Chapter Twenty

A week later Owen had a photo shoot for a wedding suit freshly designed by Shades. The new designer was already showing her worth and Josh couldn't be more happier. While the shoot was ongoing Josh was there supervising the photo shoot for the new brand. At the chair he sat in the studio, Owens phone was on the table in front of him. Messages kept on popping and pinging the phone kept vibrating distracting Josh's attention. He snuck a peek at the phone and saw two people with notifications covering their identity. He was curious to know who Owens lover was since every one in the office knew Owens sexuality. He scrolled down and was shocked to see Jake in a lovey dovey pose with Owen. He was shock struck, knowing fully well that Jake was engaged to Kiki and they would be getting married really soon

'Why is Jake in such a lovey pose with Owen...is he gay ??? That's not possible he doesn't seem so. When we were roommates on campus he never looked at me that way !! He never hung with girls except Jules and Kiki though....'' Josh couldn't concentrate so he rang Jake.

"Hey man...can we meet up for drinks tonight if you're free"

"Unfortunately I'm not free today maybe another time"

"Oh..."

"Do you have something to say"

"Never mind when you are free just let me know okay"

"Yeah I'll do that...have a nice day"

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When Owen was done with the shoot he took some mirror selfie's with the suit and sent to Jake with a caption:

"what's your thought on marriage :)" The caption read.

Jake was waiting for him in the parking lot as they had plans to go out for dinner.

"You looked super hot in those pictures" Jake complimented.

"Yeah..I get that a lot... Thanks...did you read the caption I sent ?"

"Oh..marriage ?"

"Yeah" Owen curiously replied staring at Jake straight in the eyes.

"It's not something I have ever actually talked thought about...why'd you ask ?" Jake shakily asked.

"I really wanna marry you... these past few months I've been with you were my happiest and I'd love for the whole world to know you're mine...know you're my husband"

"You're joking right" Jake laughed to kill the conversation

"Uhm...yeah" Owen said sadly and leaned on the glass of the window as Jake drove them out.

"Take me home please"

"I thought we are having dinner at my place"

"I've changed my mind Jake"

"Are you mad ?"

" why do you always ask me that...you know you're hurting me and you ask if I'm mad"

"I'm sorry"

"You're always sorry Jake...because you're not out you always are...I don't like the way I'm feeling when I'm around you...I want to pounce on you and not give a fuck what people think but that's not the case with you. You're always cautious in every fucking thing you do...you show affection only when we're behind close doors or under the watch of few eyes and it hurts okay.."

"I'm sorry I made you feel this way...I'm just sorry...I have my reasons for hiding my sexuality"

"Do you wanna hide it for the rest of your life then?"

Jake had reached Owens house now.

"What do you want me to do ?"

"Stop acting this way...making me feel like a bad person"

"I don't see how I'm doing that...you know I'm not out yet so how is marriage even possible at this point babe" Jake replied.

This response triggered Owen to exit the car and he stormed off. Jake watched him walk away then he drove off.

'What's his deal ?...even if I ever come out I'm not sure I'd want marriage...cause after marriage he'd want us to have children...children that would be bullied for having gay parents...I wish we'd be lovers for the rest of our lives but he always wants more...he gets mad when I call his name but the moment he's ticked off about something he yells mine !"

Jake phoned Josh and asked that they meet at Jules bar as he was too tired to drive to any other bars. The fight with Owen didn't feel good to him at all, he'd drown himself in alcohol tonight.

He got to the bar and sat at the stools in front of the counter so he could access as many glasses as he wanted. He had Chico make him something very strong.

"Is Jules coming in today ?"

"I'm not sure Jake...I'll ask Zoey "

"Never mind I don't want her seeing me drunk...I'm not ready for her questions and lectures"

He was downing his second glass when Josh came in.

"Hey dude...it's been a while" he said and Josh pat his back and took the stool next to his.

"Yeah..workload !"

"Chico...make something for my guy"

Chico got a drink ready for Josh and Josh gulped down in one go. Josh talked about stuff that Jake wasn't really interested in and Jake just smiled with his empty heart.

"You had something to say ?"

"Yeah...it's about something I saw that piqued my interest"

"Okay go on"

"Promise me you won't be mad though"

"Of course not...you're my buddy"

"Are...you...gay?"

"What...!" Jake was feeling suffocated. 'Had Owen gotten mad at him and told Josh about them and his sexuality...the look on Josh's eyes is still neutral....is he perhaps not sure about this and wants a confirmation from me ?????"

