bunch load of romantic movies i grew up watching or the times I kept myself locked in the room reading different romantic novels that kept me on this unwavering fantasy and desire. I was really hoping to get a man like that, to be in a love like that and I believed I would meet him someday my dream man I was only nice to the boys in school that wanted me but I didn't give in to them.

I was finally done with highschool was getting prepared for college,I was excited really excited for a new life I was ready to go and discover things I didn't discover in highschool i knew it was another opportunity for me just maybe I might finally get to meet my dream man in college I didn't get him in highschool maybe he is somewhere in college waiting for me I was so excited. My parents weren't excited with me,I thought it was normal their only daughter was going far away and maybe they were scared of me being far but they know they have to let me go so I didn't ask them why they were acting like that. My mom who was all lovey and sweet before could now hardly look at my face,I felt she was missing me already each time I'm around her she won't look at my face she will only have a sad look on her face awww I would look at her and smile,I would hug her and tell her to try and be happy that I wasn't going far forever,I told her she will still get to meet me she will hug me back but won't say anything my dad he is a man after all he didn't act like my mom exactly but he didn't talk much. Here I was excited that I was finally going to see what life really is,I was excited I was going to experience life atleast all the beautiful things I have seen in movies and read in books I was finally going to experience it my parents should please stop being babies and be happy for me that was what I thought. But then why they were acting that way finally came to light the night before I was to leave to college my parents called me and told me they wanted to see me I was retiring to bed because I wanted to go to bed early so I will be up early the next day I begged them if what they had to say could wait till the next day but they said no so I grumpily stood up from bed and went to see them. They both sat down and I sat across looking at them my mom had a sad look,she acted like she was going to cry.comeon mom it's just college I said in my mind then my dad spoke. "My princess,you know we love you and would literally do anything to make you happy " he said looking at me, of course I know that dad I had this confused look on my face because I didn't understand why he was sounding that way I looked at my mom she wasn't even looking up he went again "you know we love you princess,you are our world and we will purposely not want to bring you harm or do anything to hurt you and whatever decision we made we did it because we didn't have a choice but we want the best for you" please dad stop making me anxious and talk already you are scaring me. I have never had my dad talk to me like that or bring up a discussion like that so obviously I was scared,I didn't want to have wild thoughts the reason he was sounding that way I wanted to know what he had to say then he said it "we know you are leaving to college but it's best we let you know that you have someone you have been betrothed to since you were little and we think it's best you know now so you won't make a mistake " huh?that didn't sound right to me it felt like a joke so I laughed and asked him to stop playing and be serious,that should be a joke they really can't be serious that was when my mom finally looked up. "Anna Your dad is right and we apologize for not telling you since but we think this is the right time for you to know " I looked at my mom with a strong gaze then my dad I looked at them and said they can't be serious this must be a joke I tried standing up to leave out of anger but my mom held me she told to please listen to them she apologized to me again so I sat down trying to get this into my head so I asked them how and why I was betrothed to whoever it was. my dad apologized again and told me I was betrothed since I was little to the family of Mr and Mrs Smith I hardly even know them, to their son they told me how my dad was once in a tight corner and he needed help my mom was lying sick in the hospital and their was no money to treat her so my father met them to ask for money and they are not so generous people and my father needed the money and he didn't have any collateral so he promised them that no matter what that his daughter will be married into their family and will take care of their son. I have always been a beautiful girl so I can see why they accepted.and that was what even made them release money to my dad and my mom was saved.i looked at my mom again I was happy she didn't die then I wouldn't have felt her love. I was speachless again but dad,you have the money to pay back why not pay them back the money you borrowed my life can't be ruined I said looking at him with hope that could be a solution like but my father told me that wasn't an option that he signed a contract with them before the money was given to him so he can't turn back now. They apologized to me again that was where it hit me. My life!!my life was ruined all the fantasy I had In my head,all the dreams I had,the dream to find the perfect man,the dream to find a man that will love me unconditionally, perfectly and the sweetest possible way has been ruined,my dream to have a first love my dream has been shattered I haven't started dreaming it yet but it has been shattered already so I sat there sitting quiet,sad and confused i cried,tears dropped uncontrollably from my eyes my mom tried everything to console me but my heart was broken already and I don't think their is anything they say or do that can change that