Worry

2 hours in bed, I couldn't sleep. I couldn't stop tossing and turning and I couldn't stop thinking about a particular somebody in the living room.

In all my life that I have known Christian, I have never seen him this tired. I have never seen him this down and that worried me.

I stood up from my bed, still questioning the choice I was about to make right now, I walked out of my room to the living room. Gently of course because I didn't want to wake him up.

It seemed like he was sound asleep, with the blanket over him. I crouched down in front of him and stared. He frowned and was grumbling.

"I didn't know he talked while asleep" I chuckled. Weirdly, he stopped frowning and slowly sighed. "What exactly are you thinking about Sinclair?"

I sighed and stared at him a little more before I stood up to go back to my room but I stopped when he held my hand.

"Don't go." He muttered.

"I'm sorry, did I wake you?" I immediately apologized.

"Don't go." He repeated softly.

"Do you want to come sleep with me inside?" I ask. "I'm not implying we have sex or anything, you can just come in to-" My words were cut short when he pulled me down.

"As much as I know you're denying the fact that you can't resist me right now," He states and I roll my eyes. "I just want you to stay with me." He adds.

"You don't-"

"Please." He pleads.

"I'm not sure the couch will be enough for both of us." I chuckle.

"I could squeeze myself in." He adds.

I said nothing else and got on the couch with him. It's uncomfortable I won't deny, but Christian pulled so close like his life depended on it. He rested his head on my chest while I gently patted his shoulder.

"Are you sure you're alright Christian?"

"I'm not." He mutters.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I ask gently.

"I wouldn't want the girl I like to see me vulnerable now would I?" He says jokingly.

"What if she's worried about you?"

"I wouldn't want to put my worries on her. It isn't fair on her."

"Christian-"

"Let's just sleep okay? I'll be fine. It's nothing." He interrupts me and sighs.

I get he doesn't want to tell me, but that doesn't stop me from worrying about him. I let it go since it seems he doesn't want to talk about it and in no time, I fall asleep.

"Les?" I grumble. "Lesley?"

I slowly open my lids and yawn.

"Why did you sleep here?" A voice asks and my brain couldn't quite comprehend it.

"Lesley?"

"Yeah?" I answer grudgingly.

"Why did you sleep out here?"

Sleep out here?

It then clicked and I sat up immediately. I looked around to see a worried Billie staring at me.

"I- '' I looked around again but Christian was nowhere to be found. "I-'' I didn't even know what to say.

"I don't know."

She chuckles. "I have a test this morning. I'll be back by 12. Are you going to be out?"

"I don't know yet." Why am I responding like I'm lost?

"You look lost. Must be the sleep." She answers.

Didn't know I said that out.

"I just need to bathe and everything will come back."

"Alright then. I'll see you later." She gives me a smile and walks out the door.

I ran my hand through my hair and let out air I didn't know I was holding in.

"I guess he left early this morning." I mutter as I stare at the blanket on me. I stood up from the couch, taking the blanket with me and going into my room.

I take my phone from my table and check the time.

8:34. I still have time to sleep and rest. I don't have any classes today. Just a test by 6 and then nothing else.

"God really loves me." I yawn as I settle on my bed. Just right before I could fall asleep, Christian crossed my mind.

Maybe I should give him a call?

What if he's sleeping?

"A message then?"

Is it actually necessary?

"No it isn't. It isn't at all."

There's no need to act worried for him. Besides, it's not like he'd tell me if something's wrong.

"But a simple text won't hurt." I took my phone and typed a quick message for him.

"There." I placed my phone on the table and snuggled in my bed.

*Hey. Was wondering if you got home alright and if you're okay. You can beep me when you see this. Love you.*