"What made you...ask that"

"I saw a picture of you and Owen looking so loved up and it was set as his wallpaper Are you dating him ?"

" ...Uhm...he's just a friend I met a few months back...we hang out a lot"

"I hope Josh doesn't tell Owen about this. What if he questioned Owen about this and Owen outrightly replies that we are dating and Josh counters that I'm engaged...everything would be ruined. Josh was now a threat to my love and lies....and I can't ask him not to question Owen else it will look suspicious...shit!!!"

"Yeah!!...I knew you were straight...geez we spent years together too...I can recall you rarely hung out with girls at school only Jules and Kiki...wow edits are sure getting pretty real."Josh said and stared at Jake's finger and couldn't find his engagement ring.

"Yeah...editors"

"Where's your ring ? Jake !"

"It itches...so I took it off...I have to leave now...let's go"

'I can't have him staying at this bar longer...these men would soon start hitting on him and his curiosity will pique again as to why I come to a gay bar...I can always justify it as patronizing my best friend though"

"I'll stay a while...I need to cool off"

"What kind of bar is this ?"

"It's a regular bar...let's leave. You know you get drunk after just two glasses "

"I wanna stay Jake... see you later"

"Okay bye"

Jake left, right now he wasn't in a good mood.

Josh stayed at the bar and watched guys dance together, writhing against each other and he was turned on by the sight.

"Shit!! I'm not gay...I love women with thick thighs and big tits...but see the way he's holding that guys waist and pressing his body to him...I wanna be held like that too.... no no no no I'm ...not ...gay"

He couldn't revert his eyes from the sight in front of him. The couple he watched one was taller than the other and he was behind the smaller one with his hands firmly placed on the others waist.

"Butterflies ????" Josh felt !.

"I've gotta get out of here....this place is making me feel shit I never felt before"

A guy approached Josh, apparently he'd been watching him watch the couples dancing.

"Wanna have a good time ?" The guy smirked.

"No...I'm good"

"I'm Trevor...what's your name cutie"

"I'm not interested...." Josh said and Jules came in. She was talking to Chico before she spotted him.

"Why are you here ? " Jules questioned.

"Hey Jules how have you been"

"I'm obviously good man...what brings you by ?"

"I came here with Jake but he had to leave early"

Trevor was staring at him as he spoke while sipping his drink.

"Really! Chico why didn't you tell him I was coming by today "

"I forgot that"

"Shit ! I haven't seen him in a while...but why would Jake bring you to a place you clearly don't belong"

"Can you tell me how I've wronged you...you always scowl at me and are pissed off whenever we meet...I know I've be never done stuff to offend you"

"This is a gay bar !" She said.

"I've realized that "

"And you're an homophobic straight guy"

Back in college she was eating at the cafeteria. She had not met Josh then and she and Jake just started being friends. A trans girl had asked Josh out at the cafeteria and him being the jerk he was and surrounded by his shitty friends openly declared.

"I ain't into ass shit" The girl rushed out. That day many people had found out she was trans and made videos which circulated about her. Jules never knew what happened to the girl after that. So from that moment she despised Josh and it was worst when he turned out to be Jake's roommate and friend.

"No I'm not" Josh exclaimed

"Are you get them ?"

"I'm not...I'm a straight guy"

"You heard that dude" she said to Trevor "he isn't...."

"The name's Trevor "

"Sorry...permit my manners...Trevor he isn't into guys so you can stop hitting on him"

Josh just stared at her, why was she looking out for him.

"People change and I know a sweetheart when I see one" Trevor stated.

"Okay I'm outta here...don't get hurt Trevor...it was nice to meet you" she said patting his hand. She'd never seen him before. " must be your first time"

"What's your name ?"

" I'm Josh...I've gotta go"

"Can I get your line"

"No ! Bye "

Josh left the bar. He got home and stalked Monneteni's Instagram page. He smiled as he scrolled through pictures of Monneteni. 'So I've been in love with you all this while '.

Josh lay on bed and a hand snaked his waist and pulled him to a hard chest for a cuddle. He could sense the perfume...'this scent his familiar " He enjoyed the cuddle and turned over to see Monneteni in bed with him.

Monneteni!!!!

Monneteni leaned and kissed Josh's shocked lips. It was the sweetest kiss Josh had ever had.

'Fairy god mother has sent me a big guy to cuddle tonight...yippee thanks mama'

"Wanna have a good time ?" Monneteni asked.

'Wait...hold on ...I've heard this before...but where ?'

"Yeah...I'm in" Josh replied with a satisfactory smile.