ON THE BRIGHT SIDE

The last night with my parents I thought was going to be a peaceful and loving night turned out to be a sad night I got myself crawled in the bed crying imagining what my life would turn out to be. I'm already arranged to be married to a man I don't know,what he looks like or how he behaves to a family I didn't know if I will fit into my head was going crazy just thinking about this I tried hard to force myself to sleep but I was finding it hard to sleep when i finally fell asleep i didn't know. The next day my mom was the one that came to wake me up but I didn't have it in me to act like I'm happy with her and she knew I wasn't she told me that I had to start preparing to meet up with my flight. oh!that's right I totally forgot I had a flight to catch up and if not for the fact I was excited to finally be out there I knew I really wanted to leave the house I can't stand seeing my parents at the moment looking at them all I would be feeling was heartbreak I didn't want to be around I had to leave I could have atleast asked her about the family but I was totally not ready for that.i had myself ready and my dad was waiting by the door to drive me to the airport is the least he can do for me now my mom hugged me before I left I still didn't have it in me to hug her back I could see tears drop from her eyes,I didn't know if she was crying because I was going far or she was crying because of what they put me to whichever one it was I'm the victim and shouldn't let her cry get to me. I left with my dad driving and this was the first time we ever drove in silence no one said anything to anyone my dad will stare glances at me but my face was focused on the road I didn't have anymore thing to say to him atleast not for now. we got to the airport my dad helped me with my bags I got checked in he tried saying something to me but I didn't want to find out.my heart was broken already I didn't want to hear more. I sat beside a beautiful girl but my mind was full to exchange pleasantries I was lost in thoughts when the flight left I didn't know and tears starting dropping from my eyes this was really a hard thing for me to take then I felt a soft touch on my shoulder it was the girl sitting beside me I looked at her then she smiled at me while Patting me I leaned on her and cried I didn't know her but I was comfortable with her when I was done crying I wiped my face with the tissue she gave me.i apologized to her for acting that way she told me it was okay,I told her I was Anna she told me her name is eve and it happened to be we were headed the same school both Freshers and the same department engineering if anything God just made it easy for me i didn't have to go around looking for a friend in school I just had one sitting with me we could figure the rest out together and she seemed really nice I loved her already. we got to school found our rooms and we were paired together if this isn't fate. we were both happy we helped each other unpack our things after that we sat across each other she asked me why I was crying and I felt comfortable telling her all my problem and she felt sorry for me she wanted us to go out and get snacks but I told her I needed to sleep I couldn't get enough sleep last night I had to get one now so my brain can function normally she smiled and left without me and I closed my eyes and slept off I needed the sleep. I don't know how long I slept for but I woke up to the constant bugging of my phone,it was my mom I picked to let her know I got down safely we didn't talk for long I wasn't there yet but I know I will eventually have to forgive her and my dad and I know I will eventually have to accept my fate but for now I wasn't ready.not long my new friend eve walked in and she brought me snacks I love her already we talked about going to look round and ask questions so we won't be confused on our first lecture day . We walked round the school she kept telling me all about her family she knows my story already there was nothing more I knew I could tell her. she had two sisters and two brothers she was the last child her siblings looked out for each other I was happy for her,she had siblings that look out for eachother and parents that didn't give her away from birth.story of my life! we asked someone for direction to our lecture hall we went round,we met some friendly people and we met the rude one's after the hectic walk around we went back to our room we were both anxious of what tomorrow would be and what our first day in class would be like if I have learnt anything in highschool it was that first day matters how you act the first day people meet you they tend to take you to be like that,I was loved in highschool i was hoping it would be the same in college I had enough pressure from home already I wouldn't want school adding to my pressure eve told me she wasn't really popular in highschool but she hopes that college would be nice to her. the next day we were up early and beautifully dressed we checked out each others outfit and we were good to go. I have always been a fan of fashion and good thing I got a roommate like me we can compliment each other we walked into the classroom we were too early but it was better than being late and have everyone look at us when we walk in we may even be asked to leave the classroom on our first lecture for being late I heard that the lecturers were a bit strict and I wouldn't want to be in the bad side with any of them.Eve and I sat together and she asked me what I think our lecturers would be like, seriously I didn't know what to expect but I hope we won't be on their bad side other people started walking into the classroom and we exchanged pleasantries I told eve I had to make use of the bathroom she offered to go with me I told her not to bother I left in a hurry so I will be back on time rushing out I realized I was confused and didn't know the way to the bathroom I wanted to call eve but she wouldn't know too,the building was confusing I went round only to return to the same place I started off from, I sat down in confusion with my eyes closed and my hand placed on my head like that was going to help me find the way to the restroom. was that really my problem or that I'm still hurt from what my parents told me this is just my second day here I have seen lovely faces and I was sure I was going to see more but I'm not allowed to let myself explore my heart interest I was already given to someone without my consent and my family can't do anything about it they were much indebted and to an influential family my life really sucks. "are you okay?" a low deep voice said to me but I didn't care to look up I was lost in thoughts but he didn't leave he was still there probably to be sure I was okay he asked me again for some reasons his presence irritated me and I needed him to leave me alone if I needed help I could at least put a signpost that says please I need help yet he was about to ask me again if I was okay again and I was ready to tell him to leave me the fuck alone but looking up seeing the man that was standing before me asking me if I was okay I lost sense of what I wanted to say if anything I think I just embarrassed myself because I just stood looking at him without knowing what to say he just smiled and still waited me to come back to earth why won't he smile I bet he get this reactions from every girl that came his way when I was about to say something atleast then my phone rang and it was eve "where have you been?I think our lecturer is on his way you better be here before you get locked out of class" oh!I'm coming I was meant to use the restroom but I think all that can wait now without further embarrassing myself I rushed out without saying anything to him I could have atleast given him an answer getting to the class the class was full already with different faces I sat close to eve and she asked me what took me long I told her I didn't even get to use the restroom because I couldn't find it others were talking about how they heard the lecturer coming wasn't so friendly,they heard but wasn't sure and no one knew what he looked like and just while they were still talking about what our supposed lecturer looked like, a man walked in and walked straight to the stage I turned to see who it was I couldn't have prayed more for the ground to open and swallow me.It was the same man I stood standing speachless before minutes ago and now here he is standing in as my lecturer oh my God!while the rest of the girls gushed as how handsome he was I bent my head in shame praying for him to atleast not to notice me trying to take the last peep at him our eyes met I froze not knowing the reaction to give and there again he smiled at me the class saw him smile at me so they turned to look at me. can today get any better?!