14.

Jason P.O.V.

I sighed as Madi got up as soon as I was parked. I took off my helmet, stood up, and grabbed the basket. I dropped it off in the kitchen and made my way to the office where something was waiting for me. My beta didn't want to tell me over the mind link, he told me that I needed to see this for myself.

I walked in and began speaking, "Someone better be dying because I was about to...." I trailed off as I saw Amanda facing me with a hand on her stomach. There was a small bump and I looked from her face to her hand and finally understood. I had gotten Amanda pregnant before she left. This is what her threat meant. She knew she was pregnant and she was just waiting until she was showing to return. By now she looked like she was about four weeks along.

I said the first thing that came to my mind, "There is no way this baby is mine." I knew I sounded like one of those guys on Jerry spring or something denying their child but this can't be happening. Not now. Not right after Madi was giving me a chance.

Amanda just smiled as she spoke, "I told you that you were going to regret your decision. I'm pregnant with your pup. We will see if your precious little mate will want you now. We will see how the pack feels about the fact that you rejected the female pregnant with your pup."

"What do you want Amanda?" There had to be some ulterior motive. Something she wanted in return for her silence.

"I just want my child to grow up in the same pack that I did. I want back into the pack. Either you let me back in, or I let your precious little mate know that you got me pregnant." There it was. She wanted back in the pack for her silence about the pregnancy. She knew exactly what that would do. Madi would definitely leave me if she knew that I had gotten another she-wolf pregnant. And I couldn't even blame her. I couldn't let her find out about this. It would break my wolf's heart and, if I was being honest, my heart too.

I knew she was manipulating me but there was nothing I could do about it. "Fine you can stay, but you will be treated just like any other pack member. You will be assigned a pack job and you will not get your own house. You will get a pack room and you will never go near Madi. If I find you near her you will spend the rest of your pregnancy in the dungeons and when our child is born, I will kill you."

She smiled walking up to me. I held myself stiff as she stood on the tips of her toes to whisper in my ear, "I'm carrying your child. I would remember that if I were you."

I heard the threat in her tone as she walked out of the room. I knew she had me. She had my fucking balls in a vice grip and if I made one wrong move she would tear them off. I couldn't let her hurt my pup and her threat was very clear, try to push her around and she would end my pup's life before it ever saw the light of day. The right amount of wolfsbane and she would miscarry while still living. I became angry at her and myself as I grabbed a vase and shattered it between my hands. I was so fucked. It is only a matter of time before Madi found out, and I would have to tell her before then.

Madi P.O.V.

A few hours later I ventured out of the room and into the kitchen for a snack. As I walked in I was hit with a familiar scent and I was surprised at what I saw. In front of me was the long-legged blonde that once claimed my mate as her own. Not only that, but the only thing she was wearing was a man's shirt that smelt like Jason. How had she even gotten that with me in the room? It looked like the shirt Jason had been wearing earlier on our date. How had she gotten it? Had he given it to her?

"What the hell are you doing here and why are you wearing my mate's shirt?"

She spun around quickly not having realized that I had walked in. Her hand immediately rested on her stomach in surprise and my eyes widened at the bump she was sporting under my mate's shirt that was baggy on her.

She sent a large fake smile at me and said, "Why don't you ask Jason? I'm sure he will spin an interesting story about our child. You were just a plaything for while, but now I'm back. You can stop trying to make Jason love you now. He only has and only will ever love one person and that is me."

I watched as she walked in the same direction as Jason and I's bedroom. I was frozen in place for a moment with thoughts turning threw my head. Jason had gotten her pregnant? This whole time he had been playing with me while he got Amanda pregnant. He was lying to me. This was the real reason he hadn't marked me yet. He was still with Amanda and she was pregnant with his child. This can't be right. There has to be some explanation. I snapped out of my thoughts as I made my way to our bedroom. It was after midnight so he should be in there by now. I quickly walked into our room and I was confronted by the sight of him and Amanda lip locking while he was in nothing but a towel with his hair dripping wet.

I cleared my throat and Jason jumped away from Amanda looking guilty, "Madi, I was just coming to see you."

I sneered, "Oh that much was clear as you lip locked with Amanda. Took a shower to get her scent off of you but just needed one last kiss to get threw your time with me huh?"

He frowned at me, "What? No Madi listen...."

I held up a hand, "I don't want to listen anymore! I just want the truth, which you obviously can't give me! Amanda has told me the truth! She may have done it out of pure hate but at least someone had the balls to tell me the truth!" I felt my wolf trying to take control I was so angry.

Jason walked over and touch my arm lightly trying to calm me, "Don't fucking touch me!"

He backed away with his hands up in surrender, "Madi calm down."

"DON'T FUCKING TELL ME TO CALM DOWN!" I roared. With this, I ran past a surprised Jason and Amanda and I shifted as I flew off the balcony towards the ground. I looked back at the balcony at a surprised Amanda and Jason before turning and running off.

