Chapter Two, Should I Hate Or Love The Rain

As I leave Carly's house, the clouds are dark and small drops are falling down. The thought of walking a few blocks really sucks and now the clouds are crying. Taking the first step down the porch, I try to maintain my speed, as I look down the road, there is a car coming at a high speed. I really hate speeding cars when it's raining due to accidents, because of the wet road.

Though, now the only thing I care about is my books, oh my books! My hair is getting wet I can imagine what my mom will say when I walk in. As the car comes closer I can see who it belongs to, and there's no need for me to say it out loud, as my brain already knows who it is, Kyle. I know now I am wet because of the stupid rain, this day could not have gone any better.

Who am I kidding, he probably doesn't know me, even though he lives a few houses away from my house or should I say across the street. He probably wouldn't notice me, I hope. I know he will pass me like he doesn't know me I am sure of it. Do you know when someone says I spoke too soon? Well, I did and the car is slowing down as the window goes down. Oh crap, this is crazy, so crazy!

"Hey!" says Kyle smiling. Oh, this guy is full of himself, smiling like I am going to say, oh hey! How are you doing? Can you give me a lift home cause you know I live across the street from your house, we are neighbours. Will you be my friend? Do you know you are sexy looking?

Oh those muscles and that smile you are giving me right now, you know I have a crush on you and I hope you do date girls like me, I know it will work out because I will care for and love you. Oh my gosh, what was I thinking that is crazy and unhealthy that shouldn't happen, I think to myself, blushing.

"I see you don't talk much but I was wondering if you wanted a lift home since it is raining, I don't mind," he said while grinning.

Oh, I can't believe what this person is saying. I don't know if I should say, I would love to, but I don't want to. Who am I kidding I want but no I can't because this will make everything very awkward. What will I say to him? I don't want to experience that feeling right now, I know I will be hard on myself for a while with the decision I am making, but it is for the better good, right? I hope so.

"No thank you, I can manage without you giving me lift, you know I have legs that need to be used," I say pretending to smile. "But I can't allow a beautiful girl like you to walk alone out in the rain." I almost fainted he said 'beautiful'! "Are you talking to me? You must be crazy thinking you can buy your way into my pants, mister. I am sorry that will never, I mean ever work, so do not try, you won't succeed."

While I'm walking I can see he is getting really annoyed, I mean any girl would say yes to such an opportunity, but this guy has got another thing coming if he thinks I'm one of those girls. Unfortunately for him, he got it all wrong.

"I know that is what you think of me, but I want to help out of the goodness of my heart and kindness since you live across my house. So what do you say?"

"Okay then, I would like it if you gave me a lift since you are begging me. Like I could see you almost wanted to cry because you felt sorry for me, thank you for actually caring about me" I say while getting in the car, smiling, because I was teasing him. He is smiling and what a smile it is, I would really love to see that smile every day since I am actually able to make him smile.

"You know you are really funny, I didn't think you were. You are so different, quiet and unapproachable if I may put it that way" he says while driving, focusing all his attention on the road. He is driving at a slower speed, like he wants this conversation to last longer. I go with the flow. What is he trying to do? This guy is really full of himself.

"That is why I didn't need you giving me a lift, because I like to distance myself from people," I say while looking at my hands and playing with my fingers. I am surprised at myself because I don't confide so easily. He is good at talking with people, I can see that.

"I don't know why you do that. I have been wondering whether there is something deeper that has to do with it, but whatever it is, you don't need to live your life like you are caged in somewhere… I don't know, but I can only imagine." The way he said it, it was like he has experienced it or saw it in some way. It's like he is a package full of surprises, a package that I will know someday, but right now I really can't because I am scared of whatever it is that comes with it.

"You say it as you've once lived it or know it, whichever it is, there is no way you can know that about me or just guess something like, you know it or something." I say as if though I can feel it, but I cannot put my finger on it. As we arrive at my house I get out of the car and close the door.

"Thank you by the way."

"Don't mention it" Kyle smiles and drives off. Oh my, this is just, I have no words for it but, okay it's better than not talking to him at all. As I walk into my house it is not that big. A medium house big enough for four people. I go in and expect my mom to talk to me and ask me why I am late only just arriving at this hour, but instead I find a letter reading:

"Sorry honey will be home late I got called in at work and your dad will be late don't stress about cooking will bring food when I get back love mom."

Thank you very much for a stress-free day. I need to take a shower and take a nap.