A Daydreaming Cynic With the Desire to Go to hell

Ugly hag. Perv. Fat tramp. Filthy whore. Obnoxious fatso. Trash. Repulsive cow. Obscene retard. Sicko.

These were all words used by the 14-year old Yuuya Hibeki to describe her mother. Day in and day out of hearing her nagging, her continuous complaining, always in the same boisterous voice, along with the many sleepless nights of pretending not to hear her evening “activities” followed by hiding from one stranger after the next the following mornings, had made Yuuya describe her mother in this unromanticised way. Of course, there's no way her mother would know that. With the increasingly cynical inner narrative and morbidly growing fantasies of this girl, her lips tightened over the years. For all we know, Yuuya's mother could live under the false impression that her quiet little daughter absolutely adores her, and is simply too shy to convey it in other means than to blankly stare at her with contempt in her joyless eyes. That's not to say others escape the ruthless verdicts of this young woman. Whether it be the chipper mailman or old Ms. Bullingham next door or a baby in a stroller or the very cat sitting in front of her at this moment, nobody eludes her boundless hell-fury, for they are all guilty.

The feline observer quickly turns tail as Yuuya stands up, her sudden movement neither meant to deliberately startle the cat, nor in consideration not to. She could not make out the weather on this dreary day. The sky blinded her, yet grey clouds loomed in the distance, there was no rain, yet her cheeks were wet. With the exception of this bleakly normal autumn day, Yuuya avoided meeting eyes with the sky. It seemed to taunt her, somehow, as if saying “I'm up here and you're down there!”, and she absolutely despised teasing. “It's not like I actually want to be up there”, she would tell herself, after noticing her mood to have grown fouler because of a silly reason like the sky taunting her. And it was true. Yuuya Hibeki, the most cynical 14-year old on this planet, which, mind you, says quite a lot, had no desire at all to leave the Earth she so hated in place for the heavens. In fact, she found it grossly indecent when people wished for a better life up there, with their prayers and hymns, so vile, in fact, that her noxious slurs almost escape her lips. That would never happen, of course, but there are times when it comes close. But even Yuuya had dreams. Not in the form of celestial paradise, but dreams nonetheless. If there was one thing she knew for certain, it was her deep, grudgeful hate for people. The only constant in her little miserable world; disappointment. There was even a time when this spiteful being of a girl saw light in the world, in people, and tried her best to believe in others. Her mother was the first to disappoint her, and ultimately, the one to snuff the tiny flame of hope in her decrepit heart. So Earth had no place in her sophisticated daydreams. Neither had Heaven, with the simple reason of those insufferable beggars going there. There is only one place. The place furthest away from Heaven, encrusted beneath the Earth's molten metal core and unreached by the sky's ridiculing gaze. That's right. Yuuya Hibeki's deepest of wishes was to go to Hell.