Chapter 3

It was then before I fell in love with another, Tiara. She had some familiar qualities as that of Lillian. For Tiara's beauty to be compared with Lillian's I think Tiara was deceiving my eyes. Why hadn't I notice it earlier? Earlier I said that Lillian is the only girl with exceptional beauty, I think l lied and the truth is that there is another. Trust me these were the most beautiful women I had never seen. Yes one girl was more beautiful than the other but I didn't know whom. I was in love with two. I tried to ignore which but it was like making a big mistake I would regret later. For the first days on the second term I thought I was going to be a polygamist. I tried to convince myself that I would be strong enough to withstand the consequences which are in polygamy. I knew I was lying to myself and I was left with no choice but to let go one. "Love is meant for two" I would say to myself. It took me ages to choose one, I meditated for this day and night and I even prayed to God for his help. It was after several weeks when I chose to let go Lillian. No, I can't credit myself for that; it was Tiara who did it. She appeared very beautiful and my love for her grew deeper. My love for Lillian completely faded though the sense that these two women were the best of all never got away. I didn't try to regain my love for Lillian for I had been saved from being a polygamist so It was fine with me and I hoped that I won't be in love with her again.

Tiara was from the same hostel as Lillian. Tiara was light, clean, slim and obviously beautiful in a different way just like Lillian. Lillian's eyes were broader than Tiara's though all seemed sexy in my eyes. Lillian's voice was calmer than hers. Generally they had some familiar features but I was now in love with Tiara. Being talkative isn't the best word; the best is that she spoke out whenever it was necessary. In other words she was a chatterbox but wasn't a gossiper. She was a fast talker and she admitted it when I said it. I loved her tongue; I liked her being a fast talker and a chatterbox.

She gave me back my confidence, she let out the fear out of me and I will always appreciate her for that. In fact, all that I lost in Lillian's reign, Tiara gave it back. I was now real me. Yes I was still a quiet boy but not because of fear. Quite a number of my classmates from previous years could now see that I wasn't that quiet.

Her calm voice could let out the anger out of me, she was remarkable.

I was still that old Sam though there was a slight change. Back then I couldn't tell Lillian that I loved her but now was different. I could tell Tiara that I loved her but I didn't though I tried to make some attempts but instantly discouraged myself. I respected her and didn't want the relationship to be an 'easy come, easy go'. Yes I convinced myself that she felt the same from the beginning since I believed she had a crush on me first before I gave in but I didn't go to her because I was afraid to be broken. Most boys said that she wasn't that top beauty. They said that she was average. Especially with her 'small body features' the boys said, "… we can put her on average if we are kind and merciful enough." From experience I knew she had noticed that I had a crush over her and I also saw that she felt the same even before I gave in. I'm saying all this with the look in her eyes on me and her movements around me. I just hoped that she knew that making no attempts wasn't because of me being unable to declare what I felt.

Life went smoothly but hoped that Lillian had forgotten about me because I didn't want her to do 'crazy' because of me.

Luckily with Lillian I was in love but with Tiara I fell in love and I really fell.