I ran and ran until I collapsed in my wolf form crying. This pain was so much for my wolf that without my permission I changed back into my human form and I was unable to reach my wolf. Where she used to be was just this big empty cold space. I started sobbing harder. I lost my wolf. She is gone. I'm nothing without her. Eventually, as it happens in everyone who loses their wolf I was going to die. I wasn't sad because after all of this pain I would welcome death. Your wolf makes up half of you and you can't live forever with only half of your body working. In rare cases, someone has survived this but they are never the same as before they lost their wolf. This pain was just too unbearable. To go from knowing the freedom of having a wolf and shifting whenever you want but mostly the constant companionship. The knowing that no matter what you are not alone. I hate him, And I hate myself because I don't hate him.

Jason P.O.V.

I watched as Madi's clothes shredded as she shifted in mid-air. I turned around to a satisfied-looking Amanda. I could feel my wolf very close to the surface, "What have you done?" She flinched as I roared.

"I did what I had to so we can be together. She was in our way! Now it can be just me you, our pup, and our pack that we rule together."

Five Minutes Earlier

I stepped out of the shower with a towel around my waist and my still dripping hair running water down my chest. I stopped when I saw Amanda laying on my bed in my shirt with her hand resting on her small bump.

She smiled as she saw me walking in, "What are you doing here Amanda?"

She smiled sending shivers down my spine, "Kiss me. Just kiss me and if you don't feel anything I won't say anything to Madi. I'll let you tell her yourself."

Before I could respond her lips were on mine and it was like my brain shut down. Before I could process and move away from her there was the sound of someone clearing their throat and I guiltily looked over to see Madi more pissed off than I have ever seen her and had a hopeless heartbroken look on her face.

Present

"Are you delusional or just crazy?! I will never be with you, pup or not! I have a mate! You should have worried about finding your own mate instead of ruining what I have with mine!"

Not having patience for the mind link I roared, "Beta! Come take this filth to the dungeon! Tie her arms and legs so she can't hurt the unborn pup in her, and search her for any contraband!"

Seconds later he appeared with a confused look on his face and took her away. I could hear her screeching at him as he pulled her away but I ignored her and quickly shifted and jumped out the window. I had to find her and explain everything. Why does everything keep getting so screwed up? I followed her scent but she was moving way quicker than I was. Suddenly I felt this searing pain then just nothing. It was like she was gone. No! She can't be dead! I pushed on following her scent until I reached her. She was in human form and I could smell no wolf on her. Was she hurt so bad that she had lost her wolf? I shifted into a human and walked over to her. Her breathing was shallow but luckily she was breathing. I picked her up bridal style as I mind-linked the pack doctor to meet me as I arrived with her.

As I arrived the doctor led me to his examination room and instructed me to set her down on the bed. I set her down as gently as I could and brushed her dark hair from her face. The doctor handed me a pair of shorts and I realized that Madi and I were both still very naked. I pulled on the shorts quickly and then covered my mate's naked body. The doctor stepped up to her and began putting IVs into her and connecting her to a heart rate monitor. He lifted the blanket to put a heart rate monitor on her chest and on instinct I grabbed his hand growling.

He looked pointedly at my hand and I removed it realizing what he was trying to do. "Son I think you should leave the room so I can continue the examination without you killing me."

I wanted to object but I knew he was right. I just gave a silent nod and left the room sitting on the floor outside the door. The minutes felt like hours as I waited to find out if she was going to be okay. In the back of my mind, I could hear my wolf snarling and demanding I went back into the room. I was so much in my own little world that I didn't feel any of the effects I normally would of his behaviors. He eventually stopped talking but kept quietly growling. The minutes felt like hours and eventually when the doctor emerged an half hour later it felt like years had passed. I stood up straight and waited for the news I was dreading.

He let out a loud sigh, "I'm sorry Alpha. I don't know how much longer she can hold on. She has lost her wolf and that in itself could kill her. She is in a medically induced coma right now to give her a longer amount of time and to encourage her wolf to come back. In rare cases, the wolf isn't actually gone but in a sort of deep slumber and the wolf just needs time to heal before it reappears. There is hope but for now, she needs to stay in a coma to give her wolf and body a chance to heal. There is nothing physically wrong with her. In my opinion, this is a mental wound, but sometimes those are the hardest to heal. My suggestion is to spend as much time as you can with her now because I can't definitively tell you if she will make it threw the night. Even if she does make it threw the night she might not ever wake up"

I just nodded in shock and walked into her room. She was connected to a million machines and tubes were covering both of her arms taped down in case she moved. She also had a ventilator to breathe for her while she was like this. Seeing her like this I just wanted to break down. I slowly walked up to the bed and took her hand gently. She looked so fragile I was afraid she would break. I dropped into the chair and tears immediately ran down my face and onto our connected hands.

" Goddess please don't let her die! I love her please